I'm so sorry to hear about your experience. I was shaking uncontrollably and nearly had a panic attack before my first jab, also because of what I've heard about the side effects to people around my age. I also don't deal very well with needles anymore. So I know how you're feeling, that's completely normal.
Firstly, I'd like to say, it's great that you've recognised that you're struggling with these panic attacks. That's the first step to overcoming them - acknowledging that they're happening. It's also very good to see you making use of our forums and opening up to us about this, thank you for your honesty.
In a short-term sense, you may find it useful to talk to somebody who can provide you non-judgemental support, advice, and immediate assistance. I would encourage you to give us a call on the Beyond Blue Support Service; we're available 24/7 by phone on 1300 22 4636.
In a longer-term sense, I'd have a look into seeing a counsellor, therapist, or psychologist. I was struggling with panic attacks and general mental health things earlier this year, so I went to go see a counsellor who gave me some fantastic advice and pointed me in the right direction for seeking a psychologist. You can also check out the Australian Psychological Society website to search specifically for psychologists/therapists in your area.
You may also find it useful to have a chat to your GP about how you're feeling. They may also give you some great resources to ease your anxiety about the jab.
I wish you well in your situation, and hope you feel better soon. Take care.
Kind regards, SB