Im sorry that you have experienced this I understand that it would be difficult for you.
It must have been so hard for you when you experienced the grief you experienced at that moment I understand it would have been heart wrenching and a shock to be told this.
Its hard…. Why can’t you let it go?
Have you been able to allow the emotions to arise in you from this part of your life and really let them be there and acknowledge them?
I believe to really be able to heal from something we need to allow the emotions and then move through them with a different outcome in the end……….
A different outcome in our mind ….. a new pathway….
Maybe forgiving ourselves if we need to or others….
Congratulations on your beautiful children that you have now……