Thank you Grandy and
sorry it took me
abit to come back. I am struggling a lot mentally and cant really
Unfortunatly my foot
is not in a good way, it might still take another 10 weeks to heal,
we are at week 4 and its still not any better. I cant even wear shoes
yet even after 4 weeks. Can barely even rest my foot on the floor yet
so its not going to well. I have a moonboot for 2-3 weeks maybe
longer, only time will tell I guess. The damage has gone very deep,
its just stopped short of a fracture however what I have is worse
then a fracture and I have to have it kept an eye on to basically
make sure the bone doesnt die. So I have to monitor it and have
physio to see if itll help for a while.
The opportunity I
have it will either be I can go or I cant go. Its not worth me going
if I cant do what I need to do. They need experienced people to work
with these horses (some are even bigger then racehorses that you see
on tv) thatll be there, if im not able to in full capacity it can be
dangerous for not only myself but for the other people around as
well. I cant really be too specific but I will be working with the
Police force, nurses, SES and all sorts of emergency personale so I
cant afford to be at least 90% fine. I need my foot working to normal
capacity. If I stuff it up then I more then likeley wont be invited
back and its really important to me that I give it a good go at it.
Its just really bad timing but its looking like covid situations
around the country may be spoiling it now.
I have a tendency of
stuffing thigns up lately though. I really should hide away from
everything and everyone. It seems the safest option for everyone,
hard to fit in or know how to fit in with people when your entire
life is based on traumatic events and unnormal things. Just gets tiring sometimes i guess.