hello Ringoringo, how many times have we said to ourselves as well as to other people 'I'm giving up the grog', but when our drinking time comes along or perhaps a bit eariler, it's back into it, so this rountine goes on and on so it's rather pointless to say that you will stop, because you know that won't happen, don't tease yourself, if you need to drink then that's your decision, but by going through this rountine only means that you are building up guilt.
By acting in two different ways when you are intoxicated is a worry, because how do you know whether you are going to be the fun kid or the aggressive one, you don't know, so a celebration that everyone has been looking forward to, could be ruined, and that's not what you ever intended.
To stop the alcohol is a massive decision, because what do you do when 'drinking times'arrives, you sweat, have a dry mouth, get anxious, and probably a bit irritable and cold temptered, but swallow a whole glass of tonic water,this will fill your belly and then have something to eat.
It's not easy to give up the grog and you will be doing great for awhile, but then break out and start once again, do not worry about this it's a step by step procedure, and if you have decided to give up then your doctor can prescribe medication which will take away any urge to drink, so if you google these last few words then it will tell you the name of the medication, as we aren't allowed to mention medication names. Geoff.