Thank you so much for asking after me, I am doing really well and have just spent the weekend celebrating my son's 17th birthday....I am actually gob smacked at how quickly the years go by. I am doing really well and things are going pretty awesomely for me! July is around the corner so just getting a bit mentally prepared for that as I have both my brother's and my mum's anniversaries.
I am so proud that you have found "Hannah" and that moving out has let you see who you are, that you can thrive on your independence and being on your own, how fantastic is that!
As people who have a past relationship with ill mental health, there will be good days and bad days and things to consider and checking in with ourselves to make sure we are going well, I think that is just the nature of what taking care of ourselves looks like. Knowing how we are feeling, or what we are thinking, being able to know when it is time to reach out, or time to just enjoy and push the pause button on thinking about thinking!
I am so proud you have been getting some support around your ED. That you know that even though relapses do happen, that you see that there is help, there is support and that things to get better, you know this stuff now and you have managed it and can see how you are able to cope and have the difficult things happen and to move through them, WOW...you have grown in so many ways Hannah!
I think that you will make some sort of dint in this space. Whether it be a book or some public speaking or blogging your way to sharing your journey, to letting others know they are not crazy or weird or alone. That tough times happen to good people, tough times happen to anyone who is human, and that there is a path of support and there is a path to move forward on.
I remember so many nights when we would be up and posting all through the night and just chatting so that you could make it through the night. I am in absolute awe of your strength, your courage and mostly for choosing to stay, when times were so damn hard. I could not have said these things to you back then, but feel that you are much wiser and much stronger now and that your fragility is somewhat tougher.
I am so proud of you Hannah, I can't wait to hear what is next for you..you will do great things..you just will..you are Hannah!
Hugs as always