These things happen - an office is only so big after all. We both startled each other which didn't help things. If I was a puffer fish I would've puffed right out! We both don't know where we stand or anything. Technically speaking am single, but not in the sense that I'd be willing to meet anyone new or even have completely severed ties with my ex - it's all up in the air, as these things often are for a while after.
I'm sure things will get a bit less strange as time passes. Well I sure hope so anyway, because today was not good! I find it so hard to not take on the baggage, it's just what I do... not a good thing really. You are right ,she was really pushy and frankly quite harsh to me before. It's not a way I'd ever treat someone in that position... I'm doing my best to do the right thing by everyone- perhaps at times at my own expense, but I don't know any other way to do things. There are times where you can't please everyone , that was one of those times.
She actually contacted me a few minutes ago.. saying that I seem like a ghost to her now. I didn't really get into that too much other than saying I'm sorry she feels that way, and it's good to see her back at work again. I need space from her. If she wants to talk to me , that's okay- but I'm not going to initiate anything, it's not a good time for that at all!
Exercise is good in theory! It's funny - a lot of people going about the 'endorphins' etc. from exercise. I don't really notice that so much, but I do get quite cranky if I've done a big run. Maybe it's a case of being 'hangry' or something? I don't know! Maybe I'm just a cranky person.
I lent her several things, she's returned them with a letter, saying she deserves an explanation for what things are how they are. I'm really not sure what to say to that. I've really only just broken up with my ex, I don't fully understand what she expects from me? I feel absolutely horrible.
I feel like the air needs to be cleared at some point but I have no idea how to go about that. I don't feel strong enough to have that kind of conversation, certainly not after when she was angry at me before. It kind of scared me away. The sad thing is I that actually still have really strong feelings for her.
I don't mean to sound sorry for myself or weak, but today I just wish I could be left alone by both my ex and this work colleague. They both mean well but I feel like I'm being pulled to pieces by them.
Sometimes it all gets too much.