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Topic: Surviving: Being in a better place

  1. Ggrand
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    30 October 2020 in reply to demonblaster

    Hello Beautiful Deebi👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩..

    How are you feeling today my bbff...

    Did you find the tiny the tiny bunny rabbit 🐇..I hid under your cushion on your recliner...It’s a warm hot pack 🐇..I hope it kept your back nice and warm...

    You will get there Deebi..I think the longer we have mania..the longer we need to sleep to recover...I hope your recovering okay lovely lady...

    It hailed here today..so tiny the hail..I went out to pick a few up to give our fur babies..but when I looked at the hail..a tiny face was looking at me..Awe poor hail stones they looked so sad..so I put them all in a cup then into the freezer..I checked them about half hour later..and they all grew into one big hail stone...oops...I decided to get my ice blended out so I could so I could make the big one into little ones again...another oops.. they all turned into frost..oh no..umm so I picked up little bits of frost so I could make tiny frosty ice hail stones again.. 😱 oh no...The frost melted before I could form them back into hail stones....soooo then I had to warm my hands up because they were cold...poor hail stones all melted..took a sliding ride down through my kitchen drain pipes and out the other end and now they are mixed with all the puddles in my back yard...ready to be taken back up into the sky, in the new form of humidity....and then do it all over again....

    Meant to ask you if your watch the adorable little children cooking on master chef junior....Oh my goodness they are so good..and their attitude towards each other is so beaand caring...They are always laughing and smiling and are happy for each other..

    How was your day today bbff....

    Deep love always for you and Mr. Deebi..💜🤗👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩🌹🦋🕊🌱..Thinking of you Dear Deebi..

    👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩Grandy..

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    30 October 2020 in reply to Ggrand

    Hey there bbff 👩‍❤️‍👩 so good to see you. Always is. Thank you for popping in gorgeous 🤗

    I'm good thanks hun but wow as per sleeping heaps. I'm able to arvo sleep and a couple extra hrs in bed in the morning now which is good. Miss bed.

    Was so scared my back was going to hurt again but touchwood unlike the other day that jolted my whole bod so far today ok & nice to be with Mr sweety 😍 I miss him even tho he's just in the other room. I'll do recliner again with that gorgeous little bunny 🐇 ohh you're so cute Grandy thank you sweetyheart 😀 It worked a treat and was so soft and furry.

    What a cute story about your hail.
    It would have been proud to be big and solid then slither down the pipe. You're so gorgeous.
    Oh oh I'll have to find a spare 3 seconds to knit you a pair of water proof woollen gloves 😅

    It's been nice having a bit of extra cool hasn't it. Much prefer it than hot yukko.

    Hun when I was sleeping heaps before I think it kept BP away which was nifty. Seemed like a holiday not having it so often. Was a good productive one but still slowly working through the spare room from rearranging cause of wardrobes they're nice. We've got most of our clothes in but heaps of stuff in the room. Had it finally clear 😆 All good getting there just slowly that's the way isn't it.

    It's so good getting out of the chair after fighting 🤼‍♀️ my way out (usual story, surprised how comfy it is to sleep in) of the chair and no back grief. Outta bed still wary and v.careful.

    Not been doing much mostly looking after the back. Very happy and content with Mr beautiful 😍 we do at times go to lunch with friends or visit others which is good.

    Had our blat (drive) with mhw which is always good.

    I really hope you're doing ok my lovely friend. You really are doing so well hun. You're amazing!

    Thanks for your beautiful friendship sweetyheart.
    Love you very much. Cherish our time gorgeous 🤗

    👩‍❤️‍👩💜😍🕊🐇🗯👀🤝

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    31 October 2020 in reply to demonblaster

    Bbff 👩‍❤️‍👩 sorry hun forgot to answer about the junior Masterchefs no darlin but I've seen a heap of ads about them. Wow they're really good. Sounds lovely how you said they are towards eachother.

    Hope you're doing well beautiful. You spoke well elsewhere 🤗

    Always love you dear friend spirit soul sister eternally.

    Swod Grandy 😢

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    31 October 2020 in reply to demonblaster

    Good night dear bbff...

    thinking of you..

    👀🤝☁️💜🌹🕊🐇🦋🐛🕷🐜👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩👭

    👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩Grandy...bbl..

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    1 November 2020 in reply to demonblaster

    Hello Beautiful Deebi 👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩..

    You may be right with the extra sleeping keeping BP away for a longer period of time..but I’m not sure, if the next time it will be harder to manage?...

    I haven’t had that many bp episodes, this year..they seem to be more often for me when I’m really stressing out about something..

