dear MissEmily, I can really feel like what you are feeling now, it's a feeling that no one can else can feel unless they
too have lost a dear pet they have loved so very much.
People have the nerve to say 'she was just unlucky' or 'she was just a dog' and how dare they should ever utter these words
to what we always thought were part of the family, and that's what Buddy and Sierra were to you and your partner, your
babies, and they were always your babies no matter how old they are.
You will still be giving all your love to Bella, but there is an empty spot in your life, because you are mourning these
two lovely dogs that aren't there with you, and even Bella is not able to help fill this spot, she will try her best and you
will really appreciate the love she is returning back to you, but it won't stop the tears flowing.
I had a Jack Russell Tessie for 18 years, my partner, my companion, my sleep partner, who came with me everywhere, and if she was not allowed into a place then I wouldn't go, that's how much I loved her.
She had cancer, had an operation, but that failed as it burst open, so I had to make the hardest decision for a long time
and had to put her to sleep.
She was still licking me on the vet's table, but like you I was crying like hell and had to leave.
The despair and wonder of why will never be answered, but you will punish yourself by saying 'it was my fault I should
have brought her in', but no because it could have happened at any time of the day, so it's not any fault
of yours Emily, and to those that make those comments which I mentioned above tell them she was my baby and 'NOT just a dog',
so put them back from what they have to say.
The thought is to go out and get another puppie straight away, but this is something that you never want to do, but I had Moo-Moo (on the photo) who was only a couple of years old, who I dearly love, but that damn hole that was left and could not
be filled by her as much as she tried to by licking and wanting pats all day long.
I had a relapse when this happened and once I had recovered then Moo-Moo was there for me.
My sincere sympathy goes out to you and your partner. Geoff. x