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Topic: Sad musings

  1. Peppermintbach
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    25 March 2020 in reply to Birdy77

    Darling friend/beautiful b (& a wave to all),

    My lovely friend, I’m holding my hand out to you...I’m really sorry about your mum’s news, especially considering how things are at the moment...

    I feel that must be so scary, worrying and even anxiety inducing for you...a big & comforting hug from me...

    You’re absolutely gorgeous, kind & caring to check on me when I can’t imagine that you’re feeling great yourself. First the wildfires then the virus, & now, sigh, your mum’s news...

    It’s a lot, my friend...it really is...you’re in my heart & thoughts...

    I’m glad some of your friends are able to work from home though. Yes, city public transport is typically packed with people, but it should be quieter now with all the new policies in place...

    Thank you, my friend, I’m stressed & worried. At the moment, everything is still up in the air. I can work partially from home, but not completely. Ratio is about 4:6 (office to work-from-home) This may change, but nothing is certain these days...

    My work helps vulnerable people, so if any one of them contracts the virus, suffice to say it is very worrying for all of them. Never in a million years did I think that I would play a role in screening/monitoring access to particular services & turning people away (but towards alternative arrangements) if they showed certain symptoms to protect both our clients & frontline staff.

    So I’m quite stressed (laughs)...

    I’m also upset with some of my family members & friends who are disregarding social distancing advice. Their intentions aren’t malicious, but I don’t think they quite understand the seriousness of the situation...

    But on a lighter note, I managed to draw last weekend. I got quite into it, & that was soothing & rewarding :)

    I also started reading a little of Come to the Edge. Very trippy! The character, Cassandra, is something else.

    I suppose her way of life is very minimalist & environmentally friendly, but also very extreme. So is her thinking...she is interesting...

    I am sending love to you, mrs b, and your parents (especially your mum).

    I hope, despite all the fear & sadness, that there are tiny moments of comfort in your garden, stirring a pot of food in the kitchen, enjoying a film with mrs b, reading a book or cuddling your boys & chooks.

    With love xoxox

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    26 March 2020 in reply to Peppermintbach
    Hi gorgeous friend and all reading ❤

    Grandy, i meant to say also that i know you must be so worried about your dil, & i am so sorry she is going through this, with young kids & at such a young age, it's heartbreaking 😥

    My friend, things sound really stressful for you, it's no doubt you are feeling frazzled & worried. All this new, unchartered territory with your work, and how difficult it must be to be monitoring the situation & having to come up with alternative solutions for clients must be incredibly challenging & stressful.

    I am glad to hear that you have been able to work from home around 60% of the time for now, this may change i know - i am thinking of you, &hope that you are finding ways to wind down &stay ok outside of work.

    It's so good to hear that you got to do some drawing last weekend, and managed to lose yourself in that! Wonderful.

    You started a little of Come To The Edge as well! It is so out there isn't it?! Cassandra and her beloved thunderbox.

    Well that's it for the library &2nd hand books online for the moment unfortunately. Such weird times hey.

    It is sooo frustrating hearing of people not taking the social/physical distancing seriously, i can understand how annoyed you would be feeling with certain family members. mrs b's dad is the same, so blasé, i heard her almost yelling at him on the phone last night. My parents are being more cautious thankfully, just a worry with them having to be out & about right now, getting treatments & such when it would be better for them to be home.

    Have you been trying any recipes? I made a bolognese sauce today loaded with plants (onion, garlic, mushies, grated zucchini &carrot, lentils, noochy, dijon mustard, herbs, liquid smoke, v. worcestershire sauce, miso paste, v. stock powder) had it with spaghetti for lunch, mrs b is home today.

    How are you feeling today?

    Sending love ❤

    🌻b xo
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    26 March 2020 in reply to Birdy77

    Darling friend/beautiful b (& a wave to all),

    Thank you, as always, for making time for me. You are so appreciated, & I really am grateful for your friendship. I think it’s important to never take people for granted. Thank you...really & truly...

    Sigh, yes, it is a strange time in the world. Feels almost surreal...

    Your plant based spaghetti bolognese sounds so good! So much love & care went into your bolognese sauce. I love how you loaded it with veggies, many of which I’m guessing are from your garden. Also, I your miso, mustard & worchestershire sauce must have added new dimensions of flavour!

    I’m happy that you were able to share lunch with mrs b. It must have been nice to share a meal together :)

    It’s a shame about libraries, but I also understand why, & as horrible as it is, I’m glad it is being done. I love books, but right now, slowing the spread is much more important...

    You must be so relieved that your parents are being cautious. Although, I know you must still be worried. Ideally, they would be home all the time, but that is sadly not possible...I hope they stay safe. That is my wish for them.

    Sigh, mrs b must be frustrated & worried about her dad too. Hopefully, after maybe a few more conversations with him, it will sink in.

    Looks like quite a few people are worried about their parents...

    Thank you so much for the well wishes, lovely friend. The current situation is unprecedented. We make new decisions daily, but it’s constantly evolving...

    It will be a miracle if no one at work is infected. We are doing what we can, but of course, there are no guarantees...here’s hoping though

    A friend suggested that we could maybe hang out 1-to-1 or in small groups. I immediately vetoed that idea (laughs) & explained why we shouldn’t be doing that.

    The reality is you don’t always know if you have it. Some people are even asymptomatic, but are still infectious...if, say, 1 of 2 friends meet & 1 has it, you’ll give it to the other. Then that 1 friend goes to the supermarket, & infects someone else unknowingly. Then that cashier spreads it to a colleague. On it goes....