    It must be hard missing Mr Deebi through the nights..I’m wondering if your love could move your recliner into the bedroom of a night so it doesn’t feel so lonely for you...then again it might be heavy..I have never had a recliner so not sure on the weight of them...maybe continue using the recliner if it’s helping your back...

    Slow and steady gets things done in the end..doesn’t matter how much time it takes to do your spare room..one day it will be finished and that one day is good enough honey...

    Thats okay, about master chef junior...no need to be sorry..I just like the honesty and the happy attitude of the children...it’s refreshing..if you know what I mean...

    I had a few candles that burnt down to little ones, so I collected them all..melted them and made a new candle..ooop big time..I didn’t have a wick, so now I have a wickless candle😂...I will re melt it another day when I find somewhere to buy some wicks..silly me 😂..

    I like that you and your love go to lunch sometimes with friends that’s so good...I’m happy for you..you deserve to have a beautiful person walking alongside with you...Knowing your not alone anymore always warms my heart...

    I hope this week coming is a good week for you both...and you enjoy your days the best you can...

    Deep love my precious bbff...yadimh and my 💭 ...💜🐻🤗👭🤝👀..

    👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩Grandy...pubaok..

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    3 November 2020 in reply to Ggrand

    Heya bbff 👩‍❤️‍👩 and everyone ☺

    There's always a light or an aura or something when you visit beautiful friend 😊 Thank you for your care and time gorgeous. I hope you're managing well my sweety love. You make me so proud dear friend ☺

    I've been doing the nights still in the recliner it's a lot easier on my back but not ideal then I have some sleep in the rest of the morning in bed and nanny naps love em and that Mr Beautiful comes with me too tho he'd be ok without sleeps so would I but they're so good.

    Good thoughts about the recliner in the room but no room esp now the wardrobes are there, they're really lovely.

    Mri Friday we have to travel a bit with the transport, at least not as far as the big hospital.

    The last BP was very good as in virtually no depression. Had a couple of mood shifts but pulled out. Little as in very few scenarios or down memories. Oh was good for a change Grandy wow. Still a lot of work but so much easier. I can't ever trust IT but wow would be amazing to have breaks like that. Memories of the deep hell don't disolve easily do they but hoping it's getting more controllable.

    I'm so glad you're enjoying Junior Masterchef. Yes nice seeing uplifting stuff isn't it.

    Love what you did with the candles. Maybe you could kinda drill a hole for a wick then the heat would melt it to bind it all.
    I like the idea of making candles too. Good on you.

    Yes it's good going to lunch. I haven't for a while but have and will more.
    Same with church I go on occasion but should more. Been a bit slacko.

    Unsure what I've done but my other foot is ouch sore on the R) side yikes. Hope it sorts itself soon. How's your health hun?

    You're really beautiful Grandy thank you. He's such an easy lovable darling. We're going great guns. It's so easy. Sweet love he is 😍

    Deep love to you too bbff. Always have you in my thoughts. I look at a star and wonder if you've seen it. Wonder how you are and what you're doing.
    You're an amazing loving friend 🤗😚🤗😊

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    4 November 2020 in reply to demonblaster

    Bbff and everyone hi ☺

    Wanted to tell you Grandy and lovely people just had some awful news about dear mil.

    She's in hospital again the love and very sadly she has lung cancer.

    Bugger!

    Love you Grandy swod 👭🤗💜👩‍❤️‍👩🕊

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    5 November 2020 in reply to demonblaster

    Dear Deebi,

    Oh lass that is sad news. Sending you the gentlest of bear hugs.

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    5 November 2020 in reply to demonblaster

    Hello Beautiful Deebi 👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩..

    Im really so very deeply sorry Deebi...

    Always here if you need to talk honey...

    Sending you a gentle warm hug dear bbff...

    👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩Grandy.....xoxo..

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    5 November 2020 in reply to Ggrand

    Hi beautiful Paws 🐾 and Grandy 👩‍❤️‍👩

    Thank you both so much.

    Someone being a good age makes it still very sad. You've known and love/d them longer.

    She was back in hospital for other reasons poor love. Back home today.

    Thanks Grandy really appreciate that bbff 🤗

    Love always sweetyheart yAdimh pubAok lysvm 👩‍❤️‍👩💜👭🗯💗

    Paws you're a real sweety too. Much care love and appreciation 🤗 Thanks for the beautiful hugs loves 😊

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    5 November 2020 in reply to demonblaster

    Hey Deebi👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩......🤗..

    It doesn’t matter what the age of our loved one are...It still will hurt so much...loosing them any age...is so very sad..🤗..

    Here for you honey..with my care and love for you...

