You can do all that here. 😸
There is also a forum for people to talk about Loss & Grief
Six years is six years. There is no 'too long' or 'too short about it' Everyone processes losses & grief each in their own time & way. There are no 'right' or 'wrong' ways of doing it.
I did come to understand, being able to push things aside is unsustainable. Things do have a way of coming out, sometimes in very unexpected way. I think the harder I try to push something away, the more it seems to become a battle, & so becomes tiring & frustrating, & causes me much anger & pain. & it wold've been easier to accept what I had experienced & what I felt in the first place. I would have been easier on myself, many years ago.
For me, someone I grieve, I feel I will to some extent, be grieving for as long as I live. I don't think it's a bad thing, either. An amazing person had been in my life a while, had been the most important friend I have evr thought I might have, & was too young. But it was so complicated,... nothing I could do then, & nothing to do anymore. So, it still makes me sad. But not all the time, not overwhelming me when it does so much. It's better.
This is what happens over time when we learn to live with our losses. I do believe, you've got to feel & acknowledge the loss first, even as tempting as it would be to avoid.