I don't think it's so much wanting people to see my view, but more just wanting people to show some sort of appreciation and acknowledgement. People will take and take, but never give back.
I think that is some kind of comfort. Knowing someone else has been through this process and been through all this, and has come out on the other side well, kind of gives me just that little bit extra to keep going and coming back here.
It is just frustrating to apply for jobs in the first place. Their seems to be a lot out there, but when you keep getting rejected, you kind of wonder what is going on. I don't want to just apply for anything to be fair, but I am not being too picky about what I am applying for and trying to get. I went to the gym for 20 minutes today. I hate leg day, and I was just not in the mood to be doing any exercises, so I did like three and then just left. I get a bit frustrated too easily I think.
I know. Sometimes I can't help it as she will just send me a snapchat or a random message. The stop thinking about her part is the hard part. I kind of get reminded by little things too. Like the ball scene in the end of Stranger Things, and then I just kind of getting a little annoyed by it all.
Nothing really planned as such. My dads cousin from Canada is here, so we are having a big lunch at our house tomorrow, then Sunday is a family picnic planned I think. Other than that, no other plans as such. Kind of not looking forward to these functions as they usually descend in to the same usual thing all the time and I just end up getting a little socially exhausted.
Yeah. Love the game, but it seems to not be so kind to those who want to play it. One day everything can feel so perfect and on point, and the next day everything will just feel weird and out of sync. Family stuff does sound good a lot of the time, but then it just depends what those family things are. I'm the anomaly in mine so it always ends up being a little off for me.