Welcome to Beyond Blue and I’m so sorry for not having replied to you sooner.
I’m also very sorry to hear of all the recent tragedy that you’ve experienced. One death is horrible enough, but to experience 5 in such a short space of time – I can fully understand why you’re finding it difficult to cope now.
It sounds like you live reasonably close to your Mum? Am I right in assuming this? It sounds like you have a good relationship with her and I hope that between the two of you, you’re able to be there and support each other.
It’s the old system isn’t it – death and tragedy do happen, but the world moves on; it simply doesn’t stop. I’m referring here to your work and how it’s there and needs to be still done, despite you feeling most probably like wanting to be at work would be the lowest on your current priorities.
I’m wondering if during this time whether you’ve made any appointments for some professional help to assist you through – like seeing your doctor? From that they may be able to advise you to a specific counsellor who may be able to help you work through the grief that you’re experiencing?
Also am not sure if you took much time off work during those periods you mentioned, and I guess whether being able to take some time off work would be an option for you, but just thought I’d throw that out there as well?
Would love to hear back from you.