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Topic: Struggling to go on

  1. Tess2
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    19 July 2018 in reply to Birdy77

    Thank you birdy,

    what a lovely post. That has really soothes me. I have spent all day cleaning this place. It just does not feel like my home at all and I don’t see how it will. I do try to be in the moment I am in , but life feels too much at the moment. I want to run away. I once had such a good and easy life, now it feels so hard.

    thank you for your kindness

    tess

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    20 July 2018 in reply to Tess2

    Dear Tess,

    Urgh, cleaning cleaning cleaning cleaning cleaning ... and then some cleaning. What a massive task it all is. When you get to the end of cleaning the old place you can't even breathe a sigh of relief because you have the new place ahead of you. I wish we could come over and help you, pop some happy music on and get it done in a jiffy.

    I can really relate to the feeling you are having that life feels too much and you want to run away. Sometimes i just want to curl up in my bed and watch a thousand episodes of something and shut the world out.

    Now that you have moved in, is there a way you can see your way clear to give yourself a couple of days off? Could you make, say, one room at least habitable and go get some easy meals and some DVDs and take a couple of days to just chill out? You deserve a rest, it's been months of stress. Can unpacking the container wait? At least until say Monday?

    Sending you positive vibes Tess.

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    23 July 2018 in reply to Tess2

    Dear Tess,

    I just wanted to drop by and leave a few house warming items here for you. Thought it may help to make the place seem more like home for you, and for you to not want to run away after all.

    I'm really sorry that life seems so hard right now. To have once had what you consider to be a good and easy life, must make it seem so much harder when things are no longer quite so easy. But that doesnt mean your life wont improve. It can, and I feel sure it will. As we have discussed previously, to move house is a very stressful thing to do, for anyone. And you have other stresses on top of that. You really need to give yourself some time.

    So ... for your house warming gifts:

    • I am installing a fish tank and some beautiful fish to inhabit it. Something for you to gaze upon when you need a calming influence. I always find fish to be restful and calming, so I hope you do too.
    • An indoor herb garden to put on your kitchen window sill where it will catch the morning winter sun. The aroma of the herbs will waft through your kitchen.
    • A new front doormat which has the imprint of a footprint in the sand. I hope you like the beach?
    • A set of windchimes which will play your favourite tunes as the breeze brushes gently past it.
    • Some scented candles to light and enjoy as you relax in a nice warm bath.

    I really hope things have improved for you since you last posted. I know its really hard, but it will get better.

    Giving you a reassuring hug. Hope you enjoy the gifts.

    Amanda

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    23 July 2018 in reply to Guest8901

    Dear Amanda,

    that is all beautiful. I love wind chimes, scented candles the doormat and the herb garden are great ideas. I like fish too but have had fish tanks, well my sons have, and we are not good fish carers. I may infact go get a candle. Or two to soothe me. There is still so much to do. And we have to finish unloading the container by Wednesday. Wow.

    i have been feeling very low and sad. I miss what was my home for years, but you know when I saw it all empty it was just rooms and not so meaningful. I have to make this place meaningful now

    I have been worried about you, you are in such a difficult place right now and I want you to come through and build a new life for yourself. Perhaps that is something we can talk about together.

    thank you

    tess

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    24 July 2018 in reply to Tess2
    I can’t cope any longer. My son was driving my car, was stopped by the police and his licence taken for too many demerits. They also have impounded my car for 28 days. This will cost me 900$ to get back and I will have to hire a car for the interim. This is money I can I’ll afford. I am too heart sick to cry or be angry at him. I just want a normal life. I don’t know what to do or how to cope with all the extra problems that seem to keep building up . I have no more resilience and little motivation to continue struggling with living. I feel too alone in it all. Too alone
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    24 July 2018 in reply to Tess2

    Oh Tess, I am so dreadfully sorry to hear this. Everything is building up isn't it? You have so much on your plate right now, and still not even settled into your new home.

    I didnt know they could take your car like that, under such circumstances. Can you speak to a legal aid person to see if something can be done about getting the car back earlier? They may have some advice on what options you have, if any.

    As for your son ... no use being angry, its done now. I can understand you feeling so heart sick. Its a shame you are unable to cry right now, because it may help to release some of the immense tension you would be carrying. I can relate to your feeling that all you want is a normal life.

