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Topic: Surviving: Being in a better place

  1. demonblaster
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    25 March 2021 in reply to Ggrand

    Thanks girls 👩‍❤️‍👩🐾

    Thank you both for your gorgeous posts. So lovely having amazing support.

    Just so incredibly tired. Probs past the worst of BP except not far off exhaustion. Feeling in thighs mind you all the steps I'm taking are major effort not to have groin pain. So SO over it. Sure I saw a turtle overtake me.

    Fair bit of news some good.

    One of my/our (late love) besties sent a gutless text dropping our friendship like a bag of s..puds. More disappointed than angry with his lack of courage and to drop a solid deep good friendship over what he thinks is right. I've been let down by a lot of people it comes as not so much surprise that people can be so bloody shallow weak and foolish.

    Going to write back when the groove spurs me and he'll be hearing a few home truths too!

    Grandy I know you're ok about not getting back but atm I really need to blob for a while and early bed hun. It's never because I don't care. Total opposite.

    Love always beautiful cyaz later 👩‍❤️‍👩🤗💜🐾🤗🕊

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    26 March 2021 in reply to demonblaster

    Hello Beautiful Deebi...

    I am deeply sorry about what your/late love’s best friend did to you...That is not acceptable to be so mean and not be there for you...People are strange creatures....They change like the winds change...and true friends just don’t do that...I can understand your hurt and yes the need to send an appropriate email back to them.....Don’t like anyone hurting my bbff.....

    Try hard to sleep as much as you can...I am here when and if you need to talk....

    I will be back later...going to put some weed control on the weeds/grass along the fence line....Mrs. NSC..is complaining about the long grass/weeds their as they are finding there way under the fence and into her yard....

    I hope you have a good day my special precious bbff...Love 24/7 with care..💚🦋🧸🤗..

    Love and hugs to everyone here..💜🤗..

    👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩Grandy

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    31 March 2021 in reply to demonblaster

    Hello Beautiful Deebi👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩....and all...🤗..

    I have to be very quiet, it’s lights out here at 10:30 pm. So I’m hiding under the covers with my iPad...They have cameras everywhere here...just like the other one I’m going to tomorrow...If I get up to make a cuppa tea through the night...the nurses on night duty write it into their little spy books they have for everyone here.,,,I didn’t know how the psychiatrist knew ever we did and said...so now I know cameras...but not in our rooms...only movement sensors in their..kind of like big brother I suppose..

    I wanted to visit you and check in on how you’re feeling...you’ve been very quite on here...How are you coming along with your packing my dear lady?...it’s a really hard, heavy and confusing job..poor bbff....

    How are things going with your late love’s bestie...I do hope that you are okay..remember bbff...it’s them that has the problem...not you..

    Did I tell you that I bought a new pair of slippers that came into work a couple of months ago....Gee boss wanted to bin them...but they are brand new..sheep skin ugg slippers..I transferred my previous 👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩 Broach onto them and I have them right here next to me...and the broach 👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩 Glows under this light...so cute...

    I forgot to pack my little teddy bear 🧸..I sometimes take it to bed with me..it has a little at the back and when I wind it up..it plays a beautiful tune....I miss it so much...is that being silly?....it’s comforted me many times...

    I really hope you’re looking after yourself Deebi....I might be a bit clingy at times...but just wanted you to know how much I need you , love and care for you...💚🦋🌹🧸🤗..

    Good night Deebi..I hope you have a restful sleep tonight...with peaceful dreams...

    Love n hugs everyone reading...💜🤗.

    Grandy...

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    1 April 2021 in reply to Ggrand

    Hi beautiful 👩‍❤️‍👩 and all good people ☺

    Even in your darkest days dear friend you're a ray of sunshine. Thank you darlin for a beautiful friendship.
    Always love your company.

    Geez it hard isn't it.
    How it used to be it's easier but still SO much goes on in the head.
    At a constant rubbish thoughts/scenarios. Helps knowing that's what they are just crap.
    I too can't see why our minds want to take us down.
    If we can draw on that negative energy by
    redirecting our thoughts to positives/goals/good memories
    I'm getting through the hards. Happy between struggles. IT's rarely not hard as you well now my darlin. I hope you're ok Grandz. Remember we have the strength!

