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Topic: Alone..Depressed..Sad..

  1. demonblaster
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    12 June 2019 in reply to Ggrand

    Hey sweetylove and all lovelies out there ☺

    🤗 yes you might have mentioned that... 😅 you're so easy to love. So glad you're so excited I am too and I have no doubt your many beautiful friends are too.

    Betty will be pleased to see you again too and the darts uppities I imagine as well now that they've opened their eyes and seen what a beautiful soul you are.

    I imagine it would be difficult wondering how it'll be at the DV huns and you might find several there are the same. Maybe knowing you're all there for the same reasons will make it easier. Hopefully you might meet some new friends there too as long as they don't take my title 😆, yeah pretend to laugh Deebi when the truths I might be the one 😢 After the first couple you'll have an idea what to expect and so good you'll have someone with you.

    Hey Grandz.. got any plans for tomorrow 🎉🎈🎊🐕🐶 there might be a choccy Frappe and special home baked extra Cinnamon cake and a Roast Pork crunchy spuds burnt 🎃 honey carrots, beans and Cauli with a cheese sauce waiting for you when I turn up after youre settled in.

    I've known some prize beeps who have a heart of Gold underneath just such a shame they're either nasty or angry first. Yes many people find animals their first choice, they don't usually intentionally hurt.

    I heard when muscles are sore from excercise it's because tiny little rips are formed using them. Think also now I cant think its something as a result of excercise. Might start with C unsure. Cry in my case 😆

    Grandz promise me please hands on hips stamping foot..you know the drill please don't try your lawns till your slept up and just in littles. Theres a good bbff.

    I remember the gorgeous not leaving your side ohh the little treasure/s. Ebonys bubba? Kya Mumma?

    I thought ok her cause she has animals that she'd care for them well. Agree neighbours looking out for eachother

    Good method re the dreams, not nice are they the yuk ones. Lucky I dont have too many at all. Doozies when I do.

    Sweety dont forget keep your Vitmin C up to ward off colds.

    Love you very much dear friend. Enjoy tomoz huns 😀👩‍❤️‍👩💜✨🤝🍫🍨🎃🐕🐶🎈🎊💤🗯😹

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  2. Paw Prints
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    12 June 2019 in reply to Ggrand

    Dear Grandy,

    You will be sleeping now, but by the time you read this you will be home. You might have even had a sleep at home, before you visit here. I'm so happy for you, I'm sure you can do this lass, but please take things slowly at first. Chores can always wait til later & I think spoiling & enjoying your fur babies can take first place.

    With doing your Tai Chi, do you watch it on youtube or do you have it on DVD. I have a DVD Tai Chi for beginners but I haven't got much past the start. It would be good to do it each day.

    hugs

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    13 June 2019

    Hey my/our gorgeous 👩‍❤️‍👩 bbff and all ☺

    😀 Welcome home darlin, actually you're probs on your way which is an awesome in itself. Woot

    I was going to do a surprise 🎉🎈🎊 party but decided nah, cause you've had a really hard time 🤗 I imagine your emotions would be in disarray & of course it'd take your precious reuniting special time away from your gorgeous furs 😍

    I'd be lying if I said I was thinking about you now, as in only now cause I do daily and how often dear soul sissy besty 👩‍❤️‍👩💜

    I put a pweddy little 🎀 around the adorabubble Ebony and Kyas wee necks nice and loose, oh they look so cute with a little message of love for you saying...

    ✒ ..Dear beautiful Mum (🐕🐶 wrote that bit) and amazing bbff 👩‍❤️‍👩 Grandy (I did that bit 😀)
    Your beautiful furs wanted me to tell you they're weally sowwy about the house looking like Tornado Tom went through it. In their defense tho Mum they did try to clean up the toilet paper scattered in every single room, on the couch table well everywhere actually. But really to be totally honest Mum (at this point they're looking up at you with those eyes of innocence & pure love would you believe the little cheekys are fluttering their eye lashes and looking way too cute to go crook at). They did try to clean up but it was more fun playing and shredding. Where's good hired help when you need it.