    Sounds paranoid, but it’s not. We should not be taking risks in this climate. Think I managed to convince him (laughs) ;)

    I haven’t been cooking much. Just been feeling sad & overwhelmed...

    Come to the Edge is really interesting! Yes, Cassandra is very memorable.

    How have you been holding up in all of this?

    Are you gardening much & have you made art as you were planning to?

    With love xoxox

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    26 March 2020 in reply to Peppermintbach
    Hello Sweets ❤

    No, that's not paranoid *at all* !! It's what we should all be doing!!

    Yesterday evening, mrs b and i were having a wine in the front garden while the boys played, and we heard the next door neighbour's gate (she cones over sometimes if she hears us out there of an evening). We looked at each other and said with our eyes "we're going to have to stymie this!" but she had a chair with her and she sat on the nature strip with her beer and we had a chat over the fence from 3m away 👍

    Such weird times, but we all need to stay home and away from each other as much as possible. This is not a drill! Every little contact is a connection that makes things worse.

    It is good to remind each othercthat at this time it is an act of love and care and consideration, every time you stay home.

    It must be so worrying and strange for you at work - it is completely unprecedented.

    I am so sorry to hear you are feeling so sad and overwhelmed, bit know that you are not alone at all - we are totally all in this together.

    I loved the piece you just posted from Danielle Koepke - it's so true. And I'm feeling it, you're feeling it, were all feeling it darling.

    I have done a little gardening, got some more silverbeet seeds in and some more garlics. Wanted to go out and buy some sugar cane mulch, but have resisted, and will continue to resist. Making do with what i have at hand.

    I haven't started any art yet ... but i rearranged aaalll the furniture and the house feels so fresh and lovely. I finished an application for council today to install a new woodheater, this is something that's been on my to do list for so long, finally shifted the energy around me to enable me to do this.

    I will come and talk more.

    Love ❤❤❤❤
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    27 March 2020 in reply to Birdy77

    Darling friend/beautiful b (& a wave to all),

    Thank you for understanding where I’m coming from, my friend. That means a lot.

    You’re right. This is not a drill. This is the real deal, & our collective actions will determine the final outcome...

    I’m happy that you & mrs b are following social/physical distancing advice. I think you’re doing the right thing :)

    It must have been worrying when your neighbour appeared. I’m glad she decided to keep her distance. Your evening wine out the front with the boys sounds so relaxing...

    I agree that staying home as much as possible is an act of love for each other, especially our most vulnerable.

    I’m glad the quote resonated. I like how she expressed how it’s okay to feel our feelings. That there isn’t always a great lesson to be learnt during difficult times...that sometimes it’s just about survival...I liked that she was realistic.

    Well done on resisting the temptation to go out to buy sugar mulch :) Perhaps you can order it online.

    Your edible garden sounds like it’s coming along nicely. I love silverbeet, & I’m happy you’re planting your garlics now. Garlic adds flavour to so many dishes.

    Your rearranged furniture makes your home sound so inviting- free makeover!

    I actually didn’t know what is a woodheater, so had to look that up (laughs). I’m still not sure that I understand what it does so to ask a silly question: what does a woodheater do?

    I have come to accept our current predicament. I will not be seeing my friends/family for a while...for everyone’s safety & health.

    I postponed a non-urgent appointment with a health specialist, as I was worried about the close contact involved. I also won’t be getting a professional mani-pedi or going to the hairdresser for a while.

    DIY now ;)

    This is the new world order (laughs)....

    A friend & I had a lovely FaceTime chat this week, & I will be FaceTiming another friend tonight. Does it replace face-to-face contact? Absolutely not, but the way things are now, we must be adaptable (Sighs).

    I have continued to draw in my down time. I also sometimes colour if I’m feeling unsettled, as that calms my mind a little.

    Holding a hot drink in my hand is soothing too. But sometimes the most calming thing is just sitting with my feelings.

    Will you be venturing into the garden more, & do you have more fun activities or self care planned this week?

    Thank you for making time for me. Thank you for choosing to be here & for being my friend :)

    With love xoxox

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    27 March 2020 in reply to Peppermintbach
    Hello lovely friend ❤

    I am so happy to hear that you've been draeing in your down time - that is wonderful that you've been able to tap into your creative wavelength and be there with it. What a source of richness for your soul during a pretty bleak and strange time. Your colouring sounds peaceful - do you have a favourite colouring book?

    Happy FaceTiming tonight with your friend 😃 i know it's not the same as getting together in person, but it's better than nothing, & fun to see each other via the screen.

    I think there's generally a bit of confusion out there, a lot of it is to do with the mixed messages we are receiving i think. Like we hear "stay at home unless you absolutely must go out for essentials like food or medical attention" & then we hear that hairdressers are still open for business? In what world would a haircut or colour/style be an essential or emergency for which we absolitely must leave the house? It makes no sense.

    Yep, DIY is the way to go right now. I do my own hair anyway, have for years & years, i have a short pixiecut so it's easy. I have been kind of growing it out a bit lately, trying out some different twistie/braidy things for short hair from pinterest. It is frustrating me a bit at the moment, so i tie a scarf most days. "In iso" is a pretty good time to try growing it though i figure!

    I agree, i love the way Danielle Koepke says that we don't have to draw any big lessons etc - it's ok to just feel what we feel, & just purely survive this weirdness. That's all we need to do.