    Tess, I cannot recall if you are currently seeing a psychologist or counsellor. If you are, could you arrange to see them in the near future? And if you're not, how about booking an appointment with your GP to talk things over? That aside, with you feeling so alone and struggling badly with lack of motivation and lacking resilience, do you think it would help to speak to someone over the phone? Give the Beyondblue support service a call on 1300 22 4636. Sometimes it helps just to speak to someone. I know, because I have done that before.

    Please dont isolate yourself Tess, as that would do you no good at all. Please reach out for help, both off line and here on-line.

    Sending love and care to you.

    Amanda

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    24 July 2018 in reply to Tess2
    Hi Tess2, 

    We are sorry to hear that you're struggling and feel like problems keep building up. Please know that you're not alone. We'd suggest you get in touch with one of the professional mental helath counsellors at our Support Service. We can be reached 24/7 on 1300 22 4636 or on email and Webchat (3pm-12am AEST) through our website: www.beyondblue.org.au/getsupport
     
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    24 July 2018 in reply to Guest8901

    Thank you Amanda.

    I don’t want to talk to counsellors. They say all the same stuff and can’t change the way things are. I might try legal aid though.

    Tess

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    25 July 2018 in reply to Tess2

    Dear Tess,

    I am so sorry everything feels so overwhelming, and with the latest hassles ...

    I'm wondering how you are feeling?

    I am hoping you have been able to just get through the feelings.

    Sometimes that's all we can do. Please know that you are never alone, we are here by your side and holding you in our thoughts.

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    2 August 2018 in reply to Tess2

    Hello Tess,

    I'm sorry I haven't been here for a while,

    Please Tess always hang on to hope, how are you doing and are things okay with you and your son, with the car and all. I'm sorry that has happened to you....

    Tess sweetheart, you've had it so hard for so long, try please just to take time out to ground yourself...i did this morning, I sat outside in the sun and just looked at the emptiness the drought has caused, listened to the birds, felt the wind on my skin as well as the sun..Please Tess, look after yourself...Your loved by your son, by me and many others here, please stay strong and come back if you feel to and we can chat about whatever you want to talk about...

    Kind thoughts,

    Grandy...

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    11 August 2018 in reply to Ggrand

    I am really struggling to start each new day and see no future for me. I would like to be more positive but it fails me at the moment

    tess

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    18 August 2018 in reply to Tess2

    Dear Tess,

    Its been a week since you last checked in, and at that stage you were feeling pretty low. I apologise for not dropping by earlier, but I've been a bit 'out of commission' myself this past week and a half. But I am here now to say hello and to enquire as to how you are doing now.

    I do understand that feeling where each day is a struggle, and we dont see a future ... least ways not a very bright one. But there is a future Tess, there is the promise of better things to come. We just have to ride out the bad times and expect that things definitely will get better.

    So ... have you completed the move yet? Does everything you brought over with you seem to 'fit' the new house? Are you still opening removalist boxes? Ha ha, in my experience that can take months. And if that is the case, there seems a good argument that what is contained in those boxes may well be superfluous to our needs. I could be a good way to cull any excess?

    I'm wondering if you have your car back yet? Did you have any success with Legal Aid? How is your son coping with everything now? Oh dear ... so many questions! Please only answer what you're comfortable in answering, and only when you're ready. I really just wanted to see how you are now, as you have been on my mind lately.

    Its a beautiful day here today, winters sun shining, birds chirping, bees buzzing. I think the weather is meant to turn cold and windy tomorrow so I have been trying to make the most of the gorgeous weather today. Had a nice relaxing cuppa out on our sunny deck this morning. It was really nice. Do you have a nice sunny spot in your new home, where you can do similar? Is it starting to feel like home to you now?

    Kindest regards to you Tess, and a big warm hug .. because I care.

