Hello b_nderz and Livvie, welcome to the forums.
What we anticipate will happen in life doesn't always happen, not because of how our life has gone, but because circumstances have prevented it to and these could relate for so many different reasons.
It must be hard being alone and if you want to tell us a little more, then people who have been in similar situations will understand and be able to relate with you.
Take care.
Geoff.