Rose, welcome to the forum.
This is a caring, nonjudgmental and supportive place.
Thanks for your honesty and I can u derstand hwo you have come a long way but still would like answers.
I was diagnosed with bipolar over 40 years ago.
i can share some of my experiences but they are only mine and may not be helpful to you.
I have experienced hyperrsexuakity , excessive spending , and lots of fast thoughts and other behaviours when Inwas manic.
When I was medicated I still like spending but I tried to keep it under control.
As to controlling online shopping I closed my account on eBay, or I only bought things ,a when I had someone trusted around.
i would encourage you to be honest with your doctor and explain how you feel. Are you seeing a psychiatrist or a GP?
Feel free as Pamela says to have a look at the bipolar thread as we are a friendly bunch then.
Thanks for sharing your story. You are not alone..
feel free to postvhere as much as you like.