    Amanda

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    2 November 2018 in reply to Guest8901

    Hi Mandy, and GRandy,

    i just did a post that was nowhere near 2500 characters but it would not post and told me it was too long, but also said i had 403 characters left, this has really ticked me off so i will try again

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    2 November 2018 in reply to Guest8901

    hello lovely Mandy,

    i have not been here for several months but have been following you and Grandy and several other people.Life has been a real struggle I have been here 3 and a 1/2 months now and it is still not home. when I think about being home it is not here. i have had times of deep , deep depression and and some very high anxiety. I have changed AD meds. i see other people saying they don't think that they do much and i get that, but i just know that when i don't take them i feel a lot worse. But i am not able to put my finger on what it is they change.

    I have a very supportive Gp who i have been going to for a very long time. she trusts me and what i say i need so we work well together. I am grateful for that.

    I am struggling to adjust to the change in lifestyle. I have always had a comfortable life. As a child i grew up in a working class family, but my parents worked hard for my brother and i to have a really good education and everything we needed. my mother was very highly educated, but ,my father was a tradesman. I suffered no abuse like so many of you report. I had a rather suss uncle and a grandfather who liked me a bit too much, but nothing disturbing or damaging. i was a loved child.

    As an adult i built a career, i didn't mean to it just happened and I was lucky. I did well and i married well. since I lost my job nearly 3 years ago my life has changed so my. adjusting to this is overwhelming. I just have the age pension for an income. In comparison to what some people deal with this sounds petty. But i have also had a lot of loss in my life.

    I cant shake the sadness for all that i have lost and the feeling that the future is not worth living for.

    Tess

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    2 November 2018 in reply to Tess2

    Hello lovely Tess.

    I am pleased to see you back on the forums, but at the same time I’m deeply saddened that your struggling so hard...

    Tess, I have been sitting here, writing to you then deleting it, several times now for over an hour, my words are not making sense when I try to join them in a sentence. ..but I would like to just sit here quietly with you tonight, if that’s okay....I’m sorry I’m not much help atm..but please know that I do care about you dear Tess...

    Kind thoughts..love and hugs..💜🤗..

    Grandy...

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    9 November 2018 in reply to Ggrand

    Thanks Grandy,

    your kind words mean a lot to me. I am feeling low tonight. I am sitting on my bed my doses are on theirs, I need to go and clean the kitchen as I hate getting up to it in the morning. My little granddaughter is here with my son, and they are playing together. Melancholy is how I am feeling. And missing lots of people who are long gone. I am struggling to express how I feel, so I will say goodnight. Take care.

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    9 November 2018 in reply to Tess2

    Hi Tess,

    Hey I am very sorry to hear that you are struggling with melancholy tonight. Its not a nice feeling at all. You sound like me in that I am unable to leave things until morning, when I know they need doing. Like cleaning up the kitchen. I've learned that I should just do it and get it over and done with, and then my mind can relax a little.

    Thats lovely that you have a visit from your son and your granddaughter. Do they visit often? I have forgotten if they live nearby or a long way away.

    Just getting back to you on your post here a week ago. It had been a while since you'd posted, but thats quite okay. This place is like that sometimes, people come and go according to needs at the time.

    Its disappointing to hear that after almost 4 months, your new house still does not feel like home. Any adjustment is hard Tess, and you have had a number of pretty major adjustments to make.

    I'm glad you find benefit in taking your ADs, even if unable to quite identify what specifically those benefits are. Knowing you feel a lot worse if you dont take them, is a very strong incentive to continue to take them. So while you are struggling with ongoing deep depression and persistent anxiety, I would strongly urge you to continue with them. I'm sure your very supportive GP would be of the same opinion. For now at least. Perhaps later, when you're more stable, this can be reviewed if your desire is to wean off the ADs eventually.

    I'm really happy for you that you had a good and happy childhood, one filled with love and adequate means. A good education, a solid career, married well. I guess we tend to miss more deeply what we have always had. But the fact is, nobody is immune to anxiety and/or depression. It does not discriminate. You have had much sadness, some rotten luck ... and its resulted in a difficult transition to a new and different lifestyle. Not one you would have chosen or expected. Of course you are struggling with this ... most would. It isnt easy. Living on a single aged pension is not easy. People manage, but you cannot live comfortably on it. Any out of the ordinary or unexpected expense need to be weighed up, budgeted for, possibly something else forfeited. Its a different life for you now.

    I'm sorry Tess, that this transition is so difficult. You have had major changes in your life, all coming in quick succession. Hang in there ... it will get easier, and you will learn to appreciate this new life you now lead.