    Please dearest bbff..pubaok...yadimh..sitting with you and holding your hand...tightly..🤝👀..

    love, hugs and care my bbff..

    Grandy👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩...

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    6 November 2020 in reply to demonblaster

    Hey beautiful Deebi👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩..

    Sending you some love and hugs..💜🤗..

    Thinking of you bbff......your lovely mil...and Mr. Deebi..

    Grandy...🕊🌹🌱🦋💜

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    6 November 2020 in reply to Ggrand

    Hey beautiful bbff 👩‍❤️‍👩 and all 😊

    You're such a lovely caring soul aren't you 🤗

    Thanks Grandy I always really appreciate you so much. True it doesn't matter what age does it. Feel so sorry for the darling. Haven't spoken to her yet giving her some time to recoop from hospital and digest it all.

    Had MRI today and we not long up from a sleep. Long trip. Phew no probs in the machine. They give you some glasses and they show pictures of houses trees a few scattered clouds people its neat. Good distraction.

    I've in the mornings and nanny nap been in bed otherwise recliner till its completely normal hoping again. So cute Mr Deebi and I are so pleased to see eachother ..big hugs it's gorgeous. He's precious.

    Precious like you beautiful how are you going? I'm ok hun just thinking a lot as to be expected. Please dont hold back at yours you dear dear precious friend 😚

    Ok gorgeous going to have a late tea sandwich soon watch neighbours and other recorded stuff.

    Truly always thinking off you. So much love besty. Thank you for being such an Angel 🤗 you really do mean the world. Thank you everyone and here ☺

    👩‍❤️‍👩💜😍🤝👭🗯😚🕊

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    7 November 2020 in reply to demonblaster

    Hey beautiful Deebi👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩..

    I am pleased you had you mri..sounds peaceful those glasses you wore...That’s a very good idea... I wonder if they have cartoons for children....I would want a cartoon to watch😂..Very good luck with the results..I hope your Dr. gets them quickly...and the right treatment is started immediately for you..so the pain starts easing for you..

    You’re mil is a dear soul...and hurts to know that she is not at all well...Honey are you going to visit her for a few days...maybe before that you might be able to finish the beautiful card your doing for her....I’m sure your visit will be so lovely for her...and you..

    Love hugs..but it’s something I haven’t had in r/l now for going onto a year...I miss them..they give our soul a beautiful warmth like nothing else can....Your both precious and beautiful people....

    Im doing okay, honey so please don’t worry about me..I’ll post on mine soon...today or tomorrow....

    Enjoy your day precious bbff....and please remember that if you need to talk that your loving sister is always walking right beside you in spirit..and holding on to you hand..

    Thinking of you dearest bbff....Much love and care from me..always each day..and plenty of hugs as well..💜🦋🤗🤗🤗🤗..

    👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩Grandy..

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    10 November 2020 in reply to Ggrand
    Hey lovely bbff 👩‍❤️‍👩 and other good people hi 😊

    Dear Grandy hi sweetyheart 🤗 Always your support means so much. Thank you dear friend 💜

    The glasses were great and like blotches appear after it goes from colour to Black and White like a sketch then each blotch turns into the natural colour again. Great idea.
    ☺ cartoons would be cool aye.

    Yip glad to have that out the way. No idea when they'll contact me.

    I did a night in bed yikes but back had a few complaints since here and there. It's not as painful but still is quite strong but luckily quick. After getting out of bed I have to go to the chair for it to move into place 😨 not so joyful.

    I heard dear Mils cancer is smallish atm which hopefully will be easier to work on.
    Trouble her hearts weaker and age is a big.
    Yes want us to go and stay just want her to have time to recoop first and see what they're going to do.
    The dear love 💗 and you hurting knowing she's unwell you're so beautiful Grandy 🤗

    Hugs are beautiful aren't they. They do nourish the soul and warm it very true.
    Thank you for saying we're both precious and beautiful. You are too dear love 😚

    I'm so glad hearing you're doing ok. I hope you are hun. I'm blown away how you're going... honey always love that 😊

    Thank you so much for being such an amazing loving friend gorgeous it means so much.

    Always thoughts honeyheart hugs and deep lasting love dear friend.
    Holding your hand tightly too beautiful always 🤗

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    13 November 2020 in reply to demonblaster

    Hello beautiful Deebi👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩..

    I hope you don’t mind but I just feel like sitting with you and chatting...

    I hope so much that your mil will be okay and respond to any treatment she is given...I’m sorry about her heart not being the best...it’s very sad dear bbff..I wish I was their to give her my love and a soft gentle hug..I feel I know her through your words..and have a lot of care for her...

