I have been out of work for 5 years. I don't go out. I have no friends I can just call. All my friends are either on-line, or are family friends via my wife. Overweight. Feelings that I may have become cynical in the last 10 years, though others tell me I am not. Suggestions that it may be paranoia. I don't feel worthless, but I always feels that others are, and not me. I believe this is a vengeance-based feeling due to how I have been treated by others most of my life. Beginning to see the fact that I may have depression and that I don't want it. I know in my intellect that I have to think positively and to see the silver lining in everything, but I do not know how to put this into practice in real life.
Can anyone let me know what to do about all of this?