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Topic: Quit my job due to depression and anxiety

    14 posts
    25 April 2017

    Hi all my first post.

    I recently resigned from my corporate job and have 1 and a half weeks till I finally leave, early May.

    The job pays 80k and I have no other job lined up, luckily I have managed to save money up but I could not cope anymore as my depression was overwhelming me and my workload was ever increasing. The company is very disorganised and I was given no training or handover with 4 major projects and management didnt care they expected me to deliver by working unpaid overtime.

    It came to a head one day when I started crying at my desk, luckily no one saw me. The work colleagues are horrible and evil, one of them was making fun of me saying I was going to fail in delivering one of the projects and another guy said I was too ugly to have a girl friend. I have been single for a very long time but have a few close female friends but I m in the friend zone only which probably only adds to my depression and loneliness.

    The sheer workload every day makes me anxious and I struggle to get out of bed on workdays, even on my days off I cannot sleep and when I do I get out of bed at 1-2pm as I have no motivation whatsoever.

    I have told them I am leaving for personal reasons as I plan to spend time with my elderly mother, I did not trust them to tell them I was depressed and unhappy in the company and my role. I actually asked for 3 months Long Service Leave but they said we were too busy and they couldn't let me have time off. I have 9 weeks sick leave and I sometimes think I should have taken the sick leave instead but I know deep down I hate the job and the company and all that will do is delay the inevitable.

    I m scared of not having a job especially when I was paid a decent salary, I haven't looked for one as I don't know what to do, I don't think I can work anymore in evil greedy Corporate Companies that use you, I was only making the Execs rich working all the extra hours.

    But I realise my mental health is suffering and I have to walk away from all the noise and get my health, happiness, motivation and passion back. Its actually hard for me to apply for other jobs when I m so depressed all the time as this will show up in job interviews, its hard to hide. I am worried when I apply for jobs the fact I quit will go against me, but I did work for my current company for almost 10 years.

    Has anyone been or is in a similar situation and give me advice, I m so unhappy all the time and hope it will lift when I walk out the door.

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  2. Doolhof
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    25 April 2017 in reply to SHELBY MUSTANG

    Hi Shelby Mustang,

    Welcome to the community here. I really sorry to read of how depressed and stressed you are at present.

    There are many people here on the forum who know a lot more about work situations and how to deal with them than I do, so hopefully someone will offer you some advice.

    I left work due to depression, stress and also a medical condition. My Dr has suggested I have 6 months off and now receive minimal Government funding. It is a struggle at times.

    As you will have time off soon, I would like to suggest you talk to a GP about how you are feeling and seek some professional advice and assistance as well through a counsellor or psychologist.

    Chatting here will help as well. I try to write down how I am feeling in a journal, that helps me get the negatives out of my head and also helps to clarify how I am feeling.

    Pressure and stress in the work place is extremely unfortunate. I hope you are able to have a rest, receive help in understanding how you are feeling and will then be able to move on to another job where you are treated as a person.

    Cheers for now from Mrs. Dools

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  3. Carla09
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    25 April 2017 in reply to SHELBY MUSTANG

    hi Shelby,

    i worked in a company for 10 years and i candefinetelyrelate to the bullying...I experienced being bullied due to being promoted to a position...and then I also experienced all the gossip ...initially when I started in the company it was my first proper corporate job and i was not used to the aggressive nature of the corporate workforce...i remember there being a very verbally loud receptionist who would loudly complain about people in the kitchen...and i remember walking into the kitchen and this lady had been complaining about a dish i had other work colleagues.....and some of them were seniors in the company so as a junior employee imwas mortified that i was being mocked....anyway...while i completely agree with cleaning up aftwr yourself...i do believe the professional thing would have been to let me know personally and let me explain myself....anyway...that lady would randomly choose new people to victimise and shame.....pulblic shaming and bullying is very common in offices and...i often felt like i had stepped into a nastier version of highschool...anyway...10 years on I developed a much thicker skin...i refused to be involved in any 'social' events for work, never went to christmas parties and lunch was time to myself to pay bills, read etc...that very strict division of my personal and work life did wonders for me....i had originally tried to befriend people in the company and i think that this left me emotionally vulnerable.....p.s never add any work people to facebook

    I concentrated on doing whatever was necessary at work... i also concentrated on making small goals for myself and just try to get as much training as possible....also wear earphones..this is a great way from inviting casual conversation and guarding yourself....

    it actually helps to laugh at all the silly mind games people play....ire,ember telling my husband about the plate issue and cracking up at how absurd office behaviour can be...

