Sorry to hear you are feeling this way; it sounds really tough.Thank you for being part of our forums, it takes a lot of courage and strength to reach out for support and we are so glad that you have done so. We hope that you can get some support here, the community will be here to listen and chat with you. We are sorry to hear you are having suicidal thoughts, but glad to hear that you are safe. We encourage you to reach out to Beyond Blue 1300 22 4636 or Lifeline 13 11 14 for some support. If, however, you feel unable to keep yourself from acting on your thoughts about suicide this is an emergency and you need to call 000 (triple zero).