dear Kiten, firstly can I say that your comment had been pushed over to page 2 because of the number of other replies, so I'm sorry that you haven't had any replies.
I just want to offer my most sincere condolences for losing your best friend and also your uncle.
We can't judge the passing or the sadness of losing a friend compared to the lose of a relative, because our relationship with both means that we have a better understanding and knowledge of what relationship we have with them, and because you had a 15 year communication with him everyday, then it's certainly going to grieve you the most.
Yes maybe you will eventually be OK, but this doesn't stop the feeling from your loss that has affected you, and we don't know how long this will take, because it differs from person to person, especially on memorable occasions.
Well there are ways to overcome this feeling, either by doing it in a forceful way, or by doing it slowly, and probably the latter is the way to go, because if you do it forcefully, then there is a good chance that you will finally reject it and then lead you into 'the black hole'.
I also worry about you, because I feel that now you will need to go and see your doctor and then see a psychologist, and to emphasize the point is because your friend isn't there to talk to, that your sadness could lead onto darker waters, I hope not, but would love to hear back from you. Geoff. x