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Topic: Should I just suck this up?

  1. awrinkle in time
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    19 August 2019 in reply to monkey_magic

    Hello , Those bloody drugs ... hope you feel a bit better today ....getting to the gym will be good just do a little bit....go slow , look after you for the next few days .... just go slow and watch ... xxx

    So the clothes arrived ....nice ... Ive got a coffee going you up for one ? : )

    Our hot water service is broken and we are having cold showers .... lots of screaming going on In the house ...its cold in Qld ...did house work yesterday laundry and stuff ... have a busy week ahead ....which is good it will go quick ...I like being organised at the start of the week a little plan for me to follow : ) .... slurp ...slurp ...

    better get ready for work and all that stuff ....

    I have a book i have read many times and its one of those books you can pick up and read a few pages and get something from it ....I think its so good ... you might enjoy it also ... you could sit in a book shop with a coffee and read before you buy hahah ...if you don't like it put it back on the shelve : ) ... we have book shops up hear that serve coffee they are pretty cool to visit ... you know I wouldn't give you a bum steer ...

    the books called "The Power Of Now" By Eckhart Tolle . ...its best to read it not listen to Audio book ....

    Have a good day Lovely .... xoxoxo

    xxx swimming at the beach is a little on hold ....will try after gym tonight ... its so cold .... need a wet suit hahah

    Luv Ya xxxxooo

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  2. quirkywords
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    19 August 2019 in reply to monkey_magic

    Monkey magic,

    I am glad your clothes arrived and you are going to the gym. How did that Go?

    Are you doing much of your art?

    Do you mean you are not seeing your psych for a while or not again?

    I find your posts very honest .

    I hope you had a good weekend.

    Quirky

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  3. monkey_magic
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    19 August 2019 in reply to awrinkle in time

    Hi A wrinkle and Quirky,

    Yep, read that book a lot of years ago.maybe I need a bit of a steer in a different direction lol...yep bloody drugs....and yeh, always up for a coffee...

    Hi Quirky didn't go to the gym as I feel too sick...my meds have been reduced so that may be the reason...just feel sicker than normal.The psychs contract has ended so I thankfully do not have to c that one again...yes still artsying...just did a freehand bubble tree. I sorta did have a good weekend. Even though I was sick I was upstairs in bed taking in all the smells from the window and listening to the birds. It felt really good to rest. I'm very relieved the dosage of the meds has been reduced as well. The less of that stuff in me the better...

    MMx

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  4. awrinkle in time
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    20 August 2019 in reply to monkey_magic

    hello mm

    hope you had a good day ....

    mine was okay no gold medals...

    are you watching the block ?

    Have a lovely day tomorrow....

    XXOO

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  5. monkey_magic
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    21 August 2019 in reply to awrinkle in time

    Hi,

    I'm having a muccus, coughing filled day. So sick. And I will give myself a gold medal for getting through it. Have one too for being such the wonderful worker you are.

    Been on the couch watching tv erryday...and i wasnt watching the block.

    About to eat eggplant parmigiana oh yeah yum yum.

    Im guessing you're out and about working on this beautiful day.

    Xox

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    21 August 2019 in reply to monkey_magic

    Hello lovely Magic....

    Im sorry your feeling sick...I would also love to give you a medal 🏅 for getting through the day....Sounds like you are doing the right thing and resting your sick self...well done Magic..I’m proud of you...

    A lemon squeezed into a mug of boiling water..honey optional is good for clearing up your poor nose and chest and could help to ease your coughing a bit.....only if you want to....I really do hope you get well soon....

    I was pleased to hear your meds have been reduced..hopefully soon they will be stopped for you...You really should be so very proud of you for for going through all the crap they’ve done to you and still being the wonderful caring person you are...I know I am...

    Mmmm eggplant parmigiana sounds yummy...I like to slice them..then flour egg and bread crumb them...they have a unique taste don’t they.....

    Please continue to care for you the best you can.....

    love and warm caring cuddles dearest friend..🤗💜.

    Grandy....

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  7. awrinkle in time
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    21 August 2019 in reply to monkey_magic

    hello , got a swim in this afternoon ...very cold didn't stay in long ...

    hope you are feeling better ...

    just had a sleepy tea ...

    have a good day tomorrow ...

    nite nite xx

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  8. monkey_magic
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    27 August 2019 in reply to awrinkle in time

    Hi all;

    Still a bit sick but nowhere near as bad as I was.