    Also don't take what work people say about you to heart..they are a very poor judge of you as they are your competition not friends and the work environment conditions people to behave in quite nasty ways...

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  4. interloper
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    25 April 2017 in reply to SHELBY MUSTANG

    As far as leave goes, I thought that LSL was an entitlement and there were different rules for taking it vs annual leave. Will you get a payout for your LSL entitlements?

    Re. sick leave, if you could have got a doctor's certificate and taken sick leave that would have meant not being there and still getting paid. The other side of it is you still have ties to the workplace and sometimes you have to cut and run.

    I have just put in for next year off without pay under a family leave entitlement, so I have a job to go back to in 2019. Time to get some time to yourself will be good. You can always make money but you cannot make time. My job also demands unpaid work out of hours and it is running me into the ground. If you have some breathing space financially that will be good for you to work out your next decision for a healthier you.

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    25 April 2017 in reply to interloper

    Hi Interloper, originally my Team Leader said it was ok to take LSL, but he came back the next day and said they couldnt let me have the whole lot, he must have been over ruled by MGT, instead I could take a 2 week block here and there by using odd days adding up to 2 weeks. This would have meant my work would not be handed over and I would need to work late to catch up when I returned after each day(s) off, more stress that I didnt need.

    I get paid out my LSL, but probably at a high tax rate as it is almost 3 months Lump Sum Payment, I couldnt hold onto next July to quit and a possible lower tax threshold as the job was slowing sending me insane.

  6. interloper
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    25 April 2017 in reply to SHELBY MUSTANG

    Yer, that sucks. Shitty management wanting to save money at their worker's expense. Nothing lost there except a bit of tax. Yer, will lose a whack with your tax free threshold reached and income pushing the LSL payout up (my quick calculations put it at $7000), but that is assuming you won't work at all next financial year. If you do then that would quickly move it back towards not making a difference if you quit before or after July.

    One way of looking at it is you are getting a lump sum. My suggestion would be to something positive with it to make you feel better. Invest it. Take a holiday. Buy something you've wanted. Do all three. I don't know. I do know that money means nothing if you don't spend it, so either invest it to make more to spend or cut to the chase and use it to improve your quality of life.

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    25 April 2017 in reply to interloper
    The Company has an embargo on anyone taking leave from June till September due to end of Financial Year, so I was thinking of taking a holiday to Canada to beat the winter here and enjoy the summer over there. Otherwise I would just be sitting at home in the cold eating takeaway, so why not eat take away in the sun in Canada, it may recharge my batteries as well.
  8. Be the Self
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    29 May 2017 in reply to SHELBY MUSTANG
    Hey Shelby, I too have walked away from the Corporate life after 12 years. The corporate world is full of self centred, egotistical people. Companies, Directors and those employees stupid enough to think they are going somewhere are all the same. The irony is they all claim they are doing something different, something special, something unique. Yeah, yeah like all the other 6 billion people on the planet. They are working like soldier ants to acquire goods. They are working to keep busy, around the clock. They are working so they never get to smell the roses, watch the sunset. They are working to fill a void that cant be filled with a new car or a better house, but they still can't work this out. All the things they are working to acquire are non permanent and will perish. Leaving the corporate world is the best thing you can do for yourself. While you have some free time read the best spiritual books you can get your hands on. Your new life is waiting and the path lies in your heart. I wish you love and happiness.
  9. Smithy1234
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    9 August 2017

    Shelby, by now you have probably already quit but for anybody else reading this in a similar situation:

    I quit a job that I hated about 12 months ago. I too found myself crying at my desk and I realised I needed to get out, even though I had nothing lined up.