    I've fallen recently into old bad habits causing debt that I always pay back and smoking that finish today.

    We have our hearts set on a house in Mr 😍 area next suburb. Be shattered if we dont get it.
    Very hard tenancy market around this way atm.

    Loves besty we sorted still miffed but ok without argument.
    Poor guy he has cancer too. Chemo pills. I tbh don't like his chances not that he'll ever know that dam it!
    My other bestys fella has accepted he's dying of it too. Dam again!!!.

    Ultrasound/Xray again ? torn ligament or inguinal (groin) hernia I have. Think both fixable.
    New symptoms.
    Resting it's caught only a few times. Still using a stick. The pains horrendous. Often screams. MUTT!
    Seem to have weakness in my arm. Some mornings very hard getting outta bed. Settles eventually. Ok today.
    Other stuff I can live with.

    Guess I would have lost ? 10 + kg's. Been very good. It's a choccy 🍫 diet 😄

    Eyes still very bad. On another diabetes pill. Close to needing insulin. Hoping I might be able to get off pills and not be diabetic like nearly before.
    Need exercise. Hard with feet. Hoping for walking in water again. Miss walking. It's slow atm.

    Have the start of Peripheral vascular atrophy from sugars in both 2nd toes. Dam! My fault but doing something about it now.

    About 3/4's through packing. Dear Mr is such a help but his back too. We'll get there. So hard when you can't bend without excrutiating pain. I'm starting to figure out one way. Awkward tho.

    Love you very much Grandy darling.
    Can't imagine where I'd be without you and of course here. So much appreciation dearest friend 🤗👩‍❤️‍👩💜swod =🌞. We can and will beat beasty! 😚 always 🗯

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    3 April 2021 in reply to demonblaster

    Hi Grandy 👩‍❤️‍👩 and readers ☺

    Sorry to start a post this way but the rest followed afterwards.

    Was nearly finished your post this morning Grandy hun and I got a shock call. Other top besties partner passed on this morning. BUGGER it.

    I didn't realise how much I loved him until all this cancer started. Told him one day and he us. He's free of pain now.

    Poor besty I know the long sad road she has ahead. It's so so sad.

    Then I rang the real estate about the house we had our hearts set on except this recent look moreso here where I live. Both houses had gone! We didnt even get to see them! Weak the r/e said rah rah about not being able to round everyone up to see them but I wanted to say all the others do. It's possible we were going to be notified but they hadnt bothered till I rang. Pretty bloody hacked off tbh.

    You start to lose hope and rejection getting knocked back. Absolutely nothing would make me happier, Mr too but I'm not holding hope well I am but my hearts saying nah they'll choose someone else.

    Pfffttt

    Sorry not a happy post. I'm ok tho 😭 atm.

    Life just sux sometimes! but something will come along soon.

    Thanks for listening.

    👩‍❤️‍👩💜🤗😚

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    3 April 2021 in reply to demonblaster

    Hello Deebi,

    Here is a gentle comforting hug lass... I'm so sorry to read of your loss...

    You really are going through such a rough patch lately... I wish we could all call at yours & take you somewhere lovely for a cuppa & a chance to forget the world for an hour or two... I'm sure Grandy would bring along a special magical gift & I could bring a triple choc calorie free cake with Kahlua cream frosting... Mr Walrus alias Croix could bring some noise cancelling earphones for Mr Deebi in case after the cake we start serenading the neighbourhood...

    Lass there is a reason r/e agents like used car salesmen rate so low on the trusted professions scale... some are ok... but from my experience you really have to keep at them to get them to do their job... I do hope you find something soon... I will keep fingers & paws crossed for you.

    A gentle squishy bear hug

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    3 April 2021 in reply to Paw Prints

    Dear Paws 🐾 thanks lovey you're a lovely friend

    I find your posts very comforting warm and you talk sense.

    I hope you're doing better. I do think about you and wonder.

    Thanks too for your thoughts about the addiction thread. I've put a lot of thought into that and eventually when I get back to it which I will, been hard lately with mh but a few better longer sleeps should do the trick. Thinking to change it to working through addictions. Also maybe the intro was too long too.

