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Topic: Should I just suck this up?

  1. awrinkle in time
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    6 February 2019 in reply to monkey_magic

    hey monks , watched that show ...it got me in ...it was good ....

    Good Night ....

    going for a swim in the morning ...ill get ya a coffee .. :-)

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  2. awrinkle in time
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    8 February 2019 in reply to monkey_magic

    Hi , just saying Gidday mate , hope your good ...

    xxx

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  3. Croix
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    8 February 2019 in reply to monkey_magic

    Dear MM~

    I'm glad you are swimming, while it is no substitute for a lot of things at least it allows exercise without much weight on your feet.

    If I remember you have traveled as a means of getting a change, however they might have been temporary things. Are you getting the urge for a permanent move?

    Croix

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  4. monkey_magic
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    8 February 2019 in reply to Croix

    Hi everyone,

    A wrinkle; love married at first sight- watch it religiously. And thanks again for another delicious coffee.

    Hey there Croix; the move would be temp I think, c how I go.

    Been feeling blaah.....Saw a favourite friend, did some art, watched a movie but don't feel like myself. Haven't for so long so nothing new there. I'm hurt and angry. Hurt I'm effected by what was forced on me- this stuff that's still in my brain permanently and there's nothing I can do. Really dulls life for me. Has since I started on the stuff really.

    My friend owns a house. Good 4 her- makes me really want my own house too...perhaps one day.

    Hope I can feel good again. Life just looks bleak without colours.

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  5. awrinkle in time
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    8 February 2019 in reply to monkey_magic

    xxx

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  6. monkey_magic
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    8 February 2019 in reply to monkey_magic

    I struggle to believe I can't go for a power walk for exercise but it's true. I feel like it's hard for ppl to believe meds r causing pain and crippling in my feet but they do. I was completely failed by the mental health system because they wouldn't listen. They opposed me wanting less meds/ no meds.

    I really struggle with ppl in this world. They r wrong, they know they are wrong yet they keep doing wrong and still practice! A nightmare! So many of them, and people trust them. People think they are giving them the right advice and treatment.

    I was in the middle of something bad and ugly. Still am!

    Im going to live my challenged life and b an example for others. Hopefully my story will lead the way for others. My eyes have been opened in this life to new things over and over again. Please trust your gut and say no when things are not right in your life. In my case I was under a mental health order and ppl had power over me.

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  7. monkey_magic
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    13 February 2019 in reply to monkey_magic

    Hi everyone,

    Ive been swimming, baking, colouring in, posting on fb, & writing poems.

    I'm very excited to launch my website for my business ( when I have the cash). I've been working on it for a while now ( started a yr ago). I need to be more disciplined to come up with the money. I'm sure I will because I want to do it NOW.

    Feet still give me pain but I was received to not be in more pain after a slow hours walk the other day. The pains pretty consistent.

    My World of friends r back including relatives from overseas since I've been back on fb, glad I did it.

    What's New with you BB peeps?

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  8. quirkywords
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    13 February 2019 in reply to monkey_magic

    monkey,

    Your website, sounds like a wonderful venture. do you have people with expertise

    who can help you design and get your website going?

    You are talented and motivated so they are very good traits to have when starting up a new computer venture.

    I am sorry your feet are still causing you pain.

    Nothing much new happening in my life at the moment but that can be a good thing.

    Quirky

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    14 February 2019 in reply to monkey_magic

    Hello Magic,

    You are one very inspiring and strong warrior, Your post is so positive and uplifting, it’s beautiful to read...

    I can really feel your excitement it’s glowing when your talking about your new website for your business, Follow your dreams beautiful Magic and believe in yourself and you will accomplish anything you want to because you have a want for it, I believe you will be winner with your dreams..

    Im sorry about your feet, I really hope that they stop hurting you soon...

    Its also wonderful to hear that you have your world of friends back...l am also pleased that your back on fb..fb had a different effect on me unfortunately..

    Your a huge inspiration to so many people here our special forum Warrior, take good care of yourself and you are going frombstrength to strength which is wonderfulbto hear....please continue to grow in that strength as you have been doing..

    Love and hugs,
    Grandy.l

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    16 February 2019 in reply to monkey_magic

    🤗 hey our Magic Warrior, brain fog you're a hugger eh? If not I'll throw you a dazzling 😁..just need that Colgate sparkle or is it Macleans.

