dear Deb, I presume that 'MUM' was born 1965, anyway she always good information not only to you but to others as well.
I really detest sexually abuse in any shape or form, and I just can't believe that there are creeps who take pleasure with this should be ----------.
Your life started off on a bad footing and nothing has been able to lift your mood, only your two kids, who probably can't understand what the hell is going on, and by no means does this mean I am blaming you, circumstances just seem to fall our way, no matter what happens in life.
There are people where nothing substantial happens and it doesn't seem to affect their life, and unfortunately all of us here are not included as being in that list.
I do love your comment about being 'too depressed', don't we all know the true meaning of this all too well.
OK you stopped your medication, hold your hand out, your a naughty girl, I myself feel fine and that's because I am taking my medication, and I know too well, that if I go for a couple of days without taking them, then crash bang down the chute I go straight into the black hole again, and would cry at the drop of the hat. As soon as I start again I bounce back to feeling good.
There have been many posts about people who have done the same, stopped taking their medication because they feel good, and after a couple of days down the chute they go, it's this medication that makes them feel good.
Your a mum, who has had two children, you work as well as studying at uni, your life is full, and you are flat out trying to cope with all of these activities, and being 40 a chicken at heart, which means that you must look after yourself.
I only live by myself and have intention of either developing a relationship, or to have someone live with me, and the reason for this is I can do what I want, there are no arguments, sure daily contacts can happen, but that's mostly visiting people or having a coffee with them. Tessie my little dog has a tendency to be jealous.
Please get back to us, we can talk to you, and it's harmless. L Geoff. x