I think I might be grieving for my mum, problem is she hasn't passed away.
she has cancer and so its inevitable that I will have to say goodbye, but I think part of my anxiety and depression is that I'm already grieving for her?
I don't want to be like this, I want to go and see her ( she is in the uk) and I want to make the most of the time I have, but I feel almost crippled with these feelings. I want to be strong but I can't find a way to do it.
i skyped with her yesterday and I was looking at her realising how I'll she was and how much she has changed and I cried and she cried.
I miss her so much already I feel like I'm going to completely lose myself.
i don't know if anyone will have any insights or helpful words, but I just wanted to get this out of my head and I will talk to my psychologist about it when I see him next.