    I said that I was leaving due to family reasons and my last day at that company was probably the happiest I had felt since starting work there. It was like my heart was 10kg lighter!

    I ended up finding another job after taking some time to recharge and get my mental health back on track. This job is a much better environment and quitting my last job was the best decision I ever made.

    It is very important to take up some hobbies or make some plans for the period immediately after quitting. Get some sunshine, do something you enjoy or take up something you never had the time to do.

    I also highly recommend reading the book 'feel the fear and do it anyway' which really taught me some good things.

    Toxic environments are not worth it. Life is too short to be everyday with horrible people. Not all workplaces are the same, get out and find something better and look after yourself :)

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  10. Mr Percival
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    19 September 2017

    Hi Shelby

    I have just quit my job after only 11 months of poor treatment. I was being snapped at on a daily basis for effectively just doing my job. The workplace has no policies or procedures, and I don't even have a job description! I was basically doing what needed to be done to keep the workplace running, and being harassed constantly. On my days off, I was constantly worried and stressed about what I would get yelled at about when I returned to work the next day.

    The anxiety built up over the months, to the point where I had a bit of a breakdown and burst into tears at work; I had been made to feel as though I was incompetent and completely useless at my job. I quit by saying I was suffering anxiety on a daily basis and simply couldn't stand being there anymore...but I'm sure the boss who was causing the problems won't even recognise the fact that she was the one causing the issue :(

    Like you, I was earning a decent $80K a year, and have nothing to go to. I will be getting 2 weeks of accrued annual leave paid out and have some money saved up.....I still have 2 days left of work to endure, I am hoping that the anxiety will go once I have finally finished.

    I am sure by now that you have left your toxic work environment, hopefully you are back on your feet and feeling much happier :)

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  11. Sad Puppy Dog
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    21 September 2017 in reply to SHELBY MUSTANG

    Hi Shelby,

    5 years ago I quit my job. I was burnt out, probably some months beforehand. By the time I knew it, it took me a few weeks to finally psyche myself up to tell my manager and it was one of the hardest things I ever had to do.

    I was in a demanding sales environment, which is stressful in itself. Don't produce results, don't eat. It was my partner of the time (Who we met as co-workers in the same job a few years prior before she quit due to sickness) who was trying to encourage me to finish up. Even though I was frustrated with the job I was resistant, until I could resist no more.

    I felt guilty and empty for spending the past 8 yrs denying my creative impulses to pursue a film making career, what I was doing before the job. But the environment got toxic and political, there were threats of demotion if I didn't improve, my manager had a dysfunctional relationship with me because I always wanted to please him but he also knew how to exploit me. I was not a born salesman but I developed a strong work ethic so I had to grind harder, work more hours, even weekends to try to go for my next promotion and to survive. And he'd encourage me to do more and more. I had no social life. Most of my friends faded away. It was almost 24/7. And my manager had little understanding or empathy regarding depression, until his on marriage dissolved. And I didn't find that out for awhile but in that time he was mentally absent and I was alone trying to get forward without his active mentorship. I was drowning.

    I knew I wanted to get back into film but didn't know how. It would be starting from scratch again Facing the unknown was utterly scary. It was safer and more comfortable to stay in this sales career with no stable income than to quit. But I did, I quit. Eventually, doing that job for any longer was more sickening and awful to me than having no job and total uncertainty.

    The day I quit was surreal. After I left, I suddenly had time to go into the city and look around the shops for awhile, something I haven't done in AGES. It was strange but liberating.

    I wouldn't say things have been totally easy since. Forging a career in the arts is HARD, I have had depression relapses and 2 big heartbreaks but by God I would NEVER EVER go back to that sales environment again. There were some good memories and personal growth but if you're not happy, sometimes a clean break has to happen for your sanity and well being.

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  12. dominoes
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    25 November 2017

    I don't know if you are still reading this thread, but I am in the same boat. I just walked away from $100,000 a year due to depression. The job would have only made it worse due to the stress. I too am single and have nobody to lean on.

    I realise I have a problem and I need to get my life on track. This has been going on for a long time. I'm taking time out now, and not working, and will probably try to get something after 6 months.

