I knew I'd forgotten something which had been advertised, but I couldn't remember what, where, or when, & got too caught up in researching & writing a response to a post,& went & lost it all!
It is a bit like a gamble for me, when I choose to watch or listen to something, which I know might deeply effect me. Sometimes they do, sometimes not. Sometimes the same programme will have a very different effect, for better or worse, when I see it again, or for the sixth time, Some episodes of Law & Order SVU are like that for me; unpredictable.
I'll feel familiarity with the repeated programme, but couldn't tell you what happens in the next 2 minutes, so it is almost like seeing it for the first time, even years after I first saw it, & I may have seen it a dozen time, for all I know. I'm sure I've seen some programmes many times.
There are times I know I have enough, for now, & I am feeling my emotions are too volatile to watch something which has the potential to strike home.
I know, especially with the news, repeating, replaying video of events, hours, let alone days on end, gets too much for me. It begins to feel like multiple events, & too overwhelming. I must stop watching. That's happened in 2001, & with the bushfires & floods, & COVID-19 reporting. The COVID-19 updates, these were getting blurred & muddled in my head. So now I am not seeking out tv reports - on News 24, the only one I purposely watch to begin with.
Sometimes, I feel I want to help, but from where I am, know I can't do anything. That can make me feel helpless, & so sad, too.
You got to have a break sometimes. It's like have a break or be broken.
I look at my own life, & approaching looking at the whole, it feels overwhelming, far too much to have had to cope with. But, in one way or another I did, because life came at me one bit at a time, & sometimes, there was a break. I imagine these time like being washed up upon a beach, an island, & being able to rest.
You know the saying, "don't put all your eggs in one basket"? Good to remember, eh?
So, what about those crows, with wings! 😺 Noisy? & I can't scare them off one bit. Maybe if I put on some overalls, & a big old hat, & stuck straw out the leg holes, & bib, d'ya think I could, then?
I also went & listened to last Tuesday's2nd Nov, Lunchtime Concert - Diana Doherty playing oboe,with orchestra. She is so good! Things like that do take my mind away, when I need.