    Thank you he was a good friend dam it! Once he moved me deeply saying I was family. Can't imagine him not being here anymore and my heart bleeds for besty. So sad!

    Hugs accepted gratefully.

    You're a sweety. Glad to know you 🤗⚘

    Oh loven the cuppa and Kahlua let's do it.

    Slack mutts the r/e all they really care about is the owners not the stuffin renters that are a dime a dozen here.

    Over it!

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    3 April 2021 in reply to demonblaster

    Dear DB~

    As you said - life sucks sometimes. Due to my surplus of years my circle is diminishing greatly. Nothing to be done but keep on truckin'. Sometimes feeling for another like your besty can leave one frustrated and a trifle lost as well as sad. I'd think though just your presence would be a help.

    On a brighter note I really like the post you put in today in

    SELF HELP TIPS FOR MANAGING ANXIETY

    Particularly the bit about our minds trying to help

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    4 April 2021 in reply to demonblaster

    Hello Beautiful Deebi....Paws, Croix and everyone...🤗..

    Awe Deebi...honey I truely am sorry about the news of your other top besties partner passed away...My thoughts are with you and your besties family...,My deepest condolences...

    Yes Deebi...Life does suck sometime...but those times do pass...Keep the beautiful memories of your bestie and her partner tucked away in your heart....We meet people on our journey through life..to learn and to grow..to learn to care and know the meaning of loving unconditionally,...and then they are no longer with us....but we have the memories and feel their love and care when we remember those beautiful memories....

    I am really sorry that the place you wanted was taken by someone else..Can the realestate your renting off now, find you a place to live in ..that you like?....Remember dearest bbff. That the real estate cannot make you leave, without another place to move into to.....

    I also liked your post in the Self help tips for managing anxiety...

    Please look after you dear bbff....Sorry about not replying earlier...finding it hard with the internet not working properly here...

    Thinking of You so very much with my deepest love and care....💚🦋🦄💭🐇🎁🕊🐘🐿🐰🍄🌻🌺🌜👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩🌛...Just a few Easter friends emojis that popped in to say Happy Easter to a beautiful person..🌹..

    Love and hugs everyone..with an Easter egg 🥚🐇..💜🤗

    👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩Grandy..

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    5 April 2021 in reply to Croix

    Hi dear Mr Croixy 🐧 Pawsy 🐾 and of course our beautiful Grandy 👩‍❤️‍👩 and readers.

    Thank you all for your amazing support and time it goes deep.

    Croixy man I really appreciate you popping in. Yes it's one of the hardest things that comes in life at any age is losing loved ones.
    Sadly the longer we're here the more people move on.

    There are some things I like about ageing. One being we learn more. Many I've heard have a different outlook on life. Same here.

    At 18 losing my dear Dad ohh still my heart so badly wants him back. I didn't know to look for the positive memories then or that they remain.
    Loved ones still live in our hearts making it a trifle easier. Thank goods love doesn't leave either.

    We talked about with besty which is comforting knowing he came to acceptance.
    It'd be mighty to come to terms with that. Most people don't want to leave.
    I had a period recently of hard grieving before he went.

    If someone leaves and people are hurting then they've succeeded in life.
    Not at all to say there's not so many good and worthy people of love. MH/other reasons prevent them being amongst people. That's not empty words.

    I very much appreciate you saying that about the anxiety post.

    Hope you had a nice break Mr Croixy man ☺ take good care 🐧

    Dearest bbff hi sweetyheart I hope your days are being kind to you precious love 🤗
    I'll pass your condolences on huns thank you ☺

    True thank goods for time helping us out of hard times.
    It gives me an edge knowing that.

    I particularly like what you said about on our journey learning to love unconditionally.
    Well put beautiful.

    R/e I'm with have sweet not much really.
    Thanks Grandy very comforting knowing I can stay longer if need be. Ive heard that. Helps
    My gut in 'normal' times huh whens that! 😄 says It'll work out. I can't tell youse how happy we'd be to get this one here but reality bites, so many bloody rejections. I like to think something goods ahead else I'll crumble. I'm good though.

    Thank you too darlin friend about the anxiety post. Nice hearing that.