    They want you to know that Mrs Cranky was very kind to them & that they completely understand that you had to go to get yourself better and be safe although they missed you something terrible they knew it was right for you and completely forgive you and understand.

    Aunty Deebi and your beautiful friends here are so glad you're back home.

    You do realise don't you there's not a hope in Hades that you won't see me 🛴 sometime later today 🔑. Oh my 😲 you really have fixed my original GO GO mobeel faster than ever... It took off without me vrr...that's ok I'm coming...🏃‍♀️...more like 🐌 see u in a week or so

    We're all so very proud of you Grandy you again survived and have risen above your pain through courage and desire to have a better life. You'll make it beautiful don't let beasty tell you otherwise

    Untold love care & eternal friendship 👩‍❤️‍👩
    Oh..oh.. the furs want to sign off 🐾..🐾..💜.. me too sweetyheart 💜🤗

    Btw for your lunches there's a 🎃 soup and a 🎃 .. 🥜.. that's the new type of bone out for the adorabubbles

    💜💗🤝🎀🐶🐕🎃🌈🌱

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    13 June 2019 in reply to demonblaster

    Hello Deebi👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩 and everyone🤗..

    I got home at around 1sh...WW & mhn came to the hospital at around 10.30am...I was happy when they came but apprehensive as well...on being home again...They took me shopping, it was hard with 2 of them, it felt like they were crowding me...Then when we got to mine, my fur babies...were so happy to see me and me them..I cried when they were kissing me...so cute they are...

    WW&mhn stayed until nearly 4 o’clock..I appreciate their care and concern but I just wanted me and fur babies time...after they left I fell asleep with my dogs...Mhn is ringing me tomorrow...WW is coming Monday and then Thursday to take me to Cardiologist and a stomach scan (which was organised by the medical Dr)...I got sick in their a few times, but I think it was my anxiety that done that because of my leg headache...The medical Dr also ordered a hip X-ray..she thinks it’s arthritis as well as bursitis..I asked for too many pain relief meds, and they were contacted to check out my hip...I like both my mhn and my WW lady..but when they come together its to much..my WW lady gave me a hug before she left..she is nice...She showed me where she lives..about 15 minutes from mine on the way to my volunteer town...

    I left open my back door for my dogs..It wasn’t messy just piles of dirt they carried in with them..Thank goodness I shut the bedroom doors...I took of the lounge throw overs and shook them..will wash tomorrow..it’s been raining here today....

    Mrs Cranky not home..I’ll Thank her and give her a small gift 💝 of chocolates for her kindness to my dogs..

    Its strange being back home..I’ve been walking from room to room not knowing what I should do...I get confused without people telling me what to do...I’ll settle back in...I’m going to do better then last time...I don’t want to go back their again it’s not fair on my dogs...

    I realise I’ve talked about nothing much here today..Probably boring you all....I am sorry if I have.. I wanted to home and I am now...

    Deebi...I’m not touching the lawns, it’s only a few spots that need mowing, the rest is dirt...I might do next week...it can wait....Thank you all for making my stay in hospital..listening to you all. really helped a lot..🤗💜.,

    Deebi..Thank you for your beautiful caring post..if it okay I’ll reply tomorrow...Love you and our time so much 💜🤗.

    love and hugs everyone..💜🤗.

    👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩Grandy...

    ps..Kyla (mumma) and Ebony looked cute with there 🎀 on..The 🎃 soup was yummy..I needed it..

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    13 June 2019 in reply to Ggrand

    Hey Grandy lovely and all other lovelies ☺

    SO good hearing you're safe back home. Glad you got a sleep darlin. Thanks for letting us know your safe and home and where you're at.

    Darlin honestly say whatever you want to. We care and love you and I feel I can speak for our lovely friends here too that also want to know how and what's happening with you.

    I'm so pleased they were with you but understand too that must have been pretty full on plus huns you've had a very big mentally exhausting as well as physical hard time so that coming home & out of your routine, it's all a lot to take in. Maybe future trips will be just WW if they take you.

    Oh huge smiles at your liddle darlings and you so happy to see eachother, how beautiful.