    Yes i really wanted to go out for some gardening supplies, & i hear of others going & buying up all the seedlings etc, but i can't justify it for myself. Happily for me, one of my compost bins is ready for emptying, i checked this morning &was thrilled to see it is full of dark, rich compost, ready for the garden. How lucky am i?!

    So i think that's what I'll be up to today, & i have a chat on the phone with a friend lined up for some time today - she has kids home so she's been busy with the homeschooling, so we shall squeeze in a cuppa & a chat when she can get a break.

    Oh, the application is for a new fireplace (wood heater, wood burning stove, slow combustion heater, all meaning the same thing basically).

    I hope you have an ok day my friend. Here with you.



    🌻b xo
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    27 March 2020 in reply to Birdy77

    Darling friend/beautiful b (& a wave to all),

    Congratulations on your full compost bin. I love your excitement! It sounds like you will have a busy day in the garden. How nourishing for you...

    How about online shopping for gardening supplies, as you’re clearly very tempted to re-stock?

    I hope you enjoy your chat with your friend. She sounds very busy, & I imagine home schooling is very stressful at times.

    Thank you for explaining about the wood heater. One item down on you to-do list! Well done :)

    Sigh, yes, I’m grateful for technology that allows things like FaceTiming. I miss my friends though. It’s really not the same in any way, shape or form.

    But I think a lot of people are struggling with this side of things...when this is over, if I survive (laughs), I’m not coming home for a month!!!

    Yes, the message is very inconsistent, & I think that’s a real issue. Some people, like me, will look up official state government advice, state health department advice, etc for clarification about covid-19.

    But not everyone (understandably) knows to do that. So if someone relies purely on the media or politicians for advice then it can be really confusing.

    I remember you mentioning that you cut your own hair. The braiding & hairstyles that you’re experimenting with sounds fun! Your hair will be pretty long if you persist to grow it out.

    I’m going to miss my visits to the beauty & hair salon. I enjoy the pampering, I must admit. But it’s a small thing to forgo in the grand scheme of things...

    I’ll miss my friends & family more...that is still the hardest part.

    I really don’t like being home this much. I still have to go to work some days & for essentials, but that’s it. I suppose many of us are struggling with being home & not being able to see friends/family/etc.

    I like whimsical colouring designs, & somewhat detailed (but not overly elaborate). Fairies, woodland creatures, flowers, etc are things that I enjoy colouring.

    I’m going to go do some work now...

    I hope you enjoy gardening, & what weekend plans do you have?

    I can tell you my weekend plans right now: practising social/physical distancing (laughs).

    Thank you for being here.

    With love xoxo

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    29 March 2020 in reply to Peppermintbach
    Hello gorgeous friend,

    How is the physical distancing practice going? I know you are finding it very difficult and frustrating, i hooe that over time it sort of becomes easier, rather than harder (which i imagine is how you might feel it will become).

    I know it's very different & difficult for you as it is for many. It's easier for me because i am a homebody.

    Ha, you'll stay out for a month after this is over! Oh, meant to say, how lucky are you that you didn't go ahead & start seriously planning/booking that trip to France that you were contemplating?!

    Did you get to have some nice FaceTimes over the last couple of days?

    I missed out on my catch up with my friend, she had a crazy week with the way everything went & ran out if time. 2 of her kids ordinarily attend school, so it was a big change for her, having them at home & homeschooling them, as it has been for lots of parents no doubt. I will catch up with her next week.

    I am feeling really unwell today, not sure exactly what's going on, but am laying low all day. I had a snooze earlier & feel slightly better.

    Yesterday i did some stuff in the garden, and a friend was able to get my mulch for me as he was getting supplies from the hardware for his job. I ordered some plants online as well, so i am looking forward to that.

    I like the sound of your colouring pictures. I have one little book that is mostly patterns, i might dig that out, haven't done that for ages.

    I was going to start cleaning all the kitchen cupboards today, but have just felt yuck. I might start that this afternoon. Our dishwasher caused a big problem a week or so ago, leaked all through the back of the cabinetry and into the dining area - I'm really worried it's all damp & yuck underneath & have visions if it falling through the kitchen floor to the earth below! I have a friend who is a builder & his job is uncertain from this week on, so i am going to ask him to pull the dishwasher out - hence me making sure the kitchen cupboards all look sparkly cos he'll be up close & personal with them!

    Did you get to do any art this weekend?

    Sending love ❤

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    Darling friend/beautiful b (& a wave to all),

    Lovely friend, you don’t sound as though you’re feeling too well at all. I hope you’re not getting sick or coming down with something. What you’re experiencing doesn’t sound pleasant at all...

    I’m relieved a nap helped a little though. But I think it’s a good idea that you’ve tried to be somewhat gentle with yourself today...I hope you don’t push yourself too hard the next few days...

    The leakage from the dishwasher sounds frustrating & stressful, especially during a time like this. I think it works out that you have a friend who is a builder...

    I feel bad for him though. Job losses, reduced hours & uncertainly is affecting so many. People’s livelihoods...I completely understand why some industries need to temporarily close, but it can’t be easy when you still have bills to pay or kids to feed.

    My friend, I know you’re very house proud & I know that your home is your sanctuary. But, considering you’re not feeling well, can you maybe just give your cupboards a quick clean, instead of a deep clean? I say that out of concern for your health, my friend.

    Thank you so much for the words of caring & checking in on me. I’m diligently & responsibly practising physical/social distancing, but not enjoying it (laughs).