    The system in cruel. If you leave a job to save your own life, other employers look at this and turn you away. It's cruel and it's wrong. I've now come to a point where I am sick of being trapped and am going to take things day by day for as long as I can.

    You only have one life.. Why waste it doing a job you hate and blindly following a line you know will never take you to where you want to go! I've jumped off the train too many times now, at great cost money wise.

    I wish all of you the best in your search!

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    27 November 2017 in reply to Smithy1234

    Hi everyone well its coming up to 7 months since I left my job. All the stress and anxiety washed away as soon as I walked out the door.

    I did turn down a temp job for a 4 week assignment a few months ago as I felt I still needed time away and did not want to go back to a corporate company.

    Recently I have looked to change careers and go into government jobs even on a part time basis to ease myself back in, however it is a tough world out there as I even missed out on entry level jobs which I thought I might get with my Management experience. I believe a lot of government jobs are already filled with someone in an acting capacity and they just interview because they have to and they want to promote the person acting in the role to a permanent status.

    So that has made me a bit disillusioned so I have decided to continue to take a bit more time off for the summer and will either look next March or might take off on a trip around Australia or overseas for 6 months.

    My depression comes and goes, some days I force myself out the door and go for a walk to my local library just to get out in the land of the living.

    I don't regret leaving my job as I was having a complete breakdown, I just need to get motivated and will look for some self help books to work out what to do with my life.

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    27 November 2017 in reply to SHELBY MUSTANG

    Hi Shelby Mustang....Sweet Ride by the way....I wish!

    .....and welcome Dominoes :-)

    Shelby mentioned "All the stress and anxiety washed away as soon as I walked out the door"

    What a great thread! I was made redundant in Jan 2016 and joined the Beyond Blue forums just after. Its the best 2 years I have had in a long time....The depression reduced and the generalised anxiety too

    It took me many years to understand that my corporate life.....nice salary of six figures...nice fleet vehicle was only its best.

    I understand that the govt positions seem impossible to get into Shelby but after reading what you have written I see a legend and a determined one. They are the way to go for sure....

    I was just about to change my avatar to Brian.....seriously....I might just leave the eagle up.....

    Just so you know...I still take a small dosage of an SSRI everyday for the last 20 years to be effective at work and pay the mortgage of course....Just for me it was the smartest move I made despite being anti-meds

    Great thread Shelby Mustang...and thankyou for the reality check about health coming before corporate

    My Best


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    27 November 2017 in reply to blondguy

    Thanks for everyone's support to Dominoes I hope you were paid out annual leave and have money to get you thru the next 6 months, take time for yourself and reward yourself a nice beach holiday sitting by the pool or beach and feeling the warm weather on your face.

    One thing I noticed was in my job, every single day dragged on endlessly since I m not working the time has flown and I cannot believe its been 7 months gone like that.

    No matter how much you earn, the man who dies with a million dollars still dies, choose happiness over cash.

    Blond Guy yeah Brian always makes me happy such a quirky character, the new series on 7 mate is great, Brian has been thrown out of home and living on his own trying to get by, I can identify with him :)

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    27 November 2017 in reply to SHELBY MUSTANG

    Noted...7mate....Family Guy...and thanks!

    I am no expert Shelby but you are a total legend for noticing the difference in your health after you quit

    Health is paramount....all other considerations are secondary

    Great Stuff :-) and Go Ford!!


  17. Amy86
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    29 November 2017 in reply to dominoes
    Thank you for your post, I'm in a similar situation and ready to jump of that train too into the unknown :)
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  18. LoveJoy369
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    14 December 2017 in reply to Amy86

    Hi SHELBY/Amy,

    I have the similar situation. I resigned last month. I am not 100% blame on the job as I have tiny bit mental health issue since last year.