    I was drinking tea with honey in it Grand & thanks for your suggestion. Ive had lemon today actually on fish. That's what my mum did she coated the eggplant in breadcrumbs. Thanks for the medal. You off course get one simply for getting through life the best way you know how.

    I miss the water a wrinkle. That's why I wanna move. Miss the sea.

    Sleapy tea sounds good. Wanted to sleep my whole cold off..would have loved some of that tea.

    I really dont have much to say which is why I've been quiet. Went out with the fam for mums bday. Ummm...stayed home watching lots of tv...started a new painting. This ones of flowers and a bird with lots of pink and purple which looks good.

    I haven't had any work for while, office has been quiet. Should be looking for work but im not.

    Mr work man was sending me love songs again.

    Im learning more and more about medications as i go.

    How are you lot?

    MMx

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  9. quirkywords
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    27 August 2019 in reply to monkey_magic

    Monkey_magic,

    Thanks for your post. You seem like things are going ok at the moment apart from the cold.

    I have been taking tea with honey and home grown lemons(not mine but a neighbours). When someone makes me a hot lemon drink it tastes better than when I make it alone.

    I am pleased you are learning about medications as you go.

    Quirky

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  10. awrinkle in time
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    27 August 2019 in reply to monkey_magic

    Hello MM

    Ive been a bit slow as well ...but all is good ... Ive been busy with work ...and stuff...

    missed the gym Monday ..got it tomorrow so that will be good ... but nothing else to report ...

    Yes the sleepy tea is good ... its a good time for you to rest while you have no work ...it might get busy soon :)

    Your lucky getting the love songs ...thats nice ...

    Sleepy tea is getting to me ...heavy eyes ...

    Have a great day tomorrow lovely ....Take it easy ...

    Luv Ya xoxo

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    28 August 2019 in reply to awrinkle in time

    Hey Magic and everyone ☺

    Great news hearing your meds have been reduced. I'm hopeful that in time your foot will improve when you're eventually off them. How is the foot?

    The picture sounds really pretty. It'd be nice doing flowers, there's so much variety colour and shape they're lovely.

    Oh how sweet him sending you love songs.

    With luck work will pick up again, enjoy your break

    Hope you conti ue picking up theres really nasty flu around knocking people for a 6.

    Have you been going to the gym.

    Nice your b.day time with your Mum ☺

    Go easy love.

    Bunny 🐇

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    28 August 2019 in reply to monkey_magic

    Hello lovely Magic 🐒...

    Im pleased that you tried the honey and lemon tea..I love lemon on fish, chips, schnitzels...salad..I’m a lemonholic at times....In summer..lemon juice in sparkling spring water is so yummy 😋....

    Can I ask you if it’s okay...what sleepy tea is?..is it chamomile?....or something else?...

    Thats okay to not look for work just yet..when you’re ready you will....I still haven’t bought me a painting yet..I looked at them and I think that I would mess it up, in the tiny areas to be painted..my hands shake a little with my anxiety....I am in awe of you being able to do them....maybe one day you could temporarily put one up as your avatar...

    I like to learn about things..when my mind is peaceful enough....especially nature medicine...I think that most medicines are made from natural things..I might be wrong...

    Its okay being quiet monkey..we mostly all do at times don’t know what to talk about....Sweety if your ever feeling lonely and need some company..popping in here and saying hello is a good place to start at....you’re friends here will probably find something that you and them/me can chat about...

    Take good care of you magic....

    love and hugs everyone..💖🤗.

    Grandy

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  13. monkey_magic
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    31 August 2019 in reply to Ggrand

    Hi everyone,

    Quirky- food/drinks always taste better when someone else makes them :-)

    A wrinkle - Grandy and I would like to know what's in the sleepy tea...i wouldn't mind buying some.

    Db or Bunny- Foots still same same and haven't been to the gym bcas of this cold. Still have a bit of it.

    Grandy-I love lemon too. Yes ill get a job when I'm ready you're so right. I think the paint by numbers does need a steady hand since the spaces r tiny.

