Hi she's a wallflower,
I want to welcome you to the forum and thank you for taking the brave step to Post here.
I too want to extend my sympathy too for your recent loss.
The loss of one's mother is painful and emotional .
Gen, Ellie and birdy have all given helpful advice.
It is very early days and you need to give yourself time to grieve. As it has been mentioned before, grief is personal and there is no right wa to grieve.
I found writing down like a letter to my dad, really helped me but 'tis may not work for you. Sometimes just jotting down your thoughts and feelings can help .
I am not sure if there are organisations near you that help people with grief and loss but if there is,they can be very helpful and some offer free counselling.
If you can find a grief counsellor or a counsellor specialises in grief I that that would be helpful.
Do you have any family that can support you and you can tal to.
THis is a safe friendly and support place. Fell free to post here when you feel like it.I would like to hear how you are going.