    Externally: the multinational company provides tons of learning opportunities and challenges. I was earning $80k plus as well. The task itself in a tidy environment would be so easy, but due to many staff turnover over 10 months period, lots of un-resolved items were sitting there without much supporting documents. During quarter ends, middle management and senior worked till 9pm (quite often) or even 11pm. I tried very hard to keep up a good work with tons of over time, Sat (self over time). I had a mental breakdown during one quarter end. I had to leave straight away as I could not think directly. The senior management team had a chat with me and understood why I left work so sudden. I truly appreciated that. Coming back from 10 days holiday, I was better but 3 weeks after I found myself have to settle for 2 hours each day to management my panic. In the end, I resigned for 'personal health' reason. My colleagues understood and all sent me sms when I resigned. I love the people but not the company (or the culture 'play hard, work extremely harder').

    I have been told I rarely gave myself credits and I set very high expectation for myself. So the time I resigned, I started again psychologist session as well. In fact, I always motivate people around me and I rarely show people I need a shoulder sometimes. I am feeling grateful that I am taking this break to see clearer about myself. Always external and internal factors that triggered me a 'breakdown'.

    Now I am at home with these schedules:

    Gratitude — List one thing you’re grateful for.
    Intention — How do you want to be today? Focused? Spontaneous? Light?
    Priorities — What are the 3 most important things you want to do today?
    Progress — What progress, however small, have you already made towards your goals?
    Opportunity — Every day can be an opportunity: What’s yours today?
    Request — Ask for what you need, from yourself, your family, and the universe!I

    Also suggest few books:

    -13 things mentally strong people don't do, by Amy Morin

    -The Top Five Regrets of the Dying, by Bronnie Ware

    -5 love languages, by Gary Chapman

    I read 2 books over last month and I am shining away from social life. I tried to be this forum on 14/11/17, but I was not ready at that time. I found the discussion was too much for me. Now I am much better.

    Together, we can do this:)


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  19. DeVoe
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    31 December 2017

    Hi all, I've been in my current job for nearly 6 years, there were times when I wanted to quit due to depression but I told myself I gotta stay strong because there'll be no better jobs out there in my field. All my friends have been there and done that, and none of them seems to be 100% happy about their jobs. I just see my job as a way to pay my bills as I get paid a decent amount. I'm too scared to resign because I don't know if I will be able to find a secure full time job to contribute to our home mortgage payments (my partner only works part time so if I drop my job we'll definitely struggle). I've always been regarded as the most diligent employee and a role model for the junior staff to look up to. The only thing I hate about my job is my colleagues. They don't care about the clients and when they make mistakes, they try to cover it up without admitting it and come up with plenty of excuses. When I make mistakes I'll try my best to fix the problem, unlike them who always brush it off. While I have a huge amount of regular clients that appreciate my work, the management doesn't seem to take notice of my effort. At work we have regular meetings where everyone can raise their concern about any matters or issues arising in our workplace to the management so they can come up with solution and strategies to solve them. Out of my frustration I often speak up and suggest a better way to deal with such issues eg having proper communication in place like leaving handover notes and reading others' notes so we can solve the clients' issues in a more professional manner. My idea was criticised as if I focused on the general matter, not the client in particular, but again, what are we trying to achieve here? Instead of supporting my idea, they said let's just get things done from here and not address this issue. As someone who is keen on learning how to do everything on the job, how would you feel when your manager only shows certain people how to do it and when you ask about it they'll just say it's not your responsibility so you don't have to know. My friends who work at other branches told me they were trained to do everything and I felt like I missed out on a lot of stuff. This job doesn't make me feel like a miserable loser. I dread going to work more than anything because it makes me feel like I never belong here, I'm not even sure if whatever I'm doing was ever considered of significance. Right now I think I need a long break to get over this mess.

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  20. Yes!2Life
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    23 April 2018 in reply to DeVoe

    Hi All,
    I read this post.. and decided to join BB.

    Everything I am about to write is really a conversation I am having with myself, but aloud here, so that all of you can hear what I am saying to myself. I am going through a life event and a very depressive time in my life etc..