    So nice you got Mrs Cranky some choccys, she may not show it but I bet deep down she'd be touched.

    Darlin no problem at all, post when you're ready hun I'm just so pleased you're home with your cuteys. Yes thought Ebony Mum I think I noted that but didn't check. I have their names now and noted them. Little lovelies. Oh good news they behaved, was in the back of my mind that you would have been aware of their toilet paper capers 😄 easy for me to giggle when I didnt have to clean up 😅

    Sounds like you'll have good steady visits that I hope helps you ease into being around people and hope it fills some of the loneliness void.

    You're a brave lady Grandz you've really had so much to contend with and being around so many people. Hope you can pat yourself on the back and see what strength you really do have.

    Liking WW lives fairly close.

    Grandz I got a small-ish um think buttercup 🎃 to try out it was cheaper than the Kent that are $350 kg they're $1.80 so we'll see as long as it's not how my love liked them dry blaghh but he liked the others too. I think B.cup would be moist, let u know. If they're not by the time the other veg is minced up if they are I'd guess they wouldnt be noticeably blaghh.

    Oh seeing GP tomoz morning about my eye, hasn't since but sure was pretty weird and felt funny in the head too.

    Ok beautiful bbff loven your determination beautiful you wanting to be ok for your gorgeous furs but for you too sweetylove you deserve this so much.

    Sending buckets of love appreciation and eternal bbff 👩‍❤️‍👩🤝👀👂💜💗🙌🤗🔑🕊🌱🍫BPaly dear sissyter 😀

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  6. monkey_magic
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    13 June 2019 in reply to Ggrand

    Welclme back home Grand!!!

    Hope the days been good to you!

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    14 June 2019 in reply to Ggrand

    Hi gorgeous Grandy (and a wave to all),

    Welcome home, lovely one. You’re welcome home committee (your fur babies) are precious and delightful.

    They must have been absolutely ecstatic to see their mum again. Dogs know how to love. Really love. Bless their hearts and fur coats...

    Your WW lady sounds very caring, even if you find her a little overwhelming when the other worker is also there. It sounds like she is really trying to help.

    Even though I know you want to be alone more, in a way, I’m glad that they’re being so thorough and trying to help you with appointments, etc. I hope it’s okay for me to say that...

    I think adjusting back to home life after hospital takes some time. As you said, in hospital, there were instructions/directions and routines. Back home, you’re the boss again. It’s an entirely different environment.

    My gentle suggestion is firstly to nurture and honour your feelings as you get used to being home again. If you need to cry then cry. If you need to laugh then laugh. It’s a big transition to be back home...

    My second little suggestion is after and aside from allowing space for your feelings, to re-establish a routine bit by bit. I don’t mean do it in a day or overnight, but gradually. I suppose what I’m getting at is re-establishing a routine will hopefully make your home feel more like home, and perhaps give you a sense of daily purpose.

    For example, your first goal (once you’re feeling up to it) could be simply having breakfast every morning. Then after you’re comfortable with that, you could add something like doing a load of washing once a week. Etc, etc. Gradually re-building and re-adjusting....

    But that’s just me giving suggestions that no one actually asked for lol, so make what you will of them. Maybe you’ll find them helpful. Maybe not. I still just wanted to share them with you, lovely...

    Once again, welcome home. I am sending hugs and love to you and your fur babies :)

    Love and care,

    Peppy xoxo

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    14 June 2019 in reply to demonblaster

    Hello Deebi👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩, Magic Peppy and everyone.

    Wow..😱 must have gold seeds in it beautifulheart...$350.00...per kilo.😬..it would want to be the best pumpkin soup ever😊😁...a little bit of sassy ness bbff👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩....

    It was a hard couple of weeks..I’m pleased I’m home, and for the support there giving me..I’m very grateful for them and everyone here..mhn rang this morning like she said she would...I was still sleeping, try as I could last night with sleeper it took me hours of just laying in bed with my mind chattering about any and everything...good, bad and silly things...

