Sounds like you have done an amazing job to support your daughter with her transition back to her unit. Well done.
I’d like to gently ask if your daughter has a safety plan in place? This could be a really useful tool for her right now. Bb has an app called Beyond Now which you may want to consider.
I understand what you mean by the constant tension and need to be on call 24/7. It’s exhausting. But please know that it can improve.
People unfortunately fall ill, but they also get better.
I understand that you’re hurt by your daughter’s behaviour. I have been hurt too and I get it. But when our children are hurting they often take things out on the people they love.
I don’t think a lot of people understand how painful MH conditions can be and how they impact families and carers along with the person who is unwell.
I’m hoping that your dad is recovering well and that your husband is supportive of you. How is your youngest child getting on?
Please try to care for yourself. Eat well, try to get adequate rest, slip in some exercise and do what you can to “shut off”. Perhaps listen to music, watch a movie or just enjoy a warm bath—whatever you would enjoy. It helps to balance out the pain.
Remember, your oxygen mask first.
You’ve got a lot on your plate right now and it would be lovely if the universe would just give you a break. I wish there was more I could do or say to help.
Kind thoughts to you