    Wow you are one tough cooky 👏 absolutely loven hearing how you're getting on. Honey put this enthusiasm excitement goals and happies in memory so if you have hard times you can call on this. Really pleased you're going so well hun. In our hard times it's so hard to believe things can improve and it's down to your inner strength Magic. Kudos

    So do you have your glitter pens yet? Are they pens/felt pens or paint. Love the sound of them. Glitter holograms prisms shineys' love all those pretties.

    You're such a goer good on you.

    Was thinking today do you have good comfy joggers to help your feet. Wonder if there's any heat rubs or what's it called dah..popular a chinese ..yip tiger balm but better to check with GP cause some naturals can interfere with meds which you might be aware of.

    Magic darl keep on keeping on hun as our beautiful Grandy said you really are an inspiration.

    Hey the internet business sounds exciting too. Great having a goal and something to work towards. You go girl!

    Sweets thanks so much for dropping at mine the other day. I apologise lovey I wasn't in a yuk mood just detached maybe and pain and hibernating rah rah and didnt acknowledge you and Peps as I should have cause I deeply appreciate so much the support from here so please forgive my lack of communication, I replied but briefly

    You know I rate ya darls ☺ love and happies sent via cyber huns

    ⚘🌱 (new beginnings)

    Bunny 🐰

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  11. monkey_magic
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    16 February 2019 in reply to quirkywords

    Hi Quirky, Grand & all,

    Yeah I'm saving up to pay someone to do my website tried doing it myself but so lost. I started doing the work ( love it so not really work) a yr ago. Can't wait. I think it will do really well. It's something I created and the more I put into it the more ill get out. I don't see this one failing. I already have people that want to subscribe.

    With the feet I just have to live with it, it's ok, what can I do don't have much choice. Joggers are actually the best ( gel) for my feet.

    Brain fog- I know all about brain fog- shoo, lol.....

    Yeah I've been using my pens, colour in lots then post the masterpieces on fb to get the likes lol.

    Thnx 4 the love & happies- love those. No worries about not writing back, all good.

    Not sure about how much of a warrior I am as I procrastinate a lot and lie around a lot but I see it as giving my feet rest. I suppose we all don't need to be achieving all the time.

    I feel lucky that I can do what I do ( my business). I have a talent for it and so thankful I do, I really love my work.

    With my other job there's been none of it... hopefully next week though as a project's coming in. I really should have applied for more jobs by now but I haven't.

    Meeting up with a friend soon- should be interesting.

    And had a fling with a man- why not.

    You only Live once....he's from way back. We've been in contact so that's good. In contact with the one from the psych ward too....

    Live abundantly is what they say, right, lol. I really like the one from the psych ward but he's not taking charge. I want him to man up. He could have invited me out for Valentine's....anyway.....

    Hope you were all ok for Valentine's....Just another Day really. I connected with a few men through fb, pH, text....and my mum gave me a chocolate.

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    16 February 2019 in reply to monkey_magic

    Hi everyone ☺

    Good onya hun enjoy yourself I'm really pleased psych ward guy you're in touch with. He might be scared of rejection. You might prefer a bloke to initiate which is fair enough if you do, maybe you could ask him out.

    Sounds promising your business, best thing being happy what your doing. Came back to mention "Go Daddy" being advertised on the box a free website builder maybe worth a squiz apparently they make it easy to build, save you a lot of $ potentially.

    How gorgeous your Mum giving you a choccy. I bet she's so relieved seeing you on the improve.

    You may lay arou d a lot but you also work when you can, travel, working on a business, paint.

    Wonder if one of those foot massage things could help and maybe worth a try soaking your feet in warm water. No idea but anythings worth a try if safe. So glad it didnt increase the pain. Good walking an hr. Long way.

    Ok Magic catch ya later chick 🌱

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  13. Ggrand
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    20 February 2019 in reply to monkey_magic

    Hello 🐒 Magic,

    Its been a while since you posted on here and that’s a little concerning...RUOK?

    How is your business going honey?..

    It was nice to read your last very uplifting post and that you seemed to be getting stronger within yourself..are you still feeling that way?.

    I hope you had a lovely time with your friend and enjoyed each other’s company..

    I know so many questions but it’s out of concern for you..no pressure to reply just letting you know that you are loved and cared for by many people here...dear magic..

    Love and hugs..💜🤗..

    Grandy

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  14. monkey_magic
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    23 February 2019 in reply to demonblaster

    Hi all,

    Yeah I'm ok, went away for a few days with a friend and it was better than expected. Stayed in a couple of hotels, visited some places, did a slow beach walk, took photos, ate in cafe's.

