I just wanted to offer a virtual hug to you at this really tough time. Not only is it so hard to say goodbye but to have to wait and feel like you were not being cared for by the Vet just adds another layer of pain and a huge amount of anxiety. I am so sorry this happened, just devastating.
Please do not thank us for letting you grieve, we are here with you always as you are here for so very many. Let us now put an arm around you to take care of you and to offer a shoulder. As you very well know, grief is hard and there are no rules and no time lines, just do what needs to be done, and if today that is not much then that is fine.
Keep sharing and keep talking if that is helping blondguy, we are here with you on the journey.
Sending hugs and lots of support to you.