    Truth hun I know you'll be here when you can. That's never a concern. You're an amazing bbff 😚

    Awe the Easter friends are so cute thank you honeyheart.

    So much love Grandy. I'm so lucky to be here and have you beautiful caring people.

    👩‍❤️‍👩💜🤝🦋👀🐘🦄untold 🗯

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    12 April 2021 in reply to demonblaster

    Hello Beautiful Deebi👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩...and everyone..

    I can’t stay away any longer..I know you’re very busy packing and getting ready to move into your new place..and it’s one you like so I am very excited for you...

    How are you managing bbff....You’ve had so much sadness and sad new the past few weeks...I hope your okay...always here for you precious lady...

    The Internet isn’t working the best here...and I’m only allowed Internet use at certain times of the day..they rotate the times so it’s fair for everyone....Mostly group sessions throughout the day is keeping me busy...

    My supporter came to visit me today and she bought me some liquorice from her liquorice show bag she got from the Easter show in Sydney...and she took me out to Maccas for a coffee frappe...it felt good to be out...

    Please dear friend no pressure at all...but really would and need to know if your managing okay....and if you are okay....with everything that’s going on in your life...

    Sending you my deep love and lots of caring 💭..💚🦄👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩🤗🌹🐇🦄🧸🌈🐘🐣🌜🌱🌛..

    Grandy..

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    12 April 2021 in reply to Ggrand

    Hiya bbff 👩‍❤️‍👩

    Thank you for your beautiful visit it's so good seeing you precious friend 🤗

    I'll bbt honey pretty tired. Just watching TV atm then bed soon.

    Love you heaps hun always dear friend 😚

    👩‍❤️‍👩💜👀🤝💗

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    14 April 2021 in reply to demonblaster

    Hello Deebi,

    Just popping to give you a big squishy bear hug lass...

    Here's another one just because you can never have too many

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    14 April 2021 in reply to Ggrand

    Hey gorgeous/s 👩‍❤️‍👩🐾 and readers 👋

    Thank you beautifuls for your visits so nice seeing youse.

    I went to post last night but maintenance and just to say I'll definately be back.

    Hoping you're bith good lovely people.

    Much love dear friends

    Grandy I'll be at yours too sorry sweety it's been too long.

    Always darlin 👩‍❤️‍👩💜👀🤝🐘🕊🤗🗯

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    15 April 2021 in reply to demonblaster

    Hello Beautiful Deebi👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩, Paws, and everyone...

    Just popping my head around the corner to let you know..you are beautiful, you are strong, you are intelligent, you are cared for....and you are loved......by so many people...ummm did you know I’m one of those people..👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩🤗..

    Take your time honey with replies..it’s okay...your busy with packing, moving and our cute 🐆🐅...soul kitty Kats..

    Big love and hugs dearest bbff..and Paws...

    👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩Grandy..🌜🕊🌱🌛💚..

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    17 April 2021 in reply to Ggrand

    Hi Beautiful Deebi👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩..

    RUOK?..🌜🦄👼🌛

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    17 April 2021 in reply to Ggrand

    Hi dear Grandy bbff 👩‍❤️‍👩 Pawsy 🐾 and any readers 👋

    Thank you sweetyheart so good to hear from you both and for those lovely hugs Pawsy.

    I'm ok hun thanks. Have been a fool lately but what's done is done but annoyed with myself re old habits. Had a couple of good breaks but blew them.

    Missing our friend. Dreamt he waved to me from a car it was nice. I told other besty.

    We had a long break from packing. My groin was really painful. Debilitating. Steps are horrendous I'm very careful. The rest made it easier to walk. Been doing more lately.

    Had ultrasound and Xray so waiting to hear from doc.

    Was a bit down here and there but ok. Was in a horrid yukko this morning but ok now. We had a day sleep haven't for ages except yesterday

    Grandy I'm so pleased you're feeling a bit better and back home. Time goes fast doesn't it.

    Be at yours soon honey.

    Thanks again girls. Much love and care

    Huge love Grandy always my dear friend 🤗👩‍❤️‍👩💜🐘🕊👀🤝🗯⚘🐾

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    19 April 2021 in reply to demonblaster

    Hello Beautiful Deebi👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩...

