Haha I know, I should have been more patient. I get why this forum is more sensitive but I'm not used to such heavy moderation- although, I've never had a post delayed by that long here.
That does sound like a better term- borderline as a name doesn't really explain much. I read up why it's named as such, but it's still a confusing term.
Yeah, that's a very small and simplified part of BPD, but I guess lucky for them they won't truly understand what it's like to have it. As long as they listen and don't try to belittle your issues, it's something.
For me I find it hard to untangle the big mess of what is BPD and what are my personal flaws, not knowing when one ends and one starts. I mean, you could say that you are potentially able to work on both your shortcomings and also the aspects of BPD, but gosh it's confusing. Yeah, it's a tricky one. Sometimes I try to think- how would a normal person react/handle this/behave? I'm not sure how healthy that is, but that's me trying to be grounded.
I hear you. It's such a frustrating thing to wait for to happen. Can't force it, can't predict it. I am working at the moment but the general workshop mood is pretty blah at the moment, and that isn't helping my motivation/mood. Not really the best solution, but are you able to switch to something low pressure/focus? It's not everyone's cup of tea but honestly I love brain dead repetitive tasks, lets my mind wander and has low stress levels.
Boxing sounds like a solid idea, good release of stress and energy, you get to hit things and make yourself stronger =). I'm doing wing chun, which is a form of kung fu- I'd definitely recommend it.
Luckily I haven't experienced any dissociation experiences- it sounds pretty unsettling. Have you? I'm not exactly sure what this falls under- self image or identity or something, but sometimes I have this feeling like I'm suddenly aware of myself, like I'll be mid sentence and it'll just snap and I'll be hearing the words I'm saying and I get this snap of realisation. Does that sound like anything you've experienced? Maybe it's not a BPD thing...