    Have you heard the results from your mri yet?...Awe I’m sorry that your night in bed caused you some big pain.... Its just so not fair that your in so much pain with your back...Gee they can spend millions of dollars taking scenic walks on the moon..but cannot find out how to stop back pain..or cure cancer..which effects heaps of people..I wish the governments would prioritise there money spending...and put more of it into both mental and physical pain....

    How are you honey...both physical and mentally...I really want and need to know...

    Wow..we have had thunderstorms for 24 hours..it’s been unbelievable..and after all the lightning shows and thunder it’s going to be in the high 30s tomorrow..Isn’t nature very unpredictable and awesome...Not sure what your weather is like..but just wanted to gently remind you to take a bottle of water with you if you go out for walks...

    I gave Ebony a haircut yesterday for something to keep me busy....and it will help to keep her cool....I will try and do a Kya tomorrow...then give them a bubble bath to make them smell as sweet as they look...

    Most of your gift 🎁 is finished..It will be done before Christmas so I can give it to Santa Clause...to deliver it to your place...on Christmas Day...

    I really hope your doing okay dearest bbff...I like laying on my lounge and talk typing to you..it makes me feel less alone....and helps me to find some peace while I’m chatting to you....

    Good night dear bbff...I hope you sleep deep and it’s refreshing for you...Much love beautiful friend..💜🦋..and a giant but gentle bear hug..🐻🤗..always in my 💭 with care..

    👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩Grandy..

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    14 November 2020 in reply to Ggrand
    Dear Grandy 👩‍❤️‍👩 hi all ☺

    What a lovely visit sweetyheart thank you for dropping by 🤗 So good seeing you

    Thanks so much I'm a little relieved it sounds not too big but then again it's in her lung/s (mil)
    Haven't spoken much I've been saying which I do understand it's ok if we don't talk long but still it's hard these changes but shes recooping from hospital being crook the poor love. I get that.
    I'll pass on your beautiful support you're so lovely Grandz.

    MRI phone calls on Weds. I'll let you know. Thank you for being so caring dear friend.

    I'm lucky now the back pains mostly gone except when its complaining then boyo 🤤. Still sleeping in the chair then in the morning the birdies tell me to choof to bed.

    Still sleeping lots. Mr 😍 gets up earlier than me I guess most of Australia does too then we nanny nap later.

    My other foot on the side's still hurting. Pos one of the nights I slept weird with my foot at a funny angle dunno. It's a nuisance.

    Mentally just well I do houseworky things but not all the time but it's ok unless my backs hurting. Sweetylove helps me.
    I'm so happy with the darling just no motivation until mania then I want to get up and do things.
    Same with my late love always happy with them but still sleep heaps.

    Today maybe pre BP anxiety that feeling of needing to break away out of your chest. I kinda dealt it's bloody awful.

    Realised I've coccooned pretty much again lately not out of depression just happy with Mr love TV occasional shopping wkly blats with mhw etc. Knocking back outs. Just not really wanting to or broke often so dont go places. Mr shouts me at times and me too but I dont want that all the time it's not fair on the beautiful.

    So mentally good but not kinda I guess but so happy and content with Mr lovely. He's a treasure.

    Geez the weather sounds brutal hun.
    Usually here it's lovely.
    Blaghh the heats returning again icko.

    Ohh the furs will both look adorable. I think about and constantly cuddle ours here. Just adore them.
    Thought you might like to bring y/ours here for a few nights that way I'll get the spare room finished 😆

    So cute about my gift. You're gorgeous Grandy Floss 😚

    I love hearing from you and knowing you're close by too honeyheart you're a great friend and comfort dear love.

    Loven the hugs. Right back at you sweety. You're so beautiful. Stay strong dear Grandy.
    You're so loved and appreciated 😊 always darlin.

    Best of care 👩‍❤️‍👩💜😍👀🕊🤝💗🗯
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    17 November 2020 in reply to demonblaster

    Hello Deebi,

    I know how worried you are about your mil's cancer. Lass I hope you don't mind I thought I would share about an elderly relative of mine who had lung cancer which they got early. He had part of his lung removed & recovered well though as his Dr said running marathon's was now a no no, however gentle exercise was still good & possible. He lived well for many years after though he would get short of breath if he over did things. It is scary given her age, but I will keep my fingers & paws crossed she has as good an outcome.

    Thank you for the smiles you bring me whenever you talk about Mr Deebi. I love hearing how happy he makes you & I'm sure he feels the same about you. He is a sweetie being happy to nana nap with you.