    Yes, I was able to connect through FaceTime. I’m grateful for various technologies. What can I say? It has to do for now...

    I’m sorry the call didn’t work out. I suppose this is a stressful time for both of you. Your household issues, etc & her homeschooling. I hope you can catch up next week :)

    I did some drawings, which was nice, but stopped when a wave of claustrophobia hit. I take comfort that this won’t be forever...

    I continued reading Come to the Edge. I don’t necessarily agree with the character, Cassandra, & her methods, but I admire her conviction.

    I don’t think she’s necessarily wrong in some of her observations about people & society. I suppose her weakness (& strength) is she can’t compromise. Her anger is black & white. She’s always “right”, plus the small number of people she deems “righteous”, & everyone else is “wrong.”

    I’m happy you were able to spend some time in your garden & I’m excited for your mulch & plant delivery.

    Can I ask, what plants did you order?

    Will you be able to rest a little this upcoming week, my friend?

    Thinking of you, & hoping you start to feel better soon.

    With love xoxox

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    29 March 2020 in reply to Peppermintbach
    Thank you beautiful friend,

    I do not feel good - i have been feeling some anxiety start to ramp up the last hour or so. Things like "i need to update my Will" . ... feeling shaky and thoughts going to worst scenarios. I was glad to get your message, i found it calming.

    Yes do not worry, it will not be a deep clean - just a quick once over 😉

    I am glad you got to spend some time drawing, but totally understand the claustrophobia, even I'm kind of feeling hemmed in. This ill feeling is not helping.

    Yes i will tell you what plants i ordered, some i had never heard of:

    Aruncus Zweiweltenkind
    Narines - Winter Cheer
    Sea Holly - Oxford Blue
    Dutch Iris - Discovery Sky
    Himalayan Windflower
    Miniature Daffodils Tete a Tete
    Queen Fabiola
    Allium Purple Rain

    They are on the Tesselaar website if you want some plant eye candy 😊

    Yes Cassandra is extreme to the max! I think she is basically philanthropic, but way over the top! I found Kavenna's writing style again really entertaining, and she captures the intensity really well. I had quite a few lolz, especially in the first half as the story was set up for us. Chapter 5 i thought was so funny. The whole Thou Shalts according to Cassandra and "you trashed the earth, that's how you made your delicious soup" ending. 😂 and i know what you mean, she's not necessarily wrong in her basic convictions, just maybe a smidgen extreme?!

    Oh thank you sweets, you have distracted me from what ails me for a little while, i really appreciate it!

    ❤❤❤

    🌻b xo
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    Darling friend/beautiful b (& a wave to all,)

    I am sitting here with you & thinking of you, my friend. I know your health can trigger your anxiety & fears, especially with how things are now, I can see why you’re feeling so scared....

    Deep breath, lovely friend...deep breath...

    I’m happy that I was able to take your mind off things briefly. I can only imagine the swirl of thoughts that were spinning in your mind...

    Thank you for sharing part of your gardening world with me. I looked up every plant, & that is quite a breathtaking selection. I particularly liked Aruncus, as it reminds me of a winter wonderland. I also found the sea holly striking. Gorgeous choices!

    I wonder how you chose.

    Did you choose based on the qualities of each individual plant?

    Or was it based on a cluster of qualities that they all shared/some other mental vision that you had of your garden?

    I agree that Cassandra has good intentions in the novel. Her methods are extreme, & her communication style is abrasive, but she means well.

    I remember her “Thou Shalts”, & I‘m sure she would find my lifestyle upsetting. I enjoy my worldly comforts, after all. So I’m sure this fictitious character would have plenty to say about my former trips to the nail salon (laughs). I would happily fill a bowl of popcorn, as I listen to her yell at me ;)

    During down time this week, I might paint pictures on canvases where I have only painted the background. There is something soothing about the process....

    I might also try guided movement meditations, which is inspired by dance. There’s a world famous American dancer, Galen Hooks, who teaches online. Basically she dances, & you mirror her movements :)

    There’s always so much emotion in her dance, & I’m not talking about her movement meditations, but her choreography. There is pause & editing. She’s a technician, but moreover, a masterful storyteller.

    I’m glad you decided to do a quick cupboard clean, rather than push yourself too hard. Gentle & easy does it, my friend...

    It sounds as though the trapped feeling is starting to affect you too.I think being home all the time can start to take its toll. But you’re doing the right thing by staying home, my friend. I know it‘s hard though. I feel for you...I really do...

    How are you feeling today, lovely friend?

    You are in my thoughts & heart. I am sending my blessings of health, safety & love to you & all your cherished family members..

    With love xoxox

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    30 March 2020 in reply to Peppermintbach
    Hi darling friend ❤

    This will be a short one my friend, but i will be back.

    I loved that you looked up all the plants i ordered! Youre so lovely to do that. I will tell you my modus operandi in my next post!

    I reckon Old Cassandra would yell at pretty much any person not living in the organically grown grass tent that they wove by hand while singing some amazing chant to the universe! I adored and lold at your line "i would happily fill a bowl of popcorn and listen to her as she yells at me"!! !! Me too. I will empty the bowl of popcorn if you fill it.

    I wanted to thank you for introducing me to Galen Hooks. I wanted to look up her movement meditations, they sounded intriguing, but then i got "hooked" on a whole bunch if her vids. Watched some Improv comps from new New York which i loved!!! Plus a bunch more videos, want to say more, but my brain has clocked off, because ...