    They were really good..no toilet in the house...they don’t usually...they go outside when they need to....just dirt from laying on the lounges..luckily I have cover for them that are on 24/7.

    I went next door and thanked Mrs Cranky and gave her the chocolates I got for her...she thanked me and asked me to stay for a coffee/tea...I did...Mrs Cranky was okay I was somewhat surprised.

    Thank you Peppy I will try to do what you suggest me to try....my biggest problem is doing things without being told to...sounds silly I know...It’s hard to know what to do..I don’t have any self discipline...We worked out a simple scedude for daily have to do...ie: get out of bed, make it, then wash face, have breakfast. tidy house a bit..have lunch etc..everything on the list is hard to do because I’ve been ordered to do these things..now I cant or don’t want to do them anymore....because I’m not being ordered too.Ohh I’m all over the place....It’s to hard to explain the feelings I get when I do them....it’s ridiculous I know..Is it rebellion or laziness...It confuses me my life now...Hard to know what to do...Sorry if I don’t make any sense.

    Thank you Magic for welcoming me home....I hope your okay.

    Deebi..I’m ver happy with you getting your eye checked out..I hope you also mention your weird head feeling and chest pains etc...Care for you dear friend with much love 💖..pubaok.. yadimh.. lysvm.. awyis..sss...👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩.

    Thank you Deebi...I’m determined I’m not going back into hospital again...I will somehow sort me out...Wish I could clean my brain like we do our clothes😂..throw away what we don’t want in there...problem with that is I’ll probably have an empty brain😂😂.

    Take care all you beautiful people and look after yourselves the best you can.,and thank you all again for your amazing care...💜💖🌹.

    Love and hugs💜🤗.

    👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩Grandy.🐕🐩🎀🎀..and a ribbon for our furs each.🎀🎀.

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  9. Paw Prints
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    14 June 2019 in reply to Ggrand

    Dear Grandy,

    It is wonderful how our fur babies love us, your two must have been so excited to see you home. I'm sure they are being your little shadows & wanting lots of pats & kisses. It sounds like they were perfectly behaved whilst you were away, perhaps I should borrow them to teach mine

    Oh lass, feeling a bit lost now you're home is perfectly understandable, we all feel like that when we first get home after being away. It can take a bit of time to re-find our routines & settle back in.

    Your mhn & ww ladies sound lovely, though I'm not surprised you found them a bit much together, it was such a big day for you finally getting home.

    Big hugs from me & my fur baby sends you welcome home slobbers

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    14 June 2019 in reply to Ggrand

    Hey Grandy 🤗 and lovelies ☺

    😂 loven the Sass. So that's why that batch tasted so good. And I wonder why I'm broke. Grandz I'm in love with 🎃 soup esp the texture mmm

    You poor darl it's readjusting isn't it and mighty tough wks. Our minds are amazing sounds like yours is unravelling. I imagine it'll take a wee bit settling back in but you will huns. ☺ You're back at your safe place again sweetyheart with your gorgeous furs.

    Wow things are moving along nicely with Mrs Cranky. So glad Grandz. Looks like she's seeing your beautiful heart like the uppeties at 🎯 Power on Grandz 🤛👿🤜 Hope she continues being nice. Maybe now, if she knows you were in hospital that you have heavy stuff on your plate. It might begin to make you feel more comfy to be outside more often. You're a dear lady 🤗 that was for you being such a sweety 😚

    Dear wee furs were well behaved the little cutes. Something else they'd I think realise although they love and would miss you heaps, that they were still being looked after so less fret for them.

    Cool she rang when she said. It sounds like you're comfy with them (I know shopping was a bit much) that'll make itveasier to talk with them.

    Grandz I wonder if you could think of your routine in a way that you have been told what to do and you're doing it by telling yourself what needs to be done. Any sense in that 😄 Maybe the more you practice the easier it'll be. Take your time Grandy livey. People had no right to treat you so poorly!
    Something to ponder on darlz.. you're absolutely nothing like them. It's only fair on you to be the kind gentle compassionate love you are to yourself
    🤜👿🤛Like you are to us and rl people too 💜

    I too wonder if my rots rebellion lazy or as psych said ages back lack of volition. Beasty plays dirty.