    Awe honey please don’t be hard on yourself....it’s okay...💚Sometimes it takes a few try’s to stop our habits and I have faith in you that you will find a way and be triumphant..

    Im sorry your missing your friend..it’s hard isn’t it, to learn to live without our friends around....What an amazing dream..maybe he came to say one last good bye to you because of you being a beautiful friend to him...

    Your poor groin...I have groin pain and know how incredibly painful it can be, no matter which way we lay, walk or rest it continues to ache...Please do take it easy with your packing..How much longer until you need to move out?...up to you if you feel to answer🤗..

    I hope your ultra sound results are good..remember honey...no early phone call from your Dr..means not much to worry about....

    I am pleased you picked yourself up from having a yucko morning, that takes a lot of strength and you done it...very well done bbff...

    Take breaks Deebi when you need to, pushing our bodies only does more harm then good.....you have to look after you...for me because I need you and have a beautiful deep soul sisterly love for my spirit soul sister..💚🤗🦄👼🕊🌱..

    Here precious friend if you need to talk..you are in my thoughts 24/7 and still holding your hands...with my care..

    Love and hugs to those listening here..

    👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩Grandy...

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    23 April 2021 in reply to Ggrand

    Thank you dear friend 👩‍❤️‍👩 you're always so suppirtive and lovely 🤗

    Not long now to move it feels lime we havent got far but we have it's just mess everywhere.

    It's such a lovely place and so glad to be staying in the area. Be nice when we're settled.

    Been sleeping in and day sleeps are good too. We're happy couldn't not be with this dear love.

    Not much going on here really. Just doing little bits here and there.

    Yip thanks about those words with addiction. Appreciated hun ☺ I want to get back to both new threads and will but when! Sigh

    Yip I too thought he was saying goodbye. I'm glad to have had that dream. Couldn't work out who was the passenger not that it matters.

    Seeing Doc later just wanna get moved first. I know theres a hernia inguinal (groin) whatever it is it really needs fixing has for many yrs caused untold severe pain. Can barely lean forward without deep hard pain straightening again. Cruel. Some things you can do. Bloody nuisance.

    3 Carbuncles my body slowly healed now have 3 more. Ouchy but letting bod do some healing I hope.

    Been bad on diet last 4/5 days not giving up though. Think from stopping fags again eating up.

    Hope you're ok Grandy. Awful knowing you're doing this at home by yourself precious friend. Not fair Grandz 😢 God I wish odsw.

    Really love you Grandy pubAok can't bear you not being around. You mean the world so does Mr beautiful 😍

    👩‍❤️‍👩💜🕊🗯😍👀🤝🐘🦄⚘

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    28 April 2021 in reply to demonblaster

    Hello Beautiful Deebi, 👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩🧸🤗..

    I haven’t forgotten about you my bbff...and thinking daily of you, I know your busy packing and sorting things out and didn’t/don’t want you feel obligated to reply...

    Did you get your test results back yet?...I hope so much that they were okay...if you haven’t got them back..I always believe that no phone call from Dr..is good news..

    Wow honey..I have heard Hernia pain is like no other pain and is very very painful...Was reading up on them and it says that it could become strangulated..which is a medical emergency..so please honey..take it easy with lifting heavy objects or twisting yourself the wrong way....

    Is your new place 2 bedrooms..so if I visit I can stay overnight 😁 also has it got a nice view of the beach or some forest views?....

    Oh no..poor Deebi...3 more carbuncles...must be something that’s causing them...food?...drink?....different soap/ washing powder?...or maybe body too hot?...Hate it that you have to go through all that again😥..

    The increase in my meds are causing me more weight gain...this is something that I do not like...and can’t seem to control, no matter how little I eat..it’s not fair is it..gotta stuff one part of me up to fix another part...😠...I prefer to be a healthy weight more then being mentally healthy...but I’m scared to go off my meds...(hmmm big sigh)..

    I hope you’re improving in your health and feeling less ouchies....Pubaok..yadimh....Deep and soul warming love to you bbff..🦄👼...💚🧸🤗...💭 for 🕊🌱...

    Alway here for you beautiful bbff..🤝..

    👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩Grandy..

