Thank you for sharing what’s been going on for you lately… you shouldn’t
have to be alone with your thoughts and you’ve done a good job here describing
how you’ve been feeling.
I’m sorry to hear about the passing of your grandfather, it sounds like
he is someone you really look up to and someone who has played a big part in your
life. Grieving the loss of a loved one is never easy, and I completely
understand why you would be feeling sad and anxious a lot of the time. Not only
are you trying to deal with the loss of your grandfather, but you’re also
worrying about your grandmother’s health, who is also someone very important to
I think it makes sense that you’re struggling to tolerate little things
that previously wouldn’t have bothered you when your emotions are this heightened…
you’re dealing with a lot right now and I think it’s okay to forgive yourself
for feeling this way. It seems like you feel pressured to behave the same way
towards your girlfriend as you did before all of this happened - It might be
helpful to consider whether this is an expectation that you’ve placed on
yourself. Has your girlfriend said anything to you lately to make you feel as
though it’s jeopardising your connection?
From what you’ve said, it sounds like you’re happy with her and would
like to continue the relationship. You mentioned being worried about upsetting
people by sharing your thoughts… do you feel as though telling her how you’ve
been feeling lately will upset her?
It seems like you've found comfort in posting on the forums previously, so I'm glad you've been able to come back and use this as a tool to express the way you've been feeling.
Hope to hear back from you!