    I just found out my income will be virtually non existent as of now, at least 80 - 100 % ... i felt it might be coming, but it's still a shock. The repercussions of this global crisis will continue to rock all the pockets of the world for a long time to come.

    More later, sending love.

    🌻b xo
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    30 March 2020 in reply to Peppermintbach
    I am so sorry.

    I meant to ask how your Monday was, with everything going on.

    Did you work from home today?

    Sorry, it was a full on day, and I'm feeling a bit dazed by it and it made me a bit wraooed up in my own crap.i am really sorry.

    I hope you have managed to have an ok day in the midst of all of that is happening ❤
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    Darling friend/beautiful b (& a wave to all),

    My lovely friend, you have nothing to apologise for. You’ve been here for me, listened to me & supported me more times than I can count.

    If you want to come here to unload some emotions or vent, you are welcome any time. Free rein as I’ve said before. I care & want to know about both your ups & downs. You have a friend in me.

    My heart breaks for your income loss. That is absolutely devastating news. I’m so, so sorry, my friend. Of course you’re feeling shaken & worried by the turn of events. I would be too if it was me...gentle hugs

    How will you & your little family manage?

    You don’t have to answer if you don’t want of course ;)

    Thank you so much for caring, especially when you have a lot to think about. My Monday was stressful, but with the way things are now, to be able to work is a blessing. I was physically at work yesterday, & same today, as I couldn’t work from home those days...

    Sigh, I have a couple of offline friends who became unemployed overnight. Thankfully, in Australia, we have a safety net from the government.

    But obviously they would prefer to work. It’s not just about money, even though money is important, but jobs are also about people’s identities....it really is horrible what has been happening in the economy...

    I’m so glad you’re hooked on Hooks’ dancing. Personally, I recommend looking up her choreography for River, which is a simple dance but with a lot of attitude. Another world famous dancer, Stevie Dorie, does a very powerful interpretation of it!

    Tempting as the organically grown grass tent sounds, I might leave that for other people ;) I’m happy you’re volunteering to help me demolish the popcorn as I am yelled at. Company is welcome.

    I look forward to hearing more about your plants & garden...always interested in hearing about your passions, my friend.

    I want you to know that I’m here for you. It isn’t all about me. I’m interested & care about what is going on in your life too, my friend.

    How are you holding up today, lovely friend?

    With love. You are in my thoughts and heart xoxox

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    Hi sweets,

    I hope your day is going ok. I imagine it's stressful. I think stressful is basically the new normal, for all.

    So, so sorry to hear about your friends losing their jobs - again, that's going to be the new normal for a while. How awful.

    I did watch River yesterday, i really liked it - and i agree, it's powerful - i am in awe of their work in heels!! Incredible. I watched some Freestyle roulette and some others which i want to talk to you about eventually.

    Have you tried any movement meditations yet? I am going to.

    I am feeling a bit flat this afternoon (which you can probably pick up on), after a bit of an anxious day. Thing is, we're ok. We will be alright, we will manage. We are fortunate enough to have savings to fall back on, mrs b still has her job and there's very little chance of that changing, so we're the lucky ones.

    So many petty things fall away during crises, or when we are met/confronted with our mortality or even the limits of our normality/ok-ness. I typed a whole other paragraph about this, but i deleted it, i might just leave it til another time, i am starting to feel a bit emotional.

    Wishing you lightness, safety and love.

    Be well darling friend.



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    Darling friend/beautiful b (& a wave to all),

    Gentle hugs. Yes, you do sound as though you’re feeling a little flat. I think that’s understandable after a weekend of elevated anxiety.

    I suppose now is a little like a wind-down feeling, so it’s no wonder you’re feeling flat...sigh, these are rough times, my friend.

    I’m very relieved that you & mrs b will be okay though. Your savings & her job sounds as though it will give you both some much needed stability during this difficult time.

    I think financial stability makes an enormous difference...I know your income loss is still very upsetting & a shock to the system, but at least you’re both financially okay for now...

    It’s still not easy of course, & your feelings of loss are still very valid, raw & understandable, my friend...

    You clearly have a lot on your mind...a reflective mood. I don’t know what you were thinking, but I suppose difficult circumstances can really make us clarify our priorities. Life is fragile...

    I think River is one of her most beloved dances worldwide. I love how each dancer showed off his or her own flair :)

    Yes, her freestyle roulettes can be really interesting to watch. I loved their improv in freestyle roulettes... freedom, skill & artistry.

    Thank you, lovely friend. Sigh, I’m sad for my friends, but it’s of course sadder for them, as they are the ones who lost their jobs.

    Some of them will be relying on Centrelink, plus savings, for now. It’s a grim reality for a lot of Australians.

    The silver lining is it’s a temporary, albeit very difficult, situation, & that at least we have a safety net here...we will get through this. Eventually.

    Thank you so much for the well wishes. They are gratefully accepted.

    I’m endlessly grateful for employment, as it’s “hard times”. But I was frustrated with a colleague who really should have taken sick leave. She exposed a lot of people to her dry cough yesterday.

    I read about a nurse losing her job (a nurse?!). Surely, we need nurses more than ever now & they can be retrained if need be. I just don’t understand...how is it that a nurse doesn’t have a job, & I have one? Makes no sense to me.

    I haven’t yet tried her guided movement meditations. Perhaps later during the week or weekend. If you give it a go, I would to hear about your experience :)

    How is your day looking, my friend?

    I know you weren’t feeling very well last weekend. How are you feeling today?