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    Hey beautiful bbff 👩‍❤️‍👩 and readers hiyaz ☺

    So good seeing you thank you darlin for dropping in sweety love and very considerate about not wanting me to feel obliged to reply. You're a beautiful soul.

    I want to reply properly dear love so I'll bbl huns if ok dear sss.

    Been trying to choof a 🤕 all day but had a great run lately without for some time. Yay.

    Mondays creeping up. Pretty over it all... the mess packing in bits but we're getting there.

    Love and care very deeply dear Grandy.

    What a blow with the meds eh. Hey in time you'll I reckon be able to slowly ease off the extra meds. You're going so well hun. Go easy beautiful friend.

    You mean the world 🤗😚💚👩‍❤️‍👩💜👀🤝🐘🕊

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    Hello Deebi,

    I think from memory you moved yesterday... I hope it all went well for you... do take it easy unpacking & settling in at your new home... the last thing we want is for either you or Mr Deebi to overdo it & cause serious hurt... so slowly does it.

    Huge hugs

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    5 May 2021 in reply to demonblaster

    Hello Beautiful Deebi👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩, lovely Paws and all...

    Oops I must have got the day wrong..I thought today you moved in to your new place..which you will in time make it a beautiful and welcoming place for your many friends..

    Take your time with the unpacking...there’s no hurry..once your furniture arrives..it’s only the bed thatbis important to get operational..every thing else in your own time honey..

    I spent a very long time deciding to what to make for your new home...I came up with a beautiful Dream catcher..hanging off a brilliant crystal heart sun catcher..with a glorious golden chain....

    I figured that with the sun catcher supporting the dream catcher...they should bring peace and tranquility to both your home and your dreams....because the dream catcher enters your soul and only holds onto the all the good things in your life that brings you joy, happiness and peace and turns them into peaceful dreams of fairies, imps, dragons, angels and all the good things that happen in your life....and throws away anything that beasty tries to put in your dreams....The Sun catcher brings nothing but the brilliance of the sun’s healings rays into your beautiful heart, soul and adds them to your dream catcher....I hope you like it and it works for you...

    I am looking forward to you...to take me on a virtual tour of your home...I mean I need to know the difference ways I can sneak in of a night to make you breakfast occasionally 😁...or if I need a little retreat away from me and my place..

    I hope Destiny and Eternity like their new home...

    Always here for you my dearest bbff..with lots of my love, care and warm hugs..💚🦋🧸🤗...

    👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩Grandy..🧸🕊🌱🌹🦄👼...

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    5 May 2021 in reply to Ggrand

    Hiyaz beautiful friends 👩‍❤️‍👩🐾 and readers ☺

    Grandy you dear sweet love the dreamcatcher is absolutely gorgeous I love it thank you. Nice idea I love our fantasy actually our entire friendship is beyond amazing Grandy geez I love you so much you've no idea.

    Your both very important to me I really appreciate youse and several other amazeballs talking of I'm really missing our gorgeous Birdy and of course Peppy Mandy Sapphire Starts (saw a few butterflies the other day thought of her) and never forgetting Star Wolf 🤗💗

    Loves I will be back have a bit to chat about.

    Pretty much the last 3/4 days been on strong pain relief touch wood backs holding but our bodies including back but not out are wrecked. I have to otherwise I have a hard time walking. All the movement bending etc.

    Thank you so much both of you.

    SO happy here and with Mr absolute beautiful Deebi he's an absolute darling man 😍

    Big love to beautiful people 🤗👩‍❤️‍👩💜👀🤝🗯🐾

    Always listening gorgeous loven things you're up to.

    😚🤗🤝⚘

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    7 May 2021 in reply to demonblaster

    Hello Beautiful Deebi👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩...

    How are you going beautiful bbff?..

    “Bend and stretch...reach for the sky...stand on tippie toes..oh so high”...,I can imagine you are doing the Romper Room exercises a lot since you started packing, moving and now unpacking.....Please “slow and steady..wins the race”..meaning that by going slow..you will get their in the end.....

    Is it a nice quiet place...have you been sleeping?...Lol Private detective/ Mother hen 🕵️‍♀️Grandy is on the ball 🎾..