    Hugs,

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    10 November 2018 in reply to Tess2

    Hello Lovely atess,

    Awe sweety, I’m so sorry your feeling so low...

    I know what you mean by cleaning the kitchen...I think that’s one of the most important things to clean before bed..Nothing like getting up in the morning to a nice clean sink...I have said that in my Daily routine thread...There are many times well,lots of times, when I’m low, that my washing up stays unwashed for a few days some times even a week, because I just don’t care and can’t make me care when I’m down......I was a very house proud person before this sickness found me and took over my life.. Tess sweetheart, it is okay if you don’t feel like washing up sometimes it really is..

    How beautiful your little granddaughter is there with you...and you can enjoy watching/playing with her, that is absolutely gold....Beautiful memories can be made with you all...

    Meloncholy, yes not a good feeling, but Tess, sweetheart your a very strong person, you have achieved so much...I know living on aged pension benefits from centre link is hard,,I am on Newstart,and it’s very low..and very hard to go fortnight to fortnight...This can take us down so quickly...opposite of my life before we moved out here.

    Tess, Sweetheart, I have made a very close friend with “Betty” not her real name, here now for the past three years...She is a lovely lady, and we try to meet once a week for pot of tea. She has her great grandchildren visit once a month, they call me Aunty, They have adopted me as their Aunty, Betty’s whole family has made me feel apart of their family.....Im thinking, that if you could meet even one person and become close to them, then maybe I’m thinking that you might start to feel more comfortable living their. Betty has certainly made me more comfortable living here....I love her like a sister would love a sister...

    I’m pleased you have a good Psych, and the meds work for you...Tess changing over to different meds will I think lower your mood, it did for me, but please continue to take them and let your mental health team know of your meloncholy...next time you visit them....

    Im sitting with you beautiful friend, holding on to you....if you feel the need to talk I’m around most days...I am feeling very lonely today, some days are worse then others, so I’ll have to try some distraction or I’ll tumble down..My lawn needs a mow, maybe that will work..

    Take care of you lovely lady, your important and matter to me a lot, be gentle on you...

    Love and hugs 💜💜🤗🤗 Dear Tess...

    Grandy..

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    12 November 2018 in reply to Ggrand

    Hi, Mandy and Grandy,

    thanks for not forgetting me and replying. While the last three years have been terrible for me, and especially this year. And these events have led to my anxiety. I have had depression since my early twenties. It first started when I was living in London and studying midwifery. It culminated with a suicide attempt, well two actually, but one that landed me in intensive care in the hospital where I was studying. I was fortunate to have a very good friend from whom I got lots of support. My tutors were also wonderful. But the psychiatrist who spoke to me in the ICU was not very pleasant. I remember it well once I was able he took me into a room , I was only in a hospital gown, I was 22, he must have been in his forties and well suited up. He proceeded to tell me how I had wasted the time of staff who should be caring for really sick people not girls like me. He said he could have me certified if he wanted to but agreed to discharge me to the care of my friend and support from a tutor. It was a rally hard time in my life and the depression lasted , I think , until I met my future husband some 6 or so years later. I am not by nature a sad person. I have had bouts of serious depression since then. And they seem to last at varying intensity for 3 to 5 years. My experience of psychiatrists since then has been quite different. I had a wonderful one for many years in my forties. He was so supportive, and I remember him saying “ Ann for a seriously depressed person , you have the best sense of humour including laughing at your depression.” I have quite a black sense of humour and being a nurse that seems to be part of the territory. Each time I sink into a major depression I think that it gets worse, but that may be time and distance from the other experiences. They were certainly triggered by much more traumatic events.

    Coming to these forums helps me to see that depression and anxiety are no respecters of a persons educational background, wealth or lack of, relationships, career, or any other aspect af a persons character or place in the world.

    the darkness that is my depression is overwhelming at times. And the anxiety on top of it I think is too much. But each day I wake up. I am trying to find the positives in the world and focus less on myself.

    Tess

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    Hi Dear Tess,

    I'd like to thank you for telling us more of your story, for trusting us with some more of your history. You have certainly been through some very tough times, and little wonder you continue to deal with depression and anxiety now.