    I’m thinking of you, & sending well wishes of health, comfort & love xoxox


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    Hello my friend,

    That is absolutely dreadful that their was a colleague at work who was coughing! I hope she was sent home!! That is just very basic common sense in these times, you stay home if you have any kind of sickness or symptoms of anything that could be a cold or a flu or whatever it's as simple as that. I think you can be fined even. Absolutely infuriating.

    I am very, very stressed my friend, i am frustrated and upset and feel powerless and all sorts of things. I actually had a cry, which felt good, and i just had a quick chat with my friend (finally) and it was good to talk and feel validated from an outside perspective.

    I know i am in a much more secure position than many others, but i am worried my good nature is being taken for granted in this situation i really, really hope not, but i am waiting to hear back by email about what's going on and I'm getting really agitated and feeling edgy as anything.

    I need to go put some music on, move my body, do something, I'm feeling like crap.

    Talk to you soon.



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    Darling friend/beautiful b (& a wave to all),

    It’s okay, my lovely friend...just let it out. Allow yourself that...I am here listening & care very much about you.

    Even though it’s absolutely awful to feel this way, you’re allowed to feel frustrated & upset & powerless. You’re entitled to your own emotions, my friend. You really are...

    I think you probably needed a good cry. A release. I’m so very glad you were able to talk to your friend, & felt heard & validated...

    You’re right, of course it’s not okay to have someone take advantage of your good nature & kindness, even if you’re in a secure position. That’s not okay.

    I’m not sure what has happened, my friend, but I hope the email at least gives you some indication about your situation...

    Deep breaths, lovely friend. Deep breaths...I can feel your anxious spiral, which is of course understandable.

    I think music sounds like a wonderful idea. Maybe you can dance freestyle to it, or even try a guided movement meditation if you’re feeling up to it...

    I’m not sure what has happened exactly, but I’m here with you...

    Thinking of you & holding out my hand of friendship to you...

    Sending hope, love & feelings of grounding xoxox

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    Hey there beautiful friend,

    Thank you so very much for being here for me.

    It was so comforting and i feel so supported by your words and your friendship.

    Nothing has changed with my situation since yesterday, so i am just riding it out, and waiting.

    As you said in your 30seconds thread, today's up and downs are today's up and downs. Thank you for that ❤

    How are you today? Are things going ok for you in your day? Are you able to work from home today?

    I just wanted to say thank you so much for being you.

    I will come and talk to you a bit later, just wanted to say thanks 😘



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    Darling friend/beautiful b (& a wave to all),

    I am continuing to listen & I care very much about you, lovely friend. I’m glad my words gave you some comfort during this very stressful & uncertain time for you.

    I imagine waiting is hard. I feel the unknown can be scary & unsettling....

    Would you like to share what has been troubling you, my friend?

    There’s no pressure of course, but I am listening if you want to unload some of your troubles or vent.

    I admire your resolve to try to just take things day by day...gentle & easy does it, my friend...gentle & easy does it...

    Day by day...no more, no less...

    Thank you for caring, my friend. I’m feeling a little emotional. I want to cry but I can’t...my tears feel trapped lately...I’m just feeling a little overwhelmed. But I suppose almost all of us feel that way...

    Yes, I can work from home today. I can do a partial work-from-home arrangement, but I still need to go in some days because of the nature of my work. I have learnt that I’m much less productive at home, as I’m more prone to distractions (laughs).

    I have continued to sketch/draw throughout the week during down time. I’ve also started to roughly sketch a picture on a canvas (previously painted the background already). I’ll go over the picture with paint & add details when I’m done. It’s a creative outlet for me & calms the mind.

    I am thinking of you & my hand of friendship is always extended.

    Come here to talk any time you like, my friend. I’m here with you...

    With love xoxox


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    Hello my lovely friend! ❤

    I am dropping by to see how my extrovert friend is coping on this Saturday afternoon - i can imagine that weekends might be difficult for you at the moment.

    Do you have a catch up lined up with friends for a cuppa (or a cocktail 🍸) via facetime this weekend?

    So glad to hear you've continued drawing/sketching this week! And also drawing on the canvases of which you've already painted the background - i am hoping that this is bringing you calm.

    I know that feeling of wanting to cry, but somehow not being able to. Has that shifted at all? Have you been able to let go some of that and allow the tears to flow and the feelings to move? Maybe dancing could help?

    I haven't tried a movement meditation yet, but had a fun freestyle in the kitchen with the music cranked 😊 have you tried one yet?

    I hope you are nurturing yourself.

    My plants arrived yesterday! So a happy planting time ahead, it usually takes me some time to decide or listen to them about where they want to live 😊 My process is a bit random really - i buy plants that i like (could be the flowers, could be for colour or structure or form, could be for a particular purpose eg. screening, fruit, shade) and then find a way for them to make sense in my garden in relation to what i already have there. Or something like that! I don't always work to a particular plan.

    I love the Aruncus too! So pretty with those whimsical panicles! When they flower i should try to show you (it will be a while).

    I am feeling a bit calmer after my anxious week - my financial issue isn't totally sorted, but i managed to partially sort it, & i feel a bit better about it. Thank you for being here for me and for your beautiful friendship amd support!

    Has "in iso" prompted any venturing into the kitchen for trying some recipes? Made a yummy dinner the other night, wanted to share with you super simple, super fast and super healthy. Literally 7 minutes from start to finish. Next post my friend!

