Not sure if I'm posting in the right spot. Never felt more alone than I do today. Lost my mum nearly 3 years ago, she was my best friend, she'd just be there to listen, I thought I had friends that were like that but after going through a long grieving process, I'm still grieving, they disappeared, one turned their back so bad it made me suicidal, but I've noticed a peace in my life since she's been gone that made me see she was toxic not helpful, thought I'd found another friend who would be there no matter what but she just doesn't talk to me anymore. Vcommon denominator here is me, so I'm sitting here thinking I've done something wrong, everything is usually my fault, don't contact someone for two months and get blasted for it, even though I was sorting through mums stuff I was in the wrong. I am not good at writing down thoughts and feeling so I hope I make sense. I'm ready to just walk away from life but I have my dog to think about he keeps me going, he listens without judgement or questioning why I feel like I do. Which is why I'm here, I know I'm not the only one who is completely alone, no one to talk to I've considered ringing beyond blue just to talk to someone get these thoughts that are running around in my head out, but I always think that there is someone out there worse than me that needs them.