    It sounds like you've been through a mix of good and bad when it comes to MH professionals during that time. The good experiences gives us confidence that there is good quality caring help and support out there. But often its elusive and we need to keep looking for a best fit for us as individuals.

    You explain that your depression is overwhelming at times and that the anxiety on top of it becomes too much. For me, its the other way around. I always have the anxiety, in varying degrees ranging from moderate to extreme. But its when the depression hits as well, that I find it so hard to cope on a daily basis. At least for me, the depression passes in time. Its usually event based (family drama's and illness, personal pain levels, etc) anyway, so when things settle down a little, then so too does the depression and the thoughts that go with it.

    Good on you for looking for the positives which can still be found in the world. I agree that it does tend to reduce the focus on our own troubles. There are a number of threads in the Staying Well forums here which you might like to contribute to. They are related to focussing on the positives of life, things to be thankful for, etc. Nice threads to read and also something you might enjoy posting to as well. There is also a thread in the Staying Well section called "Laughter - the Best Medicine?". You mentioned you have a good sense of humour, and laughter is so very important to our personal wellbeing. I would love to read something from you on that thread, if you'd like to. I too can have a somewhat 'black' sense of humour at times, very definitely self-deprecating. The thread goes into all that sort of thing, which I find quite interesting. Anyway, if you're interested, take a look.

    Thinking of you dear Tess.

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    23 November 2018 in reply to Guest8901

    Thank you Amanda, I really appreciate you and Grandy responding to me. What I don’t get about these forums is what do you have to say to get responses from others? I really try to give support to others , but aside from you two lovely ladies no one responds. I thinks there are cliques here and I don’t understand why

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    23 November 2018 in reply to Tess2

    Hello Tess,

    Sorry you're not feeling great about the forums at the moment.

    I have felt that way at times as well, and know others have too.

    It can help to keep in mind that every one of us here is dealing with mental health issues in one form or another and we are all doing the best we can at any given time.

    I apologise to you that I've not yet acknowledged your post to me elsewhere about A.A. Milne ... I know it's been ages, and I am building up to returning to that thread . I am sorry if you felt ignored.

    I've replied to you here on your thread in the past , and you've not replied to me at times. I have tried not to take it personally. I understand that sometimes life just gets the better of us.

    A mental health forum can be a tricky place to be.

    But i'm glad you're here, and I hope you can stick it out to feel connected.

    Be well Tess.

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    23 November 2018 in reply to Tess2

    Hi Tess. I appreciate you too ... so thank you.

    I'm sorry that I'm unable to respond to your question about the forums - lack of response, not receiving support from others and your suspicion of possible cliques. Hopefully BB managers can help you with that though.

    I know you give support to others, as I have been one of the recipients of your lovely caring and thoughtful posts. I've noticed quite a few posts from you early this morning. I sense you're struggling right now, and that perhaps posting here and offering support to others helps you somewhat. It often helps me.

    I do hope you dont become discouraged by a perceived lack of response from other members. It is not a reflection on you or your posts, as I have always found them to be well thought out, intelligent and helpful. I suspect its more a matter of that being "the norm" with any MH forum. Sometimes members are simply not up to posting or responding to posts. Everyone uses the forums differently. The majority of new posters dont hang around for too long. Some new members are probably satisfied with the response they have received, their question has been answered to their satisfaction, and they simply dont return.

    We 'old timers' who hang about for a while and reach 100+ posts on our threads, end up in the Long Term Support (LTS) section where we lose visibility. You are probably aware that LTS threads are no longer visible in the New Threads listing? So unless someone browses or searches specifically through the LTS section, no new people to that thread will ever even see us.

    But please dont let that stop you continuing to give and seek support Tess. We all get non-responses at times, and it can be very disheartening. Just remember that it happens to all of us, but that its not any reflection on you or me. When you do get those special responses occasionally it makes it all worthwhile. And that definitely happens too.

    Would you like to tell me/us how things are going for you at present? You didnt say much earlier. I would welcome hearing back from you when you're ready.

    Amanda 🌺🤗💕

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    23 November 2018 in reply to Tess2

    Hello Tess2,

    You posted on mine yesterday. Thank you so very much. You made my day.

