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manic bipolar depression

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    Originally posted by: maureen on 30 July 2012

    Hello I have only recently diagnosed after two attempts on my life & my new husband of just over a year leaving me twice as he could not undertastand what was happening, I can not understand it. I just absolutley go beserk and throw things and swear at him disgustly threaten to bash him and over absolutly no reason,I dont want to be like this i have beutiful small grandchildren and i love myhusband so much i dont want to hurt him and i dont want to lose him,of I was sexually abused as a little girl of four years old, I was then raped by two males when i was 14, I never told anyone about this until recently , My first husband kicked the s*** out of me when i was seventeen and 7months pregnant with our first child, he went on to do this a few times more in our married life, he threatened to kill me if i tried to leave, I had a new man after 20years who was mentally abusive then sadly i lost a nother husbandto cancer in 2001, met someone else who was mentally abusive, I wasliving in the UK at this time, my sister had Breast cancer and died in 2009 but before that my darling my got Motor Neurons disease and passed away in december 2007. My son and daughter contacted me about two months ago and told me to get some help as i had a problem and i was also stealing from my family and it was from then that things got really bad and i took an overdose of pills, then went on three weeks later attempted to slit my wrists. I never sleep anymore even with the medication I take every night. I want to be happy and my husband back has any body got any ideas, I am seeing a counsellor & Psycatrist but its not enough, does anybody have any ideas onthis
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    Originally posted by: stephen on 31 July 2012

    Hi Maureen, Boy you have been through a lot. You have made a good decision coming to Beyond Blue for advice and support. I don't suffer from Bipolar Disorder (also known as manic depression) but I do know it is treatable and manageable. I recently made a new friend who has Bipolar and he is continually working with his Doctor to get his medications right. Have you been on medication for long? Stephen x
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    Originally posted by: David Charles on 31 July 2012

    Dear Maureen, That's a lot of abuse. And not much counselling. Your biggest concern would have to be the lack of a sleeping pattern. Even the strongest mood balancing drug would find it tough to continue to work if you really aren't sleeping properly. Your inhibitions seem low. Is this normal for you ? It seems amazingly strange that you didn't receive some diagnosis or help after ONE suicide attempt, let alone TWO. Sometimes mania leads to a need for anger management but being old seems to come with a certain crankyness. You might find professional help a bit so-so but if your actions lead you to be Sectioned against your will in an institution you might finally get the opportunity to resolve what seems to be a multitude of problems. The way you pile problem onto problem when you write is actually part of the problem. Back off from the venting just enough to pick some issue that is more important and worth spending time on. If you can work thorugh one issue without getting frustrated then there's no reason why you can't carve up a few more in a healthier frame of mind. Mania is easier to treat than Anger. Adios, David.
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    Originally posted by: karen on 31 July 2012

    Hi Maureen, You've had so much trauma in your life. I don't know how old you are but there could also be a hormonal element. Have you thought about a stay in a mental health clinic? Is your doctor aware of how desperate you are feeling at the moment? Perhaps a second opinion might be helpful. take care, karen
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    Originally posted by: David Charles on 1 August 2012

    Dear Maureen, It would be tricky, on a re-read, for any husband to have a stable relationship with you whilst you are not sleeping. This is a serious problem. Your GP might be able to recommend some pscyhiatric care to organise workable medication and square off the non sleeping. All your communication or reactions will be jarred by this lack of rest. The thing is your body will adapt to any sleeping pattern so the longer you have no control over sleep the more entrenched the pattern will be. Some might suggest music or a hot bath and hot drink before bed but it's up to you to find something that works and gets you into a regular sleep pattern. Time out is another option. Aren't you sick of the constant stimulus ? Adios, David.
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    Originally posted by: geoff on 2 August 2012

    dear Maureen, what can I say, but hell, this is such an awful amount of trauma that you have had to endure, my god I just believe it, my heart just sympathizes for you. I suggest that you get another opinion and/or have a rest in a hospital, because there's just too much going on in your mind, because it's all too confusing, and it seems as though you can't pin-point one item to be sorted out, or which one to start with. Many people come and go on this site and unfortunately we don't know how they are going, and this could be for many reasons, but please I am IMPLORING you not to be one of these people. Here you can at least talk to us, people who had a terrible experience themselves, and people who have empathy for you, and hell this is what you need at the moment, so please write back to us, you really need this support. Love to hear from you, and take the greatest care. Love Geoff. xx
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