l hope you didn't upset yourself talking about all that , but thanks for explaining.
Me nah , l couldn't care less about being productive , maybe l'm lucky eh haha. Well except for work but that's only bc l sort of do enjoy it too but also good old money, gotta have the stuff right. But l just get ideas the creative side is a real pain in the backside and then l just can't wait to try it or make it or change it or cut it in two or whatever the case may be. And l do get a kick out of it , and a kick out of what shouldn't be done or what others would never do haha, all kinds of reasons for whatever the case may be at the time . Crazy really but it often very rewarding too the end result.
But yeah l'm realizing lately l need to slow them down , get done what's waiting on me now and then, well then , maybe one at a time and "JUST", now and then. There's a target for me eh. l'll have to tie my hands up l think.
l;m sorry you fell into the yes person and brainwashing of productivity, you do see and feel that a lot in these times for sure and the mentality is pushed in Australia . Luckily for me l've never suffered any mainstream pressures what so ever, always been my own show my way and rebellious toward it, just done my thing. l have known people and see it though, it's everywhere these days. l'm glad you found your way off that thing though, no good , just no good at all.
So of course never been the yes person thing either, l don't answer to anyone except gf now haha, or ex when l was married. l work for myself have all my life and l set it up in a way that l don't have much pressure, or answer to customers, they come at the end, when l'm done.
That question is so so important though, l've ignored it myself too for long stints, yrs sometimes. lt's actually one of the things that's brought on where l'm at with all this stuff l put myself in for, it's not making me happy or giving me a kick any more.lt use to and a lot of satisfaction , but not lately.
All the best anyway eh , and l hope you find yourself a new way to live and exist that makes you happy.