Welcome to the forums and thank you for sharing your story with us here. It takes a lot of courage to reach out to our online community and we’re really glad that you have.
We are sorry to hear that lockdown and unsupportive friends have got you feeling so low that you are questioning your purpose and that you don't feel like living anymore. We understand how hard it can be to sit with such strong emotions, so we want to remind you that all life is important, including yours and you have significant strength and deserve to live a happy life.
If you would like to talk to someone, the Beyond Blue Support Service is available 24/7 by phone on 1300 22 4636 or on Webchat 1pm-12am AEST on our website: www.beyondblue.org.au/getsupport
One of our friendly counsellors will be able to talk through these feelings with you and can offer support, advice and referrals.
It could also be worth getting in touch with Kids Help Line. They are a confidential and anonymous, telephone and online counselling service specifically for young people aged 25 and under.
We hope that you will find some comfort here on the forums. Please feel free to keep reaching out here on your thread whenever you feel up to it.