    From all the read here, I wanted to add, I am feeling pretty tainted and jaded at my work place too. 16 years and counting... sigh :( phew

    But, some of the things I keep telling myself are .. I am aware that the structure of the world and the games we play are all intertwined in many or most of the jobs we are all involved in here. There is no escaping the work pressures, the human conditions and the extreme daily mental outcomes. Without being insensitive to my mental state, I just want to remember, the game of life is hard, the pitfalls, the heartaches, the disappointments, the agony .. and many more uugghh feelings, it's all a big wash of mental strain, but I do need to realize that inside me is a stronger version of me, that needs some coaxing and nurturing to continue the good fight no matter how tough. I say, YES, take the time out, do the rest thing, make changes, have a breather and all the things that you need to do to recharge the mind and soul, but, be sure to understand, not much would have changed on your return, don't softened yourself to the point that it all is ALWAYS way too much. I know it is, but as said earlier, the game is as such.. it's cruel and pushy, its ruthless and unforgiving at times too, what we can do apart from all the other things is to talk our selves into getting stronger and believing that we can win and we must strive, harder and even harder if need be. Our own lives and lives of our loved ones depend on these battles.

    If water was seen has life then, the same water can soften potatoes and again the same water can harden eggs. It's what you are made of in the end!
    I truly wish us all the strength, the blessings and the fortitude for the road ahead.
    GOD is Great!


  21. Always
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    9 May 2018 in reply to SHELBY MUSTANG

    I just wanted to say that this thread means a lot to me. I'm single and work in a stressful government job that pays about $77k. I have some debts and plenty of rent and bills to pay so i really stress about the idea of quitting and not being able to make ends meet as i haven't really been able to save much. My job causes me so much anxiety and panic that I've been unsure I can go on. But today i asked my team leader about seeing if i can go part time for a little bit - just to have 1 day per fortnight off. Hopefully this is possible. I need some time for me so i can get some balance back in my life. It would also make a good opportunity to see how I go on a slightly reduced income.

    I hope everything has worked out well for everyone else in this thread.

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  22. Doolhof
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    10 May 2018 in reply to Always

    Hi Always,

    Best of luck with this, hope it does work out for you.

    Do you have hobbies sand interests that you do enjoy doing when you have the time?

    Do you have ideas relating to what might help you feel better about life in general?

    Are there ways you can find ideas and strategies on how to deal differently with the issues at work? Is there a HR person you can talk to at work who may be able to help you with this?

    ope you find some answers.

    Cheers from Dools

  23. SoTrue
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    16 May 2018 in reply to SHELBY MUSTANG

    Hi Shelby,

    Thank you for this.. could not have come at a better time.

    I have 2 weeks left of my resignation period - the difference for me I had no bullying & my colleagues are wonderful, but the workload & stress has become insurmountable. I cannot stand my clients and the unrealistic expectations.

    Im afraid I have quit a "perfectly good job"

    Anyway, hope things have come up roses for you

  24. Evoleht95
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    23 May 2018 in reply to SoTrue

    Hi everyone!

    I have not left my job, however i do feel like i want to....

    My depression does not stem from work, but it certainly does contribute. My job (debts) is actually not that bad, the people i work with a re great, my managers have been really great with all the time i have taken off due to being physically unwell (something that my depression has affected) but the nature of my work tends to mean i am treated quite rudely and aggressively by customers, and even some with their own mental health issues which only triggers me. Some calls i can barely hold it together before i'm in tears. I feel as though i want to leave and focus on my study and my mental health, but with no leave left, only being at this job for 11 months, and nothing to go to i am really struggling and i feel as though i'm getting worse.

    I really don't know what to do, but i feel like if i stay in this job too much longer, my health is only going to get worse :/

    I'm not sure that i have helped anyone, but knowing that others are struggling as well has definitely made me feel less alone, and knowing i am not the only one is somewhat of a comfort.

    i wish all the best to everyone, and i hope we can all make it through !