    Saw my aunty and uncle yday. They are such nice ppl. It makes such a difference to your life when you're surrounded by good ppl...it feels really good too.

    My colds lingering but I'm nowhere near as bad as I was.

    Still have the muscle stiffness. Big pain in the butt that is...

    I stay home a lot these days. Looking forward to going out though. Really looking forward to it...

    Perhaps tomorrow.

    MMx

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  14. awrinkle in time
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    2 September 2019 in reply to monkey_magic

    Hi , the sleepy tea is chamomile tea .... A cup with 2 tea bags 20 min before bed ... works a treat ..

    : )

    xoxo

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    2 September 2019 in reply to awrinkle in time

    Hello Magic and Wrinkle...

    I hope your both feeling well..

    Thank you so much for letting us know...I used to use chamomile tea a lot and at time still do..but mainly through an anxiety attack...it’s calming...It really is good for sleeping...I’m pleased it help you....

    Magic..it truely is beautiful to be surrounded by good people...You to are a beautiful person and would give others please just by being with them....I’m so happy you have good caring people in your life...That’s worth more then anything else ever.....

    Its okay to stay home sweety...When you feel ready to go out..you will have a really great time with lots of wonderful memories...

    Please take good care of you and be very gentle with you....

    Kind thoughts...love and hugs..💖🤗..

    Grandy...

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  16. monkey_magic
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    3 September 2019 in reply to awrinkle in time

    Ahhh so that's what the sleepy tea is. I'll have to try some with my manuka honey. Thanks for letting us know.

    Id just like to thank you all for lifting me up as well. I often feel uplifted when I write here which is why Im probabaly still here.

    You are comforting Grandy! And yeh I'll go gentle- thx for the reminder.

    Good people are worth their weight in gold.

    I was just watching a show about inside a mental institution. Stirred up some stuff for me lol....much rather be out of that place- any day.

    I have lots of bad memories of when i was in. My brain was fuzzy while I was there and even now I'm just remembering bits and pieces.

    My life would have been much better had I not known/been in.

    Still feels like they have a hold of me....when I just want to break the chain.

    I did learn that I was capable though of dealing with certain situations.

    Even if my mental health isnt 100% i would still rather deal with it and heal in my own way without their intervention.

    Like my doc said- they can't prove anything.

    I went out to another cash draw with mum, and had dinner. I feel much better when im dolled up- like a whole new human.

    Almost finished my painting- almost.

    MMx

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  17. awrinkle in time
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    4 September 2019 in reply to monkey_magic

    Hello , how was your day ...hope it went well and all is good ...

    Did you try the sleepy tea ?

    was warm in Qld today ....had a swim in the beach water was a little chilly but nice ...relaxed the muscles ...

    Hope this find you well and happy ... Luv Ya xxx

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  18. monkey_magic
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    4 September 2019 in reply to awrinkle in time

    Hello,

    Lucky you getting a swim in the ocean. Yes, i did try the sleepy tea...was calming and i went to sleep straight after. Will have again :-)

    My day was pretty good.Chilled at a friends and had a couple drinks and talked.

    Finished my bird, flower painting. Very pretty.

    Its heating up alright!

    I had this vivid dream. My best friend from high school came to me and said you are 100% well. Think you are 100% well...it was liberating.

    Today was an alright day Mr Wrinkle. I have moments of happiness.

    Thanks for checking in with me.

    Luv ya back

    MMx

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  19. awrinkle in time
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    6 September 2019 in reply to monkey_magic

    Hi Ya , I recon there is something it that .....the 100% well thing ....and if it liberated you ...go with that ... : )

    Glad you have moments of happiness ... : )

    I love coming home from work and just doing my thing ....get organised for dinner ...do my little around the house jobs ...relax ....watch some Netflix haha ... that makes me happy ... having a nice walk in the fresh air is nice ... thats good you have finished your paintings ...I bet they look good ... good effort ...

    I better get some sleep .... Have a Good Day tomorrow ....Im drinking way too much coffee lately ....

    Night Monks xxx

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  20. monkey_magic
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    6 September 2019 in reply to awrinkle in time

    Hey everyone,

    I also think there was something in that dream.like a higher power giving me a msg. Dreaming has been so good for me. I jog in my dreams- something I no longer do bcas of med side effects. I feel my dreams r sometimes better than reality and I look forward to getting my next msg. Sometimes I sleep during the day and have the most comforting dream. I do things and big things happen in my dreams that dont happen in real life. It gives me some inspiration.