    Much love, thinking of you



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    Darling friend/beautiful b (& a wave to all),

    How thoughtful of you to think of me & ask how I’m holding up. Thank you so much, my friend :)

    I really appreciate how you make time for me, especially when I know you have your own troubles & struggles. You’re lovely...really you are...

    I think it must be such a relief to feel your emotions settle a little. I know you have been in an anxious spiral, & maybe you’re still in it to some extent, but you do sound calmer today...what a relief that at least your financial situation is partially sorted.

    Hopefully the rest is fixed up soon. One day at a time, right?

    I smiled when I read about your plant delivery. I can sense your excitement, & I’m happy for you too :)

    I think it’s beautiful how you follow your instincts & intuitively figure out where to plant them. You have a very gentle relationship with nature, & it’s moving...

    Yes, the Aruncus is gorgeous. Makes me think of snow & winter. I would be very interested to see what they look like when they flower...

    Thank you for your love & caring, my friend. I had a cry last night, so got some of it out of my system, which was a welcome relief.

    I’m adapting to this semi isolated period (semi as I still need to go to work some days). I think because I know we are all in the same boat, it’s comforting...& I also realise in many ways, I’m lucky.

    Yes, I’ve continued to draw & that gives me both a creative outlet & helps me focus. Now is a good time to just refine those skills, as I have certain long-term goals.

    I’m not interested in seeing my work in an exhibit or anything like that, but I have other plans. That said, if for whatever unusual, lucky & strange reason, that became an option, I would gladly take it for the exposure.

    I have FaceTime chats lined up for tonight & tomorrow, so I’m looking forward to both. Thankfully, there is technology ;)

    Your 7 minute dinner sounds both tasty & within my cooking requirements of fast and healthy (laughs). I would love to hear more about it. I’m afraid I’ve actually cooked even less, not more.

    A colleague commented that I had recently lost weight (unintentionally & I didn’t even notice), but I’m guessing that’s also stress related...we are having issue with getting enough protective gear for our frontline staff.

    How is your weekend looking, lovely friend?

    I’m assuming a fair bit of gardening, yes?

    May you stay safe. Sending you & your family my blessings of good health, comfort & love xoxox


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    5 April 2020 in reply to Peppermintbach

    Hello Pepper girl!

    Popping in to share the lurve; hope life's treating you well. Have missed you and the crew. Might pop back tonight if I get a chance and have a cuppa hey?

    HxH

    Lub, lub...Sez xo

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    Hi pepper and everyone reading,

    I like your thread and interesting discussion.

    So you find video chats annoying at all? I may be getting old but I find them frustrating.

    Just Sara, just saying hi and welcome back. Hope life is treating you well.

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    Hello my lovely friend ❤

    (hey, welcome back Sez, hi to all 😊)

    I am glad you had a cry Sweets - i honestly feel it can move things along like nothing else can. I am glad you felt some relief. There is a line i am thinking of, about tears helping us move down the river of life, lifting us up off the rocks ... i will try to find it ❤

    When you mentioned your colleague noticing you had lost weight, i hope you are ok, i am not sure if this is an issue for you, or just a detail of life. The stress of work, and just the stress of life at the moment can affect our living/eating patterns and on the way our bodies respond to the way we live our days.

    I understand getting in the kitchen isn't high on your all time faves list - but i hope somewhere along the days here, you will find some inspo to cook up some yummy nurturing meals, even if they're in bulk, in advance for the week ahead. I will here and there pop in a (quick) plant-based meal idea/recipe for you (if that might help) ... and look forward to you telling me when you've tried them?

    Today i worked in the garden most of the afternoon - it was feral and windy this morning, and i made mrs b and i gozlemes (🎶 "yum!!" 🎶) for brunch, then the arvo turned out beautiful and sunny, so i worked hard out there, the boys had a lovely time playing on the lawn in the sun. Was so thankful a few weeks ago i had prepared some pies and pasties, and froze them - had somethibg to whack in the oven while i cleaned up from being outside 👍

    I want to talk to you about your art ideas - & lots of other things ... i shall return beautiful friend.



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    "Tears are a river that take you somewhere. Weeping creates a river around the boat that carries your soul-life. Tears lift your boat off the rocks, off dry ground, carrying it downriver to someplace new, someplace better."

    Clarissa Pinkola Estés - Women Who Run With The Wolves

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    Hi to all the lovely people,

    Hi Sez: Thank you so much for the well wishes. That’s very kind of you.

    Also, welcome back :) It’s nice to see you. I hope things are going well in your world.

    Thanks again for the visit xoxo

    Hi Quirky: what a treat to see you here. Thank you :)

    Thank you so much for the kind words. I’m glad you’re getting something from these exchanges, chats & musings.

    I think it’s fair enough if you don’t like video/FaceTime/Skype chats. It’s not for everyone, & that’s understandable, as we all have different preferences ;)

    I like video chats, & I don’t find it annoying, because I think it enhances communication. I can see (& convey) visual cues like facial expressions & body language that other channels, such as phone calls, can’t facilitate.

    I also think it’s the closest alternative to face-to-face communication during social/physical distancing & self isolation.

    It’s good to see you here xoxo

    Darling friend/beautiful b: Thank you so much for the gorgeous quote, lovely friend.

    Water....river...tears...ebb & flow, right?

    Yes, ebb & flow...

    Thank you for the loving reminder, my friend. Absolutely gorgeous quote :)

    What a busy, but very rewarding, day you had yesterday. I’m glad the weather improved in the afternoon...