    Thanks lovey about 👀 Yes did about weird head and chest pains.

    😆 ditto one mighty clean empty brain then we can fill them with only goodies

    You're so cute thanks lovely. D&E look SOOO cute with their 🎀 oh look they've undone them and chasing the tails...what's that youse want a cuddle ..gotta choof loves🏃‍♀️

    BPaly beautiful 👩‍❤️‍👩💜🎀🥁🎃👀🙌 Love you so much Mrs Grandy Floss ☺ pubAok yadimh 💜💗

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    14 June 2019 in reply to demonblaster

    Hello Deebi👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩 and everyone..

    Ill get there...If only I had someone here to care for and look after..then things would get done...I know that..I think because I’ve always cared and looked after others...That’s been my life...Now I have to turn it all around somehow...It will take time....I think and I’ll keep trying...

    Ummm there’s sense in that and I even done a recording in my meanest voice telling me what to do...I sounded so funny that I just 😂😂 at me....I do silly things sometimes😂😂...I had planned to clean up today and wash..I got up went to my laundry..pffff not today..maybe tomorrow...No hurry, no motivation..it can wait....

    I love pumpkin soup as well and will make again after next week...I have a bit of car trouble that needs fixing and I don’t know anyone to do it for me..it’s out of rego today...Not sure how to do it..my eldest used to pink slip me..but he’s not talking to me now...WW said that they will help me find a mechanic and get the pink slip done....hopefully next week..Betty said she will take me to voluntary work on Tuesday if I go....

    Deebi..I could never be like them..My heart cries when I hear of people hurting others physically or mentally...There’s no excuse ever..

    It would be so nice to have a neighbour to coffee/tea with occasionally...Can only see what happens and hope she remains how she was yesterday...I haven’t been outside today..too cold...

    My furs are curled up one each side of me...When I get up..poor darlings get up and follow me around..They have only left me for outside toilet...and to bark at anyone that passes my yard..They are so funny..All of a sudden they’ll both jump up run faster then lightening outside..then bark until the car passes then run back inside and back to mumma....Baby elephants is what they sound like on my floor.. 🐘 yet they are only a few kilos each in weight...I wish you could see them..they will love you so much...

    Im okay..just hard to motivate me...🙄..I have to try to though....

    Please Deebi..I hope your okay always...love you beautifulheart bbff💜👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩..

    Take care everyone and have a good weekend...

    Love and hugs💜🤗..

    👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩Grandy💖🌹🌹🎀🔮....me in a few minutes 🛀..

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    14 June 2019 in reply to Ggrand

    Beautiful Grandy 👩‍❤️‍👩 & lovelies ☺

    That's the best you can do sweety is try. Hear you big time about the no motivation. What's good is you're not stressing about it. It'll get done when it gets done (washing) I know after Tornado Tina races through the head after an episode it takes a while to get back on your feet. I think being compassionate to ourselves is allowing that recovery. You've been through the wars darlin 🤗 This might help you or a reader with motivation troubles lately it really is baby steps which is fine cause a step even smalls a move forward and not being stagnant. I guess I self talked and gave myself a kick in the kyber and said don't be lazy, not saying you are, you don't at all sound lazy you get stuck in often. So when Beasty says nah I'm saying yeah and doing. Long way to go but happy I feel I'm getting some control.

    I love y/our furs already. Not nuts on barking dogs but I know it's them talking. Hey I'm becoming a dog whisperer did I say this already, anyway in brief I'm quieting neighbour/friends dog it really goes on and on like beasty nag. I first speak gently and depending get firmer don't like to but he's learning, then good boy in a loving voice.

    How gorgeous them cuddled up next to you and following. I can see the great traits of dogs, if I had $ for vet bills and care for them and was allowed I think I would.

    Hope your lovely relaxing bubbles and scented candles ease you back home nicely. Enjoy sweetyheart. I made some extra bubbles and left them to float in the air. Aren't the colours gorgeous in bubbles then Pop.

