You've said sorry three times and on here, we all know there's an unwritten rule that you don't need to even say it "once".
I'm so pleased that you've written back and just to see your name here again; BUT the massive thing here is YOU. And you have to do whatever it is you need for yourself at this time. We did receive a message from Christopher stating that he'd been in touch with you to make sure that things were ok and mentioned that after all, this is an internet site where people have the "right" to come and go as they please. That's where you didn't need to say sorry.
We are all concerned for you (as we're concerned for everyone who comes here) but we are concerned for you and how you were during last week. Hence why there were some posts - just kinda checking up on you to make sure that you're ok.
I really don't think I'm expressing myself well here, but all I'm trying to say is that, you need to solely look after yourself and by you not coming on this site for a while was one of the ways you were doing that. And for that please please don't feel as though you have to come back and apologise to any of us.
This is tough, because I know what I want to say, but don't think I did it very well.
I'll just finish by saying "Suz, take care - come back here whenever you feel ready too AND if you don't, then that's cool too. You are the priority right now and I'm glad that you have identified that you need to work on yourself right now".
My kindest regards to you Suz