    Take your time honey in replying...just popping in to let you know I’m thinking about you and Mr. Deebi....With lots of love, care and....umm...well, and curiosity ..😁..💜🌹🦋🦄👼...let me know if you need anything at all...and I’ll check our 💼..to see if I have it....Oh!..how silly of me🙄..of course I’ll have it..because our 💼 is virtual...😂 and has anything our imagination can think of...

    Lots of love, hugs and are...💚🧸🤗🌹👼🦄🕊🌱...

    👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩Grandy..

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    7 May 2021 in reply to Ggrand

    😂😂😂 you're a class act my girl love ya to bits 👩‍❤️‍👩🤗😚

    Hi everyone 👋

    Saw you talking to Pawsy and checked your bag ...instant smile same with any of our memories....oh oh... forgot to tell you I put a garage in on the 242nd floor so you can have your other famous 🚜 safe warm waxed and polished but for that it goes to the 21st Pixie jobby floor. Of course the 59 Pixies do a reasonable job but can't in all fairness say they do as well as I do but hey... ya get that...what can you do aye 🤔

    Getting there hun. In BP atm was expecting with all the stimulation but probs its a v.mild cause of all the strong pain meds. Tell ya more later so they've helped to a degree and I think acted as a down for the up but not in a bad way just keeping it tame.

    Exhausted but mania keeping me going. Accidentally took a double strong pill boyo did that knock me more but fine.

    Bodily incredibly sore but most apart from groin should heal hopefully in next few days.

    Hope you're good huns I'll be over in next couple days it's full on with other moving details like centrelink and inspection details etc appointments between us and it goes on.

    Extremely happy cant wait to give you a virtual tour. REALLY wish it was a real one and no way just overnight you'd have to stay as long as you'd like beautiful.

    Ahhh the virtual kitty furs love it here...they play hide and seek...I hear rustle rustle...there they are in a box unravelling clothes ...wait up...oi..back here to finish your cuddles and tummy rub...

    You make me so happy Grandy Floss...you've no idea how deeply I love and care so much about you.

    Also to many beautiful people here and bb mob you're amazing...try not to ever doubt your worth ... Beasty brat knows nussing...

    Missing good friend (bestys partner) heaps. Stoked we live so close now.

    Love for eternity dear friend it was destiny for us to touch eachothers hearts and form our unbreakable bond. The best sweet love. PubAok we need eachother and others too.

    Nigh nite beauts ☺🤗

    👩‍❤️‍👩🗯💜🚜⚘

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    11 May 2021 in reply to demonblaster

    Dear bbff 👩‍❤️‍👩 and readers 👋

    Ahh Grandy the bliss bubble I had a couple of nights ago with mania adding it's Gold burst well and truly.

    We're gutted! I knew we'd lose good $ going defacto but OMG 😲😭 $ 200 each on top having a loan from them paying back another $100 so $300 down. I said I can see why they have the tissues close by so people can use them to wipe the tears. Said in humour. Was in great spirits till then. Seriously a massive blow.

    I so much want as Mr Deebi too to live together as we are now but what a blow geez!

    There's been some very good ups and downs lately. This one takes the cake. I was so looking forward to being a bit better off but poor Mr 😍 wow he was losing now it's mighty.

    I'll handle (yrs of practice being broke) and he will too We're laughing and ok but not.

    Few things going through my mind. So after my major hard blubber which I held at centrelink I did some self talk. Basically looking at positives and options including taking some advice I offer to turn the pain and energy into productive thought and ways to improve the situation that's mighty damned glum.

    Other people cope so we will too., are we there yet. So frustrating waiting.

    For how many yrs a constant flow of bloody high pain physical health. Daily several times wicked groin pain. The smaller ones are bad enough and a recurring side injuries flared up again which settles in a few days. Feels like somethings ripping on certain movements. Same with the arm recurring. It clicks and frig it hurts. Other pains have eased and a mild back out sigh.

    At least mh tho still hard but to a lesser degree. Several times yesterday sudden mood drops wow didn't seem to be ptsd's and did get out of them but where on earth did they come from.

    We'll look back on this but I tell ya it's a mighty blow but then I think of poor v.good friend and my late love and people they didn't want to die, at least we still have eachother, beautiful love. A beautiful place tho the shines dulled and good friends.