    It's good to hear the recliner is helping you sleep without setting off your back. Really hoping the Dr's have answers for you when you get your results on Wednesday.

    Sending you huggily hugs

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    18 November 2020 in reply to demonblaster

    Hello Beautiful Deebi👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩, lovely Paws..and all..🤗..

    That’s okay to cocoon sometimes honey..but not to long of o time..having your beautiful love there with you is so precious...I really hope you are both doing okay..eating healthy and are enjoying each other’s company....But..lol always a but with me bbff..You need to get outside at least 10 minutes a day for the sun too do its Magic with our sleep endorphins....just gently reminding you both as well to drink plenty of water through the day..sleeping in the afternoon can dehydrate us so much....Aunty Grandys, words of love and care for you both.💜🤗..

    Houseworky thingies are not fun things to do..unless you put on some old rock n roll and sweep, dust and dance along with the beat 😂..I did start singing along..until my fur babies started protesting....barking and howling while trying to cover the ears under their blankies....😂..

    Awe Deebi...2 feet hurting isn’t good...Is it the same pain as your other foot or different....Poor bbff...I might have to try to design some crutches with wheels that are motorised with a little foot platform on each of them...so you can stand on them and go zooming around the streets and your apartment until they heal....

    Hun...I really hope that they maybe able to operate on mil like they did Paws’s elderly relative...I will keep praying for her dear bbff..it breaks my heart that such a beautiful person is so sick....

    Okay my bbff...I popped in to say hello and wish you a beautiful day..I am heading outside to mow my weeds...again!...We are expecting more rain soon...It’s been so hot here..but today has a gentle cool breeze which makes it sort of okay to be outside...

    Much love, kind thoughts and caring wishes my Deebi..pubaok..yadimh..24/7/365...Big his lovely friend..💜🦋🐻🤗🌹..

    Love to you as well Paws with my care and hugs 💜🤗🌹.

    👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩Grandy....

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    18 November 2020 in reply to Ggrand

    Hi dear Pawsy 🐾 and my bbff 👩‍❤️‍👩

    Thank you for your beautiful posts they're so appreciated.

    I'm good loves just wanted to thank you and let you know alls good.

    Bbt beauts. Got our blat with mhw tomoz.

    Grandy love you dear friend so much I really hope you're ok huns 🤗 👩‍❤️‍👩👭🗯💜.

    Yes everythings awesome with the dear man he's a darling 😍 thanks hun. Love the sweetheart very much. Our times so easy. Can't imagine not having the precious in my life. Very happy.

    We went to a bbq yesterday was good.

    Love to you too our lovely friend Pawsy 🤗

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    22 November 2020 in reply to demonblaster

    Hey Beautiful Deebi👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩..Paws and everyone...🤗

    Hey honey how are you going..

    Did you get your results back from mri scan...only if you want to share...

    Been thinking about you and idk..get a vibe your struggling a bit...RUOK?...

    Sitting with you lovely bbff....hoping you are okay and maybe got outside for some soul healing sunshine..

    No need to reply honey if your not up to it..I’m still holding your hand with my love and care..💜🦋...

    I think it’s about time we done some more travels with Sir Deendy.🐉....If Mr. Deebi wants to join us that would be awesome...

    Giving you my unconditional love 4eva bbff..💜🦋🐻🤗💭..pubaok..

    👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩Grandy...🌱🕊🌹💭💜🐻🤗

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    22 November 2020 in reply to Ggrand

    Hi there dear Paws 🐾 and Grandy 🤗👩‍❤️‍👩

    Oop sorry loves I said I'd bbt the other day.

    Thanks girls yes it's a worry about mils cancer.
    Fantastic about your relative Paws.
    Dont know yet what her wishes are regarding any treatment. For now she's waiting to recoop strength & see how it goes for short few mths. Then after more tests I don't know. Very sad I doubt we'll have her for too much longer 😢

    Mr Deebi 😍 he's such a precious. If he wasn't in my life it wouldn't be near as good. I'm finding it so much easier handling beasties rot.
    Don't understand tho, I love him so much as my late love too. With both was reciprocated but I still sleep late and in arvo we do. Same with late love that had too with pain and meds.
    It's ok but it's always been the same unless mania I've no hurry to get up.
    Not depressed as such at all just no oomph apart from if we have plans. I'm getting up a bit earlier lately.

    About 6 nights in bed now. Being very careful. Seems backs good again phew!

    MRI results good but not sort of.
    Good Syrinx & lower back both behaving but no reasons for the how many outs for so many yrs. Absolute agony. He said a little scolyosis. I have to read up. Think its the spines out of alignment. Can't help thinking they're missing something. Has to be a reason for the outs. At the worst felt my back was broken. I'll chat to GP.