    It sounds as though you got a lot done in the garden, which must have been satisfying. But perhaps more importantly, I know how much hard work in your garden sanctuary nurtures your spirit....

    You & mrs be are clearly looked after on the food front. Your famous speedy gozleme must has been a nice brunch treat for you to share with mrs b :) What a wholesome day you had with your family & in the garden.

    I think the weight loss comment surprised me, that’s all. Personally, I don’t think that I look that different. Shrugs...

    (laughs) I actually don’t ever do weekly bulk cooking, as spending half/full day in the kitchen is something I try to avoid ;) I will, however, sometimes make a couple of extra portions (if I’m cooking dinner anyway) to save time.

    But, you’re always welcome to share any healthy & fast plant based recipes with me, my friend. I know how much you enjoy cooking, & that you know lots of yummy recipes :)

    I realise that you have had some struggles lately, so I’m wondering how has your mood been since the weekend, my friend?

    Also, I’m interested to know what did you end up planting/digging/doing in your garden on Sunday?

    With love & warm blessings of good health to you & your family xoxox

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    9 April 2020 in reply to Peppermintbach
    Hello gorgeous friend ❤

    How are you at the end of this weird week?

    Are you feeling ok?

    I imagine there's a bit of cabin fever. I have it too. That's saying something ... !

    Do you have some facetime lined up over this long weekend? Maybe you don't get a long weekend with your work, but either way i hope you can get some social time with your friends, or some fun downtime.

    You asked what i did in the garden, well some of my new plants decided where they wanted to live, but the others are still indecisive. I told them No Hurry. But i remulched the hedge aling the front (i am so impatient for it to grow tall, and in response it's the slowest growing thing in the history of this garden). And i put in some more garlics and seeds of coriander and silverbeet.

    This week I have been up and down, up and down with worries and frustrations, but i think I've reached a calm for now, after another stressful day. I feel calm for tonight at least!

    During my angst, I've been listening to some talks/meditations about sheltering in love which encourages us to look at the connectedness that this crisis is engendering. It has been helping to provide calm and hope anyway - wouldn't it be wonderful if we all come through the other side with more kindness and compassion?

    There is such a beautiful opportunity for us all to respond to each other with love and openheartedness during this strange time that we are *all* experiencing... the question is, why can't we respond to each other in "normal" times with such openheartedness?

    These are just thoughts I'm putting out here my friend, no need to respond, and i don't even know if it made sense, i am nit going to read back and edit or i will likely delete it - i guess i am trying to wind down my mind from today.

    Do you have a book lined up to read next? I have so many on my bookshelves that i could read, but i haven't quitened my head enough yet to get some concentration! It would be fun to read a book together again sometime.

    Let me lnow how you are, I'm thinking of you.

    This comes with love ❤

    🌻b xo
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    9 April 2020 in reply to Peppermintbach
    7 minute dinner:

    1 box of Plantasia plant-based roast "duck"- pan fried and sliced/chopped into bite sized pieces.

    1 bag of cauliflower/broccoli-rice (mrs b brought home a bag that was on quick sale at coles for 12 cents, oh yeah), stirfried with your fave condinents eg. Coconut Aminos, soy sauce, sesame oil.

    Serve veg rice and "duck" on plates with the juicy sauce from stirfrying, and crushed peanuts, plus lettuce leaf cups (baby cos, iceberg or the like), so you can eat it san choy bow style, or as is.

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    Darling friend/beautiful b (& a wave all),

    I’m giving you a warm hug & my hand of friendship is always extended. I’m listening intently. What an emotional roller coaster ride, my friend...

    I felt your turbulent emotions, & I care very about your feelings...I’m glad your emotions settled a little last night though. Moments of calm are precious....

    I think you were very brave to just write freely, & I hope it settled your mind a little. I’m glad you didn’t delete it..

    I know things like spelling, grammar, expression, etc are things that you pay attention to...but it’s okay, my friend...maybe just let it go...give yourself the space to freely self express. We don’t think any less of you. We love you all the same ;)

    I actually think it’s nice getting to know this other side of you. However you choose to write, there’s an undeniable sensitivity & compassion that I see...

    Yes, my friend, it would be wonderful if we responded to the crisis with love & an open heart...& thereafter. That would be world changing...

    Sigh, I don’t know if we have it in us as a collective though...even now, I feel there is such a huge range of behaviours between people, from thoughtful & compassionate to outright self serving...

    Your garden sounds like it’s being tended to with so much love. I love coriander!

    Laughs...hopefully your unplanted plants hear you, but they do sound a little defiant ;) I’m glad some of the more cooperative plants have found homes ...

    Thank you for asking. For choosing to be here...it has been an emotional week.

    A friend was diagnosed with COVID-19, so that has been worrying. Hopefully she will be part of the 80% with only mild symptoms. In happier news, a client thankfully came back with negative results.

    I have FaceTime chats planned this weekend. Did you know that you can have up to 32 participants in a FaceTime call?

    I started reading a novel, A People’s History of Heaven, which explores issues of class, religion, gender roles, sexuality & identity.

    From the blurb:

    Nestled between the luxury high-rise Bangalore is an ironically named slum called Heaven. It’s here 5 girls- Muslim, Christian & Hindu; gay & straight- forge a binding friendship.

    Thanks so much for the recipe. It looks quickly & easy (2 very important requirements)...it sounds yum too!

    Are there any new talks/meditations that you have found helpful?

    Also, do you have any plans for the long weekend, my friend?

    With love & blessings of grounding, health & comfort xoxox


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