Darling friend/beautiful b (& a wave to all),
Thank you so very much for being with me & sitting with me, my friend. Being here with me means a lot, so I’m grateful & blessed.
Yes, feelings, so many feelings...sigh.
I think difficult emotions always finds a way out eventually. It’s just matter of when...weeks, months or years later. Your feelings will find you.
I’m intrigued by that excerpt about the physical manifestation of emotional pain. It clearly moved you...those painful emotions lodged in your heart & body that someone else finally found words for...as you said, there’s comfort in mutual understanding.
I’m happy that you’re getting lots of reading done. I recall you’re an avid reader :)
Where’d you go Bernadette sounds like it’s bringing some much needed laughter & light into your life. For that, I’m happy...
Yes, it will be interesting to see how you feel when you read Inglorious again. I completely agree that our interpretation, relatability & enjoyment levels of books can change. A book that we once related to deeply can later leave us feeling disconnected (& vice versa).
Your zucchinis are doing well, but I’m sorry about your tomatoes. Yum, I love zucchini pasta! I think sometimes the simplest pastas are the tastiest.
I’ll have to give the Speedy Gozleme a go some time. Easy & tasty!
Sigh, my heart just feels broken. I think the best way to describe is there’s a new crack in my heart.
Sometimes I wish that I could hug my heart. Seeing as I can’t do that, I put one hand over it & apply light pressure. It’s comforting...
Today, I spent a few hours feeling slightly disoriented & scattered. Physically present, but emotionally vacant. Dazed.
I was very tempted to walk into a bookshop today & demand all their books on grief & loss, as though there is a “cure.” I didn’t do it though.
Sigh, I know it doesn’t work like that. It’s something you work through. No overnight cures or magical remedies...
I finished reading a book called Rabbits for Food a couple of weeks ago. It’s a little sad & a little dark. It’s about a woman who is admitted into a psychiatric ward. There are some sharp observations about people, family & relationships in the book. I really enjoyed it.
How have you been holding up this weekend, my friend?
I know you’ve been feeling very drained & have, no doubt, been processing other emotions too. I hope reading, cooking & your zucchini harvest has comforted your weary heart a bit...
Thinking of you & sending love & care xoxox