    Love you heaps Grandz 🤗 can't imagine my life without my bbff beautifulheart 👩‍❤️‍👩💜 and our lovely friends here. Much love great people 🤗💗

    🤜👿🤛🎀🗯☁️(bubbles

    Grandz mil gets results Thurs and you have your heart visit then too. PubAok sweetyheart BPaly 😚

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    15 June 2019 in reply to demonblaster

    Hello Deebi 👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩 and all...

    Thank you Deebi for your always helpful and caring posts.

    Today I’m proud of me...yep you heard right Deebi...II changed my bed sheets put flannel ones on, washed, folded and put away, washed the lounge covers and my clothes...then I vacuumed..My mhn will be pleased with me on Monday to see my house clean...oops... but I forgot to eat.😂.. can of soup to the rescue...with toast...I had a tinsy couple of hours burst of mania...then the darn tears again...I’m okay though......I’m Looking forward to watching Lord of the rings tonight one of my favourite movies...but I’ll watch with some snacks🍫🍫🍫..

    Awe that’s so sweet...talking to the barking dog...mine don’t bark much only when a car drives by..and that’s only one every few days..so I’m okay with that...oh yeah and when I get home from work....

    Oh no...My bathroom light isn’t working..I can’t change it..I have 9 feet ceilings and scared to go past 2 steps up on the ladder...Looks like I’m going to have lots of baths by candle light😂😂...

    I still today like playing with bubbles..I sometimes buy the bubble makers for my dogs...and they like jumping and playing with them....ummm well I use my dogs as an excuse to blow bubbles🤫...

    Sometimes baby steps doesn’t seem enough...but it’s all we can do....One day...you beautifulheart, the others here and me...will all take a giant step forward then we will climb 🧗‍♀️ to the top of the mountain ⛰...and throw beasty off...😂😂..that’s my dream...

    Thank you for telling me update on your lovely mil...I hope she is okay....such a beautiful heart she has..🌈💖....

    Same Deebi...Love you heaps bbff💖👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩...pubaok.. yadimh.. lysvm.. awyis...one day hopefully awyip...🤗👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩...sss..BPaly...

    Love and hugs to everyone..💜💜🤗..

    👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩Grandy....🦄👼.....

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    15 June 2019 in reply to Ggrand

    Hi there beautiful 🤗👩‍❤️‍👩 & all ☺

    Wow you go girl.. zoom.. it's like that isn't it. So good feeling that way as YES hearing you say that's brilliant. Good for you lovely

    That was as if you'd been to mine soul sissyter 😆 same I have the flannys ready and need to vacuum. It is a good feeling doing things.

    Oh darls what a shame yours are short, it's possible in depression we unintentionally bring on mania by working at pulling up. I almost went back into one before I slept sarvo then thought I'll see if I can get to utopia again but backed off because I'm still in recovery. I was working on lifting myself. I wonder Grandz

    I too forget to eat in mania, too bizee 😆 wish same in depression eh.

    Cool enjoy Lord of the Rings darlin oh yeah the yums 🍫 are a must. How you didn't that first day back, hey maybe mania then too sneaking up. I think of you so much & if washing up in hot water. If a fantasy movies on I wonder if you're watching it. Hey we could make fantasy movies 😄 SO much fun. Reminds me I can't stop thinking and smiling about the onesy 😀 loved the different levels, change of colour pattern fantastic Grandz 🤗

    I hope the tears gave you some relief darlin 🤗 and that you're feeling stronger again.

    Oh no but wow love the sound of your place & high ceilings. Wonder if one of Bettys sons might jump the ladder or maybe ww. Good the candles. Ladders are quite 😲 If you have a lantern too lovey

    Bubbles are cool aren't they. Loven with the doggies. Great excuse 😆 you're gorgeous

    Absolutely we'll all 🤝 climb that mountain 🤛👿🤜 If there's a positive in depression it'd be the bliss of knowing happiness. We appreciate things much more if we've gone without.

