Doolsy darl and everyone ☺
I'm glad you posted you're in my thoughts. I didnt know whether to post in case you felt obliged to reply then I thought that could be a good thing too.
Hear you about your head being so svcrewed up hun 🤗 It's so hard being at this point. I assume for you it gets better between times well I really hope so, though I know you have a lot to deal with between extremes times.
I feel sad that hubbies gone out with his mates when you're in such a hard place. I remember not that long ago you opened up to how bad you felt and he was quite compassionate and tried to understand which is hard with his mh I've heard but he still loves you.
I don't know and thats up to you Doolsy how your general relationship is but I'm assuming hopefully right the loves there. You're doing not alone because you have us but you so need support from the person you live with. Wondering have you spoken at all to your sister you seem close maybe she could be there for you too.
What worries me is lovey that you're considering harming yourself. Well done you chose an alternative, not saying this at all to scare you but next thought you might find it harder to resist and from there you're going to be worse darlz.
The cook at your local hospital isnt doing her job properly maybe a word to a nice nurse saying you have to be careful etc cause of the celiac. That way the message might get through without direct confrontation which is the last thing you need atm.
Hun if I was in your situation you'd recommend hospital for me? You need self care hun this is too big to be trying to handle alone. So much going on and as you said being kicked too often. It builds hurts and eats at us doesn't it.
I can guess but out of 10 being the worst where are you Doolsy love. Want to see you give yourself the best chance you can at getting back on top. I fear you'll go down further dear friend.
Can you have a good long chat to your GP darl. If you tell them it at reception you can't wait.
Good let the sun fill you with energy and enjoy your garden hun. Was thinking of Grandys grounding last night for you maybe getting some dirt feel it run through your fingers. Look shoes off feel the grass.
You are strong enough lovely Dools and it's ok to get help 🤗
You're an amazing great lady 🍃⚘🌱