    Just finished making a frittata....it's baking.

    Thanks for the good effort comment. I posted 6 of my artworks together online and so far have received 107 likes...i like sitting back and getting the comments and likes.

    Its spring time!!!

    My brother and his girlfriend r overseas lucky ducks. They've worked hard to afford it though...and i get to sit back and look at the pics.

    MMx

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  21. monkey_magic
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    12 September 2019 in reply to awrinkle in time

    Hi all,

    I have one surviving grandparent who is going to be undergoing tests with the fear she could have cancer. She's 85. So,naturally i thought what if she dies. I felt both sadness and relief. Relief bcas she would no longer suffer. I feel strong enough to deal with her death but ill prob be a mess at her funeral. Funerals amplify everything I find with everyone crying and in mourning. And the happy pictures of her flashing through the projector. Heck i could cry at anyones funeral. Emotional strength hasn't always been my forte.

    Writing this down is a way of me preparing i suppose. It helps.

    Im painting sunflowers now. Taking over from my mum who has given up on her painting already.

    Saw a psychologist. Rehashed the past as he asked questions. Honestly im suprised it brought up feelings. After the sesh he said what I said was strong and brave. I found the session useful so I will continue. Doing it also so I can say at the next tribuneral Im seeing a psychologist. He is really good.

    Had nausea all day today. It's been making me angry and in my head im going through all the things I want to say to the psychiatrist. It would b best for me to keep my cool though. Im only seeing her bcas its manditory otherwise no way. She has just made things worse. I have a deep distrust of her and what she's practising with me and her words. Last time i said she needed to do her research. She's a staller...going over the same qtns, not listening properly, not changing anything for me, not caring...worst in the biz, well i cant say that bcas others have topped her.

    Im a red-nailed lady today. Been about 10 years since my nails were red.

    Im loving some of the shows on tv recently. Been watching a lot of it.....my new life....

    Well....

    See how I go....

    MMx

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    13 September 2019 in reply to monkey_magic

    Hello Lovely Magic...🤗,

    Im really sorry to hear about your nan....I hope that the tests go good for her....Nan’s are really special beautiful gentle people....I loved mine dearly....still do and still miss her a lot....

    Im pleased that you like your new psychological and he seems to understand you and he is right that you are a strong and brave person...That’s how I’ve always thought about you...

    Its been years since I painted my nails..I used to use red a lot..it stands out and looks great on beautiful nails....

    Maybe sweety...just go along with the Psychiatrist for now...and get all this over and done with as easy and as quickly as it can happen....Then you have you back again...I have been lucky with my Psychiatrists they are all very understanding...but had trouble with my psychologist by being judged and then she canceled all my appointment..I’m not trusting of psychologists any more....I’m pleased you have a good one....

    I started watching tv a few months ago after many years of not...There are some really good tv programs on....I like both the English and Australian.... The Chase and some of the half hour comedy shows....are funny...

    I hope your days are good lovely Magic..and you have some light in your days....

    Kind thoughts...love and hugs 💖🤗..

    Grandy......

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    13 September 2019 in reply to monkey_magic

    Hey Magic and everyone 👋☺

    Sorry hearing you have that worry about your dear Grandmother. She's a great age. Good on her.

    It's so good hearing you get so much pleasure and plenty of likes on fb with your art. Good on you and while you're doing that beasty can't have too much of a hold.

    I remember you not liking the psychiatrist, shame but agree with our gorgeous Grandy probs good to just go with her for now to get it over with but good news you have a good psychologist. That's a win hun.

    I watch a lot of TV love it and yes there are good shows on atm but they took Wentworth off 😢 hanky plz.

    Cool the dreams inspiring you. Might be your subconcious talking to you. How good hearing 100% wow that would've been exhilerating.

    I have some Gold flecked glittery nail polish on occasion I pop on one or two fingers or toes. Not often.

    Ok Monks keep on keeping on darl.

    Agree you are brave and strong.