    Foots painful walking. Bad ones still but not as bad ? I dont walk on it much

    Was so excited having a chat with mil the other day longer for a change. God I love her. She's slowly getting stronger from being sick.

    Hun I agree coccoonings ok for a bit. Went to a bbq the other day.
    I'm good. We go into ourselves at times aye.

    Grandy hun yes having the precious love makes so much difference. He's so easy and lovable the sweetheart.

    I so much wish swod hun 👭🗯 it makes me so sad cause every days one less knowing eachother in rl 😢
    Loven Aunty Grandy advice. Thank you sweetyheart 🤗

    Oh girls I did some more the other day in spare room
    😆 dust and dance to the beat you're a crack up Grandy. Fur babies howling 😂
    You got me the other day too saying you must look like a statue sitting outside 😅 love the honey too ty lovey

    I told Mr 😍 about a trip to come with Sir Deendy. Ohh so good just like you beautifuls.

    Thanks heaps girls. Love to you both 🤗

    👩‍❤️‍👩💜🤝🕊🦋🌹🐉
    Love you very deeply Grandy. Always you're in my thoughts. PubAok 😚🤗

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    24 November 2020 in reply to demonblaster

    Hello Beautiful Deebi👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩....and all.💜

    Thats heartwarming hearing you had a lovely talk with your mil...I can hear the love you have for her through your words...It is so very sad...Deebi ..honey yes mil would need to recoup and digest everything that has been told to her by her specialist and Dr...Just letting her know that you love her dearly and you will be their for her if she needs anything’s or feels to talk...Is giving your beautiful heart and soul to her...and that would mean so much to her...

    Im pleased your mri scan shows no major damage..but gee..something is going on with your back..and they need to find out what is happening to it....I have slight scoliosis..it’s a curvature of the spine..mine curves to the left..which makes my right shoulder slightly lower then my left shoulder...Mine starts curving around the shoulder blade area....I think Dr. Grandy..need to have to have a talk to the Drs...

    Im so proud of you continuing on with your spare room...Honey it doesn’t matter how long it takes...Did you have some music playing...I know your not really fussed with music..but it can help when we clean to a beat. 🥁..

    Since Mr. Deebi has entered your beautiful life..I can see or hear a difference in your life...you have changed into a much more happy and contented precious person...and that my dearest bbff..is gold...Very heartwarming for me..to know how much you are there for each other with love and care....

    So do I bbff...each day that passes is one day less..😢..but I am so grateful that at least I can hear your words and feel your love and care....Don’t loose hope honey...it will happen..

    Sending you much love bbff..with hugely hugs..💜🐻🤗..Please look after you like I would if I was there with you..

    my love, hugs and care everyone...

    👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩Grandy....🌹🕊🌱💚🐉

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    25 November 2020 in reply to Ggrand

    Hi my gorgeous bbff 👩‍❤️‍👩 and readers 👋

    Thank you for that beautiful visit sweetyheart always so good seeing you.

    You have so much warmth Grandy love I feel very supported and secure dear lady many thanks and much love 💜

    Mhw tomoz we have our blat.

    I'll bbt huns itsa bit late now

    Hope you're doing really well honey 🤗

    YAdimh lysvm BPaly beautiful 👩‍❤️‍👩💜🤗🌞😙🐉🕊🦋

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    26 November 2020 in reply to Ggrand

    Hi dear Grandy bbff 👩‍❤️‍👩

    Again thank you so much for your compassion and comfort you've no idea I imagine how good it is being you're bbff 💜🤗

    I need to ring mil more often. Feel guilty but also giving her space.
    A lot to take in for the precious.

    Yes I'm annoyed not that I want bad things to show but you can't go through that unbelievable pain and have for many yrs when it goes out it having nothing much showing. There's a cause. I can't word how bad the pain is well yip you knew what I was saying that time. True.
    I keep putting the Dr off needing a blood test including sugars that'll be off the planet. Oops.
    Talk to him when I see him nearish future. Maybe on outs I should go see him he hasnt seen me at my worst but has at times & knows. I have strong meds to see me through but too hard going anywhere for the most.
    Don't want an op just want them to know what the cause is. At least I'm ok again. Oh the relief but still dread getting up out of bed. Taking a long time to get confidence back.

    Thanks thought it was a curveture of the spine. Does your back go out?
    Oh Yes! 😅 please Dr Grandy wise them up 😂

    He really is such a lovely easy sweet man I'm very happy, we both are. It's very easy.
    I'm sure my late love sent him to me. Precious loves.