  25. So-crates
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    7 June 2018
    I have recently resigned from my management position after six years in the role. During this time I have substantially worked seven days per week and and been on-call outside of working hours. I have received treatment for depression on and off most of my adult life and currently on anti depressant meds and counselling. For financial reasons I need to work and will instead take on a lower position in the same organisation at four days per week. I plan to address the many issues that I have ignored over the past six years, eating better, exercise, work at home, relationships. I am scared that despite the changes I will still not be up to the reduced workload and dread what the next step down will be. I also feel that I am betraying the organisation that I work for and leaving them in the lurch.
  26. Bedesdog
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    11 June 2018

    Hi all,

    some interesting stories. Thanks for sharing. I have just joined this website today.

    i was recently in a senior position earning in excess of $140k per year. The job was busy..with some stress.

    some recent organisational changes From a national manager (who was a mentor) to a state manager who knew nothing of my role.

    i had been there 2.5 years and all of the team I started with had left, so I felt like I was being pushed as I was always being blamed for not providing my colleagues with their requirements. Two of my colleagues had no experience in the industry I worked in (technical) but still management blamed me and constantly defended my colleagues in experience.

    i stared to get long emails from my colleagues to me with my manger ccd in blaming me for issues and what I had not done..

    this behaviuour by inexperienced colleagues led me to a point where I had to manager would not do anything to resolve.

    i had a car accident 4 months before this time where I was a passenger which I had ongoing physio appointments etc.

    i have the reason of my resignation to my manager due to stress and being micro managed by inexperienced colleagues along with the car accident. He offered no assistance or remorse..

    I managed to seek some counselling through my current accident claim..I have now been advised that I have depression and a mood disorder and have had for some time.

    i am hopeful of working through these issues but I now don’t have a job and have two young children and my wife only works part time.

    i have applied for over 40 jobs since 4th April but now feel guilty for re-signing a well paid job - Centrelink is a joke as I have run out of savings and putting everything into hardship mode before I consider selling car ..but still I can’t get anything to work with them..

    i am trying to come up with different lines of opportunity or jobs to apply for but until Centrelink officially recognise me as now in a disadvantaged position I can’t get any help.

    i am really at a wits end (my family is trying to help) but I get angry with the ‘system’ as people like me can just seem to easily disappear into a hole and never get out. No one would know..I have been told it’s my own fault for quitting without a job..I have never been unemployed before..

    just wandering if anyone else had any ideas as everything is compounding - accident, new found depression, feelings of worthlessness because I can’t get a job, my wife now stressed out.


  27. lilly2016
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    21 November 2018 in reply to SHELBY MUSTANG

    Hi there, it's been some time since you posted this and as a beyond blue user, I was curious to know what happened to your situation after you quit, I am in the same boat and just wanted to know how you got on.Regards,

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    25 February 2019 in reply to lilly2016

    Well hello there it’s been awhile, I had 15 months off work and I was very relaxed and had no worries apart from my diminishing savings. So I have returned to contract work and on my 3rd contract since August last year. It’s been difficult to find a job even entry level so I am grateful to be earning $$$ that said this current job is stressing me out I have been given no trading, some people have been there over 20 years so see me either as a threat or interloper and don’t talk to me so I basically sit in silence. So I am very unhappy and even though I think they will ask me to stag on I won’t I can’t work under those conditions with my anxiety and depression coming back so I will just see out my contract for the next few months and then have another break and maybe travel overseas if I feel up to it rather than slave unhappily away at another soul destroying job in a dark corporate company.

    I dont regret leaving my long term job, however sometimes me times I wish that I said I suffer from depression and need a year off just so I had a safety net to return but I know they would probably have said no and would have hurt my future referrals.

    So here I am again about to cast myself adrift into the wide blue sea of uncertainty but again I need that freedom and don’t want to spend my time away from work stressed and unable to sleep.

    I still haven’t found that peace but I need to keep looking and I have no happiness in my current role.

  29. Andoson72
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    9 posts
    7 September 2019 in reply to Always
    I too was earning 130k plus per year and had to quit and been unemployed for 2 out of the past 3 years and burns through over 100k in savings. The common denominator seems to be money and unhappy in our jobs. Ooh how much would depression resolve if we did not have to play this game of monopoly.
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  30. MlSn
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    2 posts
    23 September 2020 in reply to SHELBY MUSTANG

    Hello ShelbyMustang

    I have read your posts from2017 till 2019. You sound like a strong person. I have been jobless since March , due to poor coping ability , anxiety, loads of self doubt and feeling anti social. I am living on bank account money as I have no eligibility for Centrelink . Covid ( for me in Vic ) has kept me locked up most of the time at home on the internet. How are you now ?

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