    Grandz I've been wondering how you're settling in back home. I live for that day sweetyheart awip. I know you may not be aware 😆 that I really love you Grandy you're an incredible beautiful friend thank you so much ☺😚

    PubAok lysvm awyis yadimh sss bbff awip gg

    🌜👩‍❤️‍👩💜💼🗯🖼🌈🌛

    🌜🤜👿🤛🤗🤝🛀☁️🚜🛵🛴🌛

    OH oh 😆 I left a single bubble under your pillow.. when you lay down it goes ☄pop ☄so gently. The most exquisite perfume surrounds you creating a lasting feeling of safety security happiness & free of pain

    The other one you need to blow very gently till it 💥pops💥.. a Gold sparkly glittered vapor enters your soul filling you with love happiness warmth & strength 💜 🕊

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  15. Tess2
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    16 June 2019 in reply to Ggrand

    Dear Grandy,

    i am so glad for you that you are home now and also that you can see the positives that came from this short stay in hospital. But I can understand you not wanting to go back. I am sure if you keep trying to do positive things you can achieve that. Your doggies must love having you back home. They give so much love don’t they?

    take care of yourself

    tess

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  16. Paw Prints
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    16 June 2019 in reply to Ggrand

    Hello Grandy,

    Love hearing you saying your proud of yourself, so you should be. Your willingness to keep fighting beastie, your love & friendship for Deebi, & your kindness to everyone you meet are just some of the things you can hold your head up high for.

    I'm with you on the no higher than 2 steps on a ladder, my legs turn to jelly if I try to go higher, definitely do not have a head for heights. A nuisance about the light though a bubble bath by candle light does sound very relaxing. Do you use scented candles or oils? Are your fur babies allowed in the bathroom so they can see you or would they try to get in the bath with you?

    I bought a bubble maker to play with my dog after seeing someone using one online & thinking it looks such fun my boy would love that. Silly me, I really should have known better. He can't catch & has the attention span of a gnat. Me: whoohoo bubbles.....Him: 1 sniff, not food, walk away......Me: whoohoo hoo bubbly bubbles......Him: there's a fairy wren I need to bark at, oh look a cow I need to bark at....as he vanishes into the shrubs at the back of the yard........Me: whooo....oh .... think I'll make a cuppa.

    I hope you have had a good day & had some lovely autumn sun to sit in

    Hugs

    Paw Prints

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    16 June 2019 in reply to demonblaster

    Hello Deebi, Tess, Paws 🐾, and everyone...

    Thank you all for your warm caring posts...

    I done so much yesterday but nothing much today....oh but I did go to Bettys with some yummy mud cake from Woolworths and had afternoon tea with her for around an hour...

    I think your right..about pulling up and mania....I’m the same..wish I had longer and higher...but the amount of hards I get coming down from small mania...imagine the hards coming out of a long episode of mania......

    I layed on my lounge with my onesey, my fur babies laying next to or on top of me wrapped up in a snuggly Donna and enjoyed the lord of the rings...also on next week as well.....Oh I found my water bottle and decided it needed a cover I’ll try tomorrow to make one.....

    Im settling back in at home okayish......I’ll be okay Deebi...Just can’t seem to stick to routines.....Does a routine really matter?...

    Thank you Tess..for calling in...I hope your okay....and I’m totally determined not to do hospital again...

    Paws...,Yes my dogs are allowed in the bathroom with me...They sometimes sit on the mats I have in their and when I put some bubbles on there heads or make them a beards out of bubbles..they start chasing each other...inside the house...They are so funny sometimes.....Youre fur child sounds so cute...regardless of not playing with bubbles or catching them...I bet that you love him as much as he loves you.....Maybe more...I like blowing the bubbles then watching them float around in the gentle breezes..the colours are bright and brilliant in the outside sun....like tiny floating rainbows..🌈...

    The bubble under my bed..After the ☄️Pop☄️.. The perfume was beautiful and I felt so relaxed and calm when it drifted my way...💜🤗..

    The one I blew on..Oh my goodness Deebi..it was so beautiful the Gold glitter vapour and the feelings of love, happiness, warmth and strength is beautiful...thank you Deebi.....Love you heaps bbff...sss...Bpaly....💜💜🤗yadimh.. awyis..lysvm..pubaok...always...