    A few people have said same hun thx. I feel my hearts full again 😍
    Our loves very strong.
    Thank you darlin 🤗😚

    Ok I won't lose hope but it's so hard and frustrating! Swod. True it' great we have here but we could be so good even more for eachother in rl 😢 Love you so much Grandy I'd love you to come and stay here and at yours. Others too from here it's such a lovely place and beaches.

    Love you saying "like I would if I was there with you" ya gorgeous lady.

    You look after yourself too beautiful. Truth you're always in my thoughts with so much love & security honeyheart.

    Please plz PubAok lysvm yAdimh.

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    29 November 2020 in reply to demonblaster

    Hello Beautiful Deebi👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩..

    Please don’t feel guilty about not ringing your mil..I can only imagine how hard it would be talking to her knowing how I’ll she is....Just a very gentle suggestion honey...Even though it is so hard to..Please when you feel up to try to give her a ring...I am frightened that if something happens and you haven’t spoke to her you might have some regrets...If I’ve said wrong..please forgive me...I went home early the night my hubby passed away...and was less then an hour to late the next morning..yeah I have regretted my decision ever since...Don’t want that for you precious friend...

    Hmmm..probably not but I’m thinking could be damaged muscles as well causing you grief with your back..I’m not sure but I think we can damage muscles/tendons etc..maybe a rip in one of them somewhere...or detached from bone...maybe something to ask your Dr....just thinking out of the box..,

    Yes Deebi..it does go out at times..but mostly bottom section I have a bulge disc there..feels like it can’t be bent, and bending over slowly bit by bit until I get there is what I need to do sometimes....back near my shoulder blades aches no end when I use my arms..knitting, sewing, gardening ect...I usually take a anti inflammatory and it takes the edge of it..,I know you can’t take them,,,

    I know that we could be good help for each other in r/l...I often think about it...and yeah it hurts a lot.😢...I would love to visit you and walk with you and Mr. Deebi along the beach..splashing you both as I kick up the water.😂..Then find a beautiful peaceful spot to sit and watch the sun setting....Never loose hope...keep holding on tight..

    Sending my love via the golden thread connecting our souls together..followed by some warm gentle hugs...💚🦋🐻🤗.

    Yadimh always and 💭 of care and respect honey..

    My love, hugs, and care everyone..

    👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩Grandy..

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    29 November 2020 in reply to Ggrand

    BP day 3/4 v.mild

    Had some weak cravings for a smoke. Had 2 today only having very randoms now. 1/2 manias ago I had 2 pkts.
    More productive eg spare room etc. If it was mania back then it'd be day 6/7

    A good light bulb moment on waking recently thx to mania.
    This I knew but until then I haven't had any go go tho I've been working on occasion to do things.
    It gets me tho I'm quite content watching a lot of TV and sleeping a lot.
    This lack of motivations been throughout my life.

    My thought was...You have to do things to get motivated!
    Even with mild mania there's belief understanding drive want & perfect clarity.
    If its a project it's crystal clear in your thoughts step by step the way to achieve with total belief/confidence & desire. Mind blowing.

    I'm far from convinced somehow we're not able to bring this brilliance & extreme true happiness on.

    I know we're wired differently but fundamentally we're the same.
    How I see it we all have something we're good at.
    We also all have roadworks going on upstairs slowing or making it difficult to run smoothly with varying degrees of intensity.
    Anyways another time for that I need to keep working at getting better. It's happening in a big way. Clapping emoji 👏

    Wow been sleeping without sleepers but waking with the birdies. Joy..yes but do they have to so early 😄

    Getting more social again. True Grandy ok to withdraw for a bit but too easy to cocoon. Did church and visit to friends today was good. I doubt I'll be a believer but a great deal I agree with from teachings also opposite.

    Love your company Mrs lovely 🤗

    Thanks that was solid advice and no I don't at all mind huns I appreciate it. Yes I did ring and she was sleeping so said I'll catch her later.
    I'm hoping we get to stay a couple before Xmas for some quality time when its less full on then maybe not stay as long over Xmas she'll be knocked up.
    She's going to have radiation later on.

    No Floss can't lose hope it's a lifeline we all need to get through the hards. Does sadden me greatly tho 😢

    Thanks I'll try to remember to ask GP. Careful bending. Wonder if heat on it before you do. When mines out not a hope bending, can barely get seated. I want to get some stronger than the bigs I have for pain. Honestly can't do that initial pain again!

    Thank you darlin for your always amazing friendship and support and to everyone ⚘

    Golden thread with so much love darling friend 4evs 👩‍❤️‍👩💜👭

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    1 December 2020 in reply to demonblaster

    Hello beautiful Deebi👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩...and everyone...🤗..

