dear Azza, I feel so deeply for your loss, just as I do for my very good friends Neil and Tony, as the three of you share
a very personal loss to someone who you loved so dearly.
I haven't been through any of this myself, but hell if anything happened to my twin brother I would be totally devastated
to the extent I would just close up even though we are fraternal, we are very close.
There are so many questions we ask ourselves, but we don't or can't get any answers, so why does this have to happen,
we could in turn blame ourselves, but different circumstances we could be faced with, and can have no consequences on what
actually happened, so now it leaves a hole in our heart, one which can only be partially be healed.
The one main issue here is that the love for the person you have lost will always be there, and carried with you where
ever you go, because that's something which can never be removed, it's a thought that only you will cherish.
Azza if you feel close to your partner, then don't withhold your thoughts, take some comfort in how he will be able to
talk with you and console you in your worries, because once you have a partner you could tend to not discuss your
greatest fears, and what this does is when you are saddened by the memories, could create a barrier between the both of
This is a time where you both need to share your thoughts, enjoyments as well as combine all the expenses needed to move
into whereever you have moved into. Geoff.