I'm with you on the "work days" being the good ones. Unfortunately, I haven't had one of those for a good 4 months. Nowadays I like Wednesday and Thursday because everyone goes away and leaves me alone, wife and kids all at school. Even though I can't stand the boredom of being at home doing nothing, I feel so much more at peace when I am. Crazy? Probably. When I am surrounded by family I feel so "obliged" to do all the tasks that need doing and I cannot help myself. It almost feel like if I don't do all that I can in my limited spectrum, I feel guilty of being lazy. The only time I feel totally relaxed is when I am alone, different from you I suppose, or somewhere out in the middle of nowhere fishing by a lake or something. Unfortunately that doesn't happen frequently enough. I cannot get out of suburbia - no lakes or wilderness anywhere nearby. The rest of the days are just a repeat of the same before...have coffee, make lunches, do dishes, do laundry, feed chickens, feed fish, feed dog because son forgot to, look for work, stress about money, wonder what to do for rest of day, etc. etc....Sorry for being so negative, just the way things have been lately. I think I might be the same as you in a way, whereas I try to please my spouse as much as possible when they are at home and also have to keep busy all the time or thoughts just come crumbling in. Yet, I find the solitude most relaxing, as I don't have to face anyone or anything while I am alone. Can't say I am depressed, even with self diagnosis on this site, though I am probably in denial. I feel so badly for folks like you who can't get through the "good" periods of life without the side effects of depression and I hope things get sunnier. Cheers and good luck.