Thank you for your reply. I’ve been reading other posts after my post tonight. It’s my first day here on this site and I am definitely looking forward to breaking this disorder.
Over the many years, I’ve tried and heard of all the things we can do to calm the attack. My attacks use to rise slowly, the doctors would always use a scale of 1-10 to describe how I am feeling. There are many times when we can stop the anxiety attack. Unfortunately by now. It feels like I can go from a normal state to a heavy attack (say a 7-8) within just a blink. Just a quick thought that comes accross My mind can change and go to a 7-8 within a few secs. We all know that the panic attack only last a few minutes before our body drop dead, or run out of adrenaline that the attack runs out of steam.
I guess now im having to learn to have to deal with this situation I have, this may sound silly, but all those lighter attacks over the years are no longer a problem for me as the ones I have now are nowhere compared to those. I get use to all the physical symptoms of heart racing, sweaty palms, difficulty breathing, ears aching, hot and cold flushes, your legs feel like they want to drop.
The attacks now are all in the mind. You get like a thousand thoughts going through at the same time. Feeling confused as hell in a matter of seconds. You don’t know which way to go and which thought is rational. That’s few minutes which feels like a long time is very hard to handle. I can’t handle it. Now I get to the point even having someone next to me cannot calm me down. But I’m looking for a way out, so that’s why I am here. Anything helps, and maybe this is my last stop.