    🐒🦄

    Love Bunny 🐇

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  24. monkey_magic
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    13 September 2019 in reply to demonblaster

    Hey you two shinning amigos Grandy & Bunny & all,

    I saw the psychiatrist today. Made a bit of a scene at the same time...it's my powerful self wanting/ needing to desperately win this for the sake of myself and others being run over by the system.

    She mentioned changing the meds meaning I have to get fortnightly injections. I just cant do that. Monthly is personally conflicting and devastating. I wrestle every month with it. Every fortnight...dont even want to think about it....

    The psychogist is great so far. Grandy I've gone through many...please dont give up...one might just change your life!

    Yeah my subconscious keeps sending me things during my sleep...it's useful and cool..love this vivid dream I had.

    Wow, gold nails...i used gold all the time until i emptied the tub..then it was fluorescent purple...now rrrreeeddd...for passion.

    Cant say I've watched Wentworth but ill pass the hanky but please don't cry...i watch the chase all the time lol...after the bold and the beautiful...and there's nothing better than a comedy...laughter being the best medicine and all.

    First day back at work for a while today...roaring headache and nausea but i still went- lucky me. Love money...need more, want more...but...it's hard in my situation to work fulltime with all these side effects. Things desperately need to change.

    My mums watching 50 shades of Grey again...so...it's on in the background. Work again tomorrow.

    MMx

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  25. awrinkle in time
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    14 September 2019 in reply to monkey_magic

    Hello Lovely Lady with red and gold nails haha ... Hey how was the fritter ? ....

    Sorry to hear about your Grandma .....I bet she loves seeing you .....

    Glad the physic is good and you get lots from him ....your so right in what you say about finding a good one ....you just have to click with the person .....doesnt always happen .....

    Have been busy with my work ... but all is good ...need to do house work very soon ....laundry is mounting up haha

    haven't been for a swim lately ....need to get back to that ....my sister is visiting for a week , she's from Melb and she loves to visit Qld ....will be good to see her .... Have a nice weekend ....you sound well and all this will be over soon and you will get your healthy body back ....stick to the plan beautiful ....Im going to get coffee : )

    Luv Ya xxx

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  26. monkey_magic
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    15 September 2019 in reply to awrinkle in time

    Heya a wrinkle in time and all,

    Have fun with your sis. Frittata was ok. I bet you've done the laundry already. I must go for a swim too- but, at the pools. It's great hearing things are good with you and that you're busy at work. I'll feel for you when it gets too hot being out there working hard while I'm in a cool office he, he.

    It's really good that things are on the up for you...

    Im just doing a bit of painting today and have played quizes on my ph. Laundrys done.

    Its was hot driving home from work yday...not looking forward to being in the summer heat too much...it gets too hot.

    Hows dating?

    I haven't been on a date in forever. Still talk to the work guy but have had zilch romance....

    Meanwhile...im rocking the red nails lol...

    Dont work too hard.

    MMx

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  27. awrinkle in time
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    15 September 2019 in reply to monkey_magic

    Hi , yep I know what you mean the heat can be a bit much up this way as well ... its going to be a hot summer ....

    we just had a heap of fires in Coolum Perigean Noosa ....young kids had something too do with it I think ....not good they are in big trouble ....

    Well dating is going good ....am seeing a lady and we get along very well ....we meet on Saturdays and have a day together ....I always take us a picnic lunch ....we go to all different places ...its real nice ....just going slow getting to know each other ...we communicate well... and there is defentely chemistry ... So hopefully it works out ...fingers and toes crossed ....

    Yep heaps of laundry being done ....my daughter is way behind ...so I'm doing a bit for her ....don't like to do that and she needs to do her own but she is real busy with work and uni so.... plus its so un-tidy....

    So my Sunday is a little work but just chilling out ....might find a movie I recon ...will have a walk when the sun goes down a bit .... get a few things ready for the new week ....

    Rockin the red nails hey ...toes as well ? ....

    The painting sound so relaxing that's a great thing to be able to do .....a real rest for the mind ....I recon you would be getting real good at it ....by the sound of all the likes you have been getting ....you're a real winner you know... ...something about the way you write that makes you so likeable ...even loveable ...hahah ....

    Have a great week my dear friend ....may all the stars align perfectly.... just for you.

    Luv Ya xx

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