    I could initiate to take it further with the guy from the psych ward but I'll just see how it goes.

    Want to try acupuncture for my feet. Worth a shot right.

    Still doing things for the business but it won't launch until I have the $$$ for the site. I've tried giving those website builders ago but still lost with what I want to do for the site. Think I need a professional.

    Hope Ur all enjoying your Sat night.

    MM x

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  15. awrinkle in time
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    1 March 2019 in reply to monkey_magic

    Hi Ya Monkey , hows things ...

    xxx

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  16. monkey_magic
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    2 March 2019 in reply to awrinkle in time

    Hi ya,

    Things r prob better with u since you've been to the snow & all. Just kicking back watching TV. Nothing that exciting, just normal life on my end. Been writing poems and stuff X

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  17. awrinkle in time
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    3 March 2019 in reply to monkey_magic

    Hi Ya , good one monks , love kicking back ...

    Just sayin hi X

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  18. monkey_magic
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    8 March 2019 in reply to monkey_magic

    Just an update;

    Money's been a bit of an issue recently with lack of work & the 3 mnths I spent in hospital. Works picked up now thankgod. Have a shift this afternoon & tomorrow.

    Still have to get my car back on the rd. Didn't pass blueslip bcas it sometimes still runs when turned off. I just put it into 1st gear & stop it that way but they won't pass it until it's fixed. Can't afford just yet so I'm on the public transport. I really hate being in a position where I can't pay for things & can't wait for all that to change.

    Been struggling a bit with the med side effects. Feel really sick at times. Curious as to what will happen when I tell the psych about what the meds did to me. ( Muscle stiffness & pain). Wonder if they will get changed. Better to not be on anything at all- that's what I really want.

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    8 March 2019 in reply to monkey_magic

    Hey Magic good hearing from you 🤗

    You know I read this a little while ago and thought I'll get back here msybe tomoz but while watching a TV show I was as I do often tninking about people here I care about and do in rl too. My thoughts were strong on your strength your survival, no matter what's thrown at you you get through and seem to strengthen in the process.

    A word about time which fascinates me that it never stops and change comes about with it.

    Look where you were about 3/4 mths ago, in a heap at the bottom. Now look where you are and what you've been through and overcome. Magic remember you've overcome many hard timesand will always have it in you to do that.

    Awesome about some work, being in financial is one of lifes greatest stresses although tomorrow always comes regardless.

    I hope psych changes your meds and that your foot? troubles might reverse.

    You're sounding more settled and calm Magic are you feeling that way?

    Love and care sweet

    🌱 new beginnings warrior Magic 🤗☄⛅

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  20. monkey_magic
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    9 March 2019 in reply to demonblaster

    Calm and settled, yeah I guess. On the way to work atm. Financial is a stress. Ill be ok though in a couple weeks, then work dries up again in April. Just have to find something else.

    Public transport takes so much longer.

    Not sure if the feet ever will get better. Pretty sure it's permanent.

    Thanks for listening DB and all X

    MM

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    9 March 2019 in reply to monkey_magic

    Pleasure treasure always walking with you 🏃‍♀️ nah too fast ...we'll have to🚶‍♀️...that's better

    Very hard about your foot.

    Hope your days good hun 🤗

    Hope your glitter art has been going well

    Catch ya darl ☺

    Love bunny

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  22. awrinkle in time
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    12 March 2019 in reply to monkey_magic

    Hey double M,

    Just got home ...still have a bit of time off before back to the grind ....The money thing always sorts itself out it will come good again ...I had a different trip away this year ..a crappy feeling got hold of me and it was hard to shake ...just needed to go with it ....just wanted to be on my own ....and not mix with people ...anyway it feels good to be home ...i think every though there were people around i still felt lonely ...i read in LA airport a big sign that said if your not right we are all not right ....a world of no judgement and a willingness to help others ...another sign said we are all going through something ....some peoples lives look good on the outside but we are all the same we all have things that get us up and down ...and we all have to do our best what ever that is ...give a smile, say a few nice words ... help when we can ...try to do little things to build our own confidence so we can help more often ....im glad your back at work and you are going good even on the train or bus ...it would make my day to sit next to you on the morning commute and chat about stuff :-) ....Luv Ya Monks ... Enjoy this special day xxooo

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  23. awrinkle in time
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    14 March 2019 in reply to monkey_magic
    Hey Monks , whats new in the hood ..
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  24. monkey_magic
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    15 March 2019 in reply to awrinkle in time

    The News from The hood is that the hood hopes your crappy feeling eases- whooosh just like that. Hopefully you still had a good time on the slopes as well.