    I really hope that you can spend a few days with mil...meant to ask you earlier...are you going to visit your brother this year?..,I know you love him deeply..just wondering if COVID has changed any plans you and Mr Deebi might have made....

    Your gains strength each time you go into an episode..that’s gold...your doing a great job of self care and insight into your bp....lYou have so much to offer people of your lived experience...

    Its hot here today...please dearest bbff..stay as cool as you can..hopefully you have that gorgeous sea breeze blowing through your home....

    I like hearing that you’re getting out a bit more....mixing with friends is always..I feel the number one best distraction from getting ourselves separate from beauty thoughts...

    When your back goes out..do you get what feels like a bolt of lightening suddenly zapping you?...and when it does...it puts your back into painful mode for a week or 2..Happens to me but not that much..as I’m very careful of my backs movements...the first time it happened I went to my Dr...he said it was a pinched nerve...after a couple of weeks it felt better...not sure because I didn’t ask him....maybe it gets stuck on the bulge and then flings away like an elastic....maybe your struggling with the same thing as I do at times of back outs.....

    Anyway loveliest bbff ever...I hope you have a good day today...stay cool and hydrated...bbl..or bbt...

    Much love and care coming your way down the golden thread that the angels wove for us....💚🦋🕊🤗🐻🤗🌹.

    Care, love and hugs everyone..

    Grandy🕊🌱🐜🐛🕷

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    3 December 2020 in reply to Ggrand

    Heya boodiful 👩‍❤️‍👩 and all lovelies 🖐

    Thank you for always such a beautiful warm caring post. You really are such a rock dear friend I hate to think how or where I'd be without you 🤗

    I'm coming down and started a post then had a great blat and lot of mh talk to mhw he's fantastic. We always have a good laugh so Mr gorgeous gets good entertainment.

    We have a very good friendship now and I've made it clear that if I lose him as a mhw we'll be just the same cause thats what friends do except I'll listen to his stuff too 😅

    Just going to bed soon so thought I'll jot down so I dont forget and wanted you to know I'm ok but geepers the foots not at all. Get em both checked out weds seeing doc then nxt time I'll talk in detail how I'm positive they're missing something with my back.

    • Very fast mood drop
    • ? Why I withdrew
    • Mania is my normal kinda
    • Inbetween BPs
    • Motivation
    • Holy Moley coming you might enjoy on tv.
    • Sewing etc you on your thread
    • Back
    • Excercise
    • Reunion & long lost good friend
    • Mil things for her

    Roight that should exceed the character count several times lol including what I've already written 😆

    Btw darl hope you don't mind I borrowed your gorgeous screech 💨 on Hannahs thread. Loved that as much as the bag 💼 and tractor 🚜 😂..so 😎.

    Hope you went ok today sweet love. Always in my thoughts. Would love to be there to support you esp vc days.

    PubAok sweetyheart yAdimh lysvm. Look after you beautiful 😚

    Always 👩‍❤️‍👩💜🏍💧🌱⚘Love you very much Grandy Floss ☺

    Nigh nite everyone sleep well ☺

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    6 December 2020 in reply to demonblaster

    Hey there beautiful Deebi 👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩..

    What was your day like today..Did you anything special for you?...

    Love the friendship you have with mhw...it helps a lot doesn’t it honey..when you like and trust your mhw, enough to call it a friendship...I’m happy for you...

    Deebi...honey, you know your body/back more then any Dr. or machines..we have this little voice inside of us...called a conscious..this little voice can annoy the crap out of us when beasty gets a hold of it.,..But when beasty don’t have control over it...our conscious is ours, and it’s our little voice coming from our soul...saying to you..that something is still wrong and to get your Drs to investigate further...lPlease, please dearest bbff...don’t ignore your little voice...it’s our soul talking to us..and you need to try to listen to it...

    Whats mine is yours beautiful friend...I love hearing that you like the 💨..anytime, you want to stick your head in our 💼 and search for something..your more then welcome..just be careful you don’t fall in to it...I mean there are trampolines on the bottom, but it takes so long to stop bouncing...then because the lift is broken down...you would have to walk up all of the 7,777 steps..🥵..

    Deeply saddened by your feet..poor bbff....Please speak to Dr about them on Wednesday as well as everything else you need to...

    I’m going to bed in a tick of the clock...pubaok, lysvm, yadimh..and 💭..Love you dearest bbff...💜🤗🌱🌹..so much care for you..

    Good night special lady..sleep tight..and wake up bright..

    👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩Grandy..

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