    I'm the same as you in that if it wasn't for Amanda and Grandy posting on mine, I'd be so lost. I too often wonder what am I doing wrong here..?. Can I offer my hand in friendship to you Tess2?

    I am moving house this weekend so I will catch up on your thread when I can. I look forward to getting to know you Tess2...if that's ok that is.

    Take good care.

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    24 November 2018 in reply to Tess2

    Hello beautiful ladies..

    Im sorry Tess I have been a little long in visiting you..I read your post a couple of days ago and to be honest with you. I really don’t know why that is happening to you..and you as well Lee...You both give such heartfelt beautiful support to me, and I’ve seen you giving that beautiful support to others as well....I’m not sure why..but as Amanda has said please don’t stop giving out your care and support to others that are in need of your wonderful support....You really are helping others here..

    I’m sorry you felt so low through your younger years that you felt no other way out..But I’m so happy that you failed in doing that..

    Since that attempt you have become a nurse...That takes a huge amount of intelligence, patient and love..to become a nurse...you have one of the hardest jobs that their is...I could imagine that you are a very compassionate and care person it shows up in your posts...Thank you very much for being here for me when you’re able to..

    ..I hope with your new home and suburb, that you have nice neighbors and the people in your neighbourhood are friendly with you....

    How are you feeling today Tess?....I really hope you are doing good, please when you feel up to it, I would love to know...how you’re feeling...

    It’s so very cold here today..a bit like winter has decided itcwants more time before it sleeps until summer is over...

    Love and hugs dear Tess..

    Grandy..

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  26. Tess2
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    24 November 2018 in reply to Birdy77

    Thank you Birdy,

    i have taken on board what you have said and you are quite right. I didn’t expect a reply to the AA Milne comment, it was just an observation. I will stick around, as I do get support here and feel a connection to others. Seeing how others are dealing with their situations and feelings is helpful. Thank you

    tess

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  27. Tess2
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    24 November 2018 in reply to Lee lee 73

    Thank you Lee,

    ugh, moving. I did it four months ago and I am still not fully sorted and settled. I hope you will be happy in your new place.

    your hand in friendship is welcome and I look forward to getting to know you when you are settled and have more time

    tess

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  28. Guest8901
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    26 November 2018 in reply to Tess2

    Hi Tess, I was very happy to read your response to Birdy that you plan to stick around, and that you do feel a connection to other members here. You didnt respond to my post to you here on Friday .. I really hope I did not say anything to offend you? If I ever do, please do not be backward in letting me know. Okay?

    I have also noticed that you posted to quite a few other threads over the weekend ... some really lovely posts. So nice to see you getting around, and good on you for reaching out to others. Please know that it is appreciated by other members and BB management. Peer support and empathy is what makes these forums what they are, and you are a big part of that. I'm really happy to hear you say that you're finding the experiences of others here helpful in your own situation. As I know others are the same, by learning from you.

    You still have not said much about whats happening with you currently. Any time you feel ready to talk about things, please know you can do so here, and be reassured that you will receive a sympathetic and understanding ear. And some helpful feedback in return.

    Thank you for your reply on my thread yesterday. I cannot always do as people suggest, but I assure you that I do take all advice on board and appreciate that its given with my interest and safety in mind. 🌹🤗

    I hope your upcoming week is a good one Tess. I will be thinking of you.

    Amanda 💕

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  29. Tess2
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    26 November 2018 in reply to Ggrand

    Thank you for your lovely reply.

    i am not feeling well today, a few posts ago I said that the ADs helped, but I had started getting lots of awful side effects and feeling very physically unwell with them. I stopped and now am much worse I am getting terrible brain zaps and feel like I am getting the flu. I know you are supposed to taper off and will go to my gp this week for help. I feel shocking.

    i still really miss my home and the area I lived in for so long. The neighbours are nice here, but I don’t feel that I belong.

    I am feeling very sad today.

    tess

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  30. Tess2
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    26 November 2018 in reply to Guest8901

    Oh Mandy,

    I understand that psychological and emotional abuse are much worse than physical, usually. I do accept that you are where you need to be. Your support to me means a lot.

    I actually feel terrible at the moment and believe a lot is medication related . I just posted about that. It is really getting me down and making me inactive.

    tess

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