    Good night beautiful people...love and hugs...💜🤗.

    👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩Grandy..👁👁🤝👂🤝 🐉🔥....

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    17 June 2019 in reply to Ggrand

    Hi 👩‍❤️‍👩 and all you incredible people, believe it it's so true 💗

    I find it fascinating our internal clock. I had 2 alarms set for 5 am and just after. Said to myself last night I have 7 hrs sleep have to wake before birdy fluff. Woke 4.45am.

    Today hopefully I get some answers for csf that I suspect I'll have an op for and the cause think nerve in my neck for arm bizzo.

    Gut feeling says I'll be ok. Whatever the outcome I'll have no choice but to go with the flow.

    So that was a small burst of mania. I was so close to reaching the supreme but pulled back but the consequences were dire regardless. I was so angry yesterday for a while. Wouldnt have gone off at anyone but wasnt in the mood for rot either.

    Ok today.

    Not thrilled about the long day but thats how it is. At least there'll be someone to yak too or not doesnt really matter either way. Change of scenery will be good. I go where my darling had chemo. Lot of memories but not too bad. He's always on my mind regardless.

    Friend I respected myself with rang last night. Surprised. He would have asked if I hadnt said what I was up to but didn't so saved me saying no and why again.

    So thats me for now.

    Hope youse are sleeping happy dreams and wake to a good day. We need to tell ourselves we will which can go a long way towards choofing beasty.

    Nigh nite or morning morning ☺

    Thank you again beautiful people.

    Love you and very much appreciate you..all 💗

    👩‍❤️‍👩💜💥✨🐾🐥☘🌱🍃

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    17 June 2019 in reply to Ggrand

    Hi gorgeous Grandy (and a wave to all),

    I’m so happy to hear you feeling proud of how you washed and changed your sheets on Saturday. Great job :) I feel proud of you too!

    It certainly does sound as though you’re settling back in nicely. I love how your fur babies love to be near you. You clearly are their everything..,

    It must have been nice to catch up with Betty over scrumptious mud cake and coffee. I know you have a beautiful friendship, and that she’s a very warm and caring friend...

    Love and care,

    Peppy xoxo

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    17 June 2019 in reply to demonblaster

    😆 soz Grandy posted in wrong place.

    I replied but it must have gone cyber

    Bbl 👩‍❤️‍👩💜💗🕊👋

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    17 June 2019 in reply to demonblaster

    Hello Deebi...

    Awe Deebi....please never be sorry darlin....My place is your place sweet friend.....It’s okay....I’m thinking of you today...💭..and I’m hoping everything is okay...

    Im pleased that you’ve settled down a bit...and today your feeling better, calmer and okay🤗💜..bbl sweet friend👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩💜🤗..

    Hello gentle Peppy, Thank you for being proud of me..that means a lot to me...not feeling really good about not being at yours to support you..I am listening, but idk how to reply...I’m really sorry.🙇‍♀️...

    We had a lovely time yesterday at Betty’s place we had mud cake and cheese cake with sweet tea...and some talks about our voluntary work....and the weather...

    Mrs Cranky was across the road raking under the big gum tree and putting it into her wheelbarrow.. It has lots of bark, twigs and leaves their...I took a deep breath and walked across and asked if she needed/wanted help she said no.she’s okay..but I took the rake from where she had it leaning against the tree and I started raking while she put the leaves etc,. into her wheel burrow, then across the road and onto her garden, she chattered about how with the leaves..shell need less water.....I did this for around half hour with her until it looked nice and clean.....Mrs Cranky thanked me....a little bit of chatting..then I went back home..

    Deebi...I hope your okay with the long trip today..I haven’t bussed for well over 10 years..no buses here 😠...Your in my 💭 constantly today..please be okay lovely bbff...I’m worried bout you dear friend.💖🦄👼👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩..L💜Ve Y🤗u..👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩...

    Love and hugs everyone..💜🤗..

    👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩Grandy🦄👼...

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