Im sorry that your trip wasn't very relaxing, I hope now your home you can do a bit of mindfulness and start relaxing,
Your first walk sounds amazing, wow 22 kilometres, sounds like you had a nice time looking at the scenery as you walked..I think imo 22 kilometre walk would make anyone tired and possibly stressful.
The other walks sounds like you had your husbands welfare well on your mind which would have been so worrying for you, plus it was a was harder walk, and I would imagine that in itself would have caused you a lot of stress and anxiety, let alone exhaustion from mental and physical activities.
I read somewhere, that when revisit a passion of long years passed, it just hasn't got the same excitement, joy or feeling about it, like the first time around..I'm not sure on tThat, just something I read somewhere,
After hiking, then having to prepare meals, get the beds, tents, etc ready, hat would make you so busy that you found it hard to reflect on the beauty you saw on your walks.
It must have frightened you a little walking through the burnt out areas of the bush. I hope I don't trigger you, I just love the look of the burnt area with the lush greenery of new growth.
Now your home take time to rest and slowly get back into your routine, slowly, there is no hurry, Maybe, get out some puzzles, games, mindfulness music, meditation, reflect on the good parts of your trip, to start to relax..
Welcome back Elizabeth,