Hey hey my favourite Super Hero!
Alot going on for you atm! Huge hugs! 🤗
I just read your entire thread and want to join everyone else by saying OMG YOU ARE SO WORTHY!
You ROCK that ride on lawn mower! And even FIX the darned thing too!
I'm sure you have OTHER fine qualities too, Mrs Not_Batman has fine taste! 😉
Just a few points...
My specialist trauma psych told me last year that when she FIRST meets her patients, she ALWAYS has to work with them on their depression first and usually for up to 18 months, BEFORE she can begin working on the PTSD (which is basically extreme anxiety in PTSD form).
I didn't have depression when I saw her (which she found highly unusual) but I had spent 10y battling it on my own well before this. I certainly still have bouts in reaction to sad happenings.
Take whatever you want from that info.
Secondly, and PLEASE correct me if I'm wrong (it's happened a coupla times lol! just joking)...
You mentioned feeling overwhelmed a number of times.
Then mentioned one thing ie that situation where your worker was accused etc.
Anxiety can be a total wild rabid dog to reign in at times!
Anxiety takes a spark and creates wildfires left, right and centre.
Going back to baseline helps alot.
Writing exactly WHAT is overwhelming you in the MOMENT, then a potential solution or NO solution (like in a spreadsheet ABC columns) can place actual events / things / people in 'tangible' sight.
Some things we have zero control over, cross them off the list.
The more we work within our "circle of influence", the more stuff we get control over.
You CAN and WILL control your mind.
It's YOUR mind after all, you OWN it.
I found the Dr Joe Dispenza meditations awesome.
Also the works of Stephen Covey.
Living in the NOW and not trying to solve all the past issues you've had and ALL the future ones too in your drive to work helps.