    Just been working like a good girl. Making the money to pay the bills.

    I prefer my own company as well. All that talking ppl do gets too much for me most of the time so I prefer my own company. Not all that bad in my opinion.

    Watched the Michael Jackson documentaries. Just wow. So he was a predator. I really loved the guy too. His performances, music etc.

    Havent been to the gym in a long time. Must get back in action.

    Still writing poems. Been getting really good feedback as well.

    Keep smiling all :-)

    Double M X

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  25. awrinkle in time
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    15 March 2019 in reply to monkey_magic

    I love you double M ...

    Im glad you being a good girl ...working hard ... getting the money honey ...

    I know watched it as well ... why didn't people say anything ....like a man having young boys as friends ... im just speechless ...

    am just doing some changes with my gym ...found a class that runs lots of different times 7 days a week ...had a class the other day as a trial it was okay ....still thinking ... doing some stuff at home ...that keeps me in shape ...

    You are a great poem writer ....those 2 you sent me were awesome .... i mean that ...your a real beautiful sole monkey .... or double M ... like that :-) .... keep writing you have a gift xx

    its still hot and humid up this way ...talk about from one extreme to the other....the snow was so so cold ...but nice for a while ...until your body dries out ....Well hope your day is a good one ...and yes i am smiling now i have chatted with you xxxxooooo

    my turn for coffee tomorrow morning ............ :-) :-) :-)

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  26. monkey_magic
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    22 March 2019 in reply to awrinkle in time

    Hopefully the weather has cooled down for you, it has where I am.

    My car is in for repairs. Spending a bit of money. In one hand and out the other.... hopefully it's all done by today.

    I'm craving a swim.

    Thanks for the poem compliment. I put some of them on a site and get feedback & likes, going well so far.

    I haven't lost any weight. Not sure if anyone remembers but my dad said he'll buy me a car if I lose weigh. I'm stuck. My weight doesn't budge. Ill keep trying. Was considering buying fat blaster tablets, but I didn't.

    Saw a psychiatrist. Part of my CTO includes seeing the psych and i don't really have a choice about it. She said she'll reduce my medication- some progress there I suppose. She actually listened to me but I was still left with a bad taste in my mouth. The fact that I'm on injections against my will is ludicrous. She's aware that I don't agree with any diagnosis'. And I also spoke out a lot. She wasn't on a power trip like other male psychiatrists I've seen that didn't like to be challenged. At least this time I was heard. Slowly making progress.

    Been working a bit more and will be next week as well. I like the company and the pays decent- when there is work in the office.

    Can't wait to launch my website, and do other small businessy things I've been researching. It's been a slow progression. Universe I need more money!!

    Kcking back on the couch atm. How is everyone & what's been happening?

    Love double M x

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  27. awrinkle in time
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    23 March 2019 in reply to monkey_magic

    Hey double ....

    I wrote on the other thread ... The shrink lady sound good ....thats great ... Im so glad your being heard so important ...You sound good .... and the weight thing will happen ....and so will the new car ... just keep being kind to yourself as I know you are ....hey I'm watching a series on Stan called Billions ....it quite good am getting into it so many seasons ....a great chill out .... Well I hope you have a nice night ... I'm going to bed early maybe ...tired after a big night last night and the beach today ... first world problems ...haha ...Hey have you been following the NZ prime minister ?? what a quality Lady leader .... I was reading about her last night ....I was in tears ... so much emotion over there at the moment ... the country is in good hands with Jacinta as their leader .... God Bless all those people hurting at the moment ....

    Luv Ya Monks xxooo always makes my day to read your posts ...

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    25 March 2019 in reply to monkey_magic

    Hey Magic and all ☺

    Wow things seem to be moving along nicely darl work good pay and a psych listening to you thats awesome. So glad your meds being reduced too. Cool.

    Yes I remember your Dad and the car offer. Sometimes we now I cant think of the word you know stay at the same place for a bit then it all happens again. If you're exercising some could be muscle too

    You sound better Magic more content and how exciting launching your business soon wow.

    Good on you warrior keep your head high and moving forward you'll get there cause you want to and work towards it.

    Go easy hun, love bunny ☺🌹🤗

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