    We had a lovely day with Mr's besty and his bro who he lived with but that too is deeply saddening me with his cancer and something else medically bad. Chemo won't cure but ... tbh I'm not expecting to hear a good prognosis. Sux badly!

    I can't as planned now repay large debt as quick as I planned through some heavy gambling.

    Yip peachy atm but ok. Gotta roll with the punches aye.

    Thanks listening peeps

    Love you big time Mrs bbff 👩‍❤️‍👩🗯💜🤗 are we there yet 😢

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    11 May 2021 in reply to demonblaster

    Hiyaz 👩‍❤️‍👩

    Thought it was coming from my back that the same 2 toes on both feet have numbness. Pretty recently they started dragging quite often on the floor walking bare foot that I prefer.

    It's a bloody awful feeling you feel like a cave man dragging the feet. Not pain at least tho a tinsy at times.
    Have to wear shoes or whatever I guess.
    Weird cause There's still movement, I guess the action needed to avoid it's affected.

    It's the beginning of Peripheral vascular atrophy bugger it!. Irreversible!

    Peripheral - extremities. Toes fingers etc

    Vascular -circulatory system

    Atrophy - if A is in front of a word it means without.
    Losing power basically.
    It's not at all good.
    I'll suss but think it's a contributor to loss of limbs Gangrene loss of movement

    I know smoking and Diabetes can cause.

    My eyes are normal again jaysus that was really scary.
    This started in that period of time recently.
    Really have to look after the sugars. Weight loss WILL/is happening also breaks.
    My last blood test for Diabetes at the level it was is when we go to insulin.
    On a second pill for it which seems ok.
    Had a couple of hypos from them.

    We got a bond loan you pay back over a yr. Great idea. It's just tho another new bill each f.nite.

    Ok but 😢😭 pretty low atm. Happy in other ways
    Thing is it's how it is.
    I need to accept it improve on it if I can by finding a way to make some coin (couple ideas fliating around.
    Look at options too. Doubt if we'll go this way both are very bleak. Not living together/getting a house mate.
    Grandz if we were rl (real life) you and a couple of other people that I dont know well but enough to know they're good people otherwise you don't know who you'd get. In the past I've judged characters ok on brief meetings but then one who I deeply loved (friends) dropped me over totally unfair money concerns. I did the right thing by him, he didn't and lied over and over again. Took yrs to get past that hurt.

    Anyway thanks again listening.

    👩‍❤️‍👩💜🌱pfftt

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    Hello Deebi,

    Oh lass... here is the gentlest most comforting hug I can give you...

    Centrelink suxs ... that is a huge amount to cut... of course it has upset you... it is so BL***Y unfair...

    Lass with your toes... wearing enclosed footwear when you go anywhere you may scratch or otherwise injure your toes is important... not having the feeling/good circulation means a simple scratch which may become infected is harder to treat than a similar one on another part of your body...

    I believe that despite everything you are having to deal with... you are strong enough to keep up the weight loss.. healthier eating & you will succeed in stopping any further ill effects of diabetes. Mr Deebi will be there at your side encouraging & supporting you... plus all your friends here sending you positive vibes... you can do this lass.

    Here are some more hugs & Woofa sends you soft doggy snuffles

    Paws

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    11 May 2021 in reply to demonblaster

    Hello Beautiful Deebi👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩, lovely Paws and everyone...🤗..

    Awe If it’s okay I’ll join Paws in giving you a very gentle hug....I’m really sorry about Centrelink..It’s not fair at all..especially when I know of people are stealing from Centrelink...Honestly Centrelink should start being more fairer...I mean you were honest about moving into a De facto relationship...not many people are that honest...Did Centrelink give you rent assistant...or is that no longer a thing they do?...

    I agree with Paws about your foot wear..it’s important to not injure your toes at all..or your feet...also honey if you remember to keep your feet elevated when you sit down..that help the blood flow as well....(I think)...

    Its hard to trust people to rent out a room to...A friend has suggested that to me..but I can’t trust enough to do it...also it wouldn’t feel like my home anymore...But up to you beautiful lady..Okay if you know them and your friends with...hard choice..

    Its okay that you cried honey...I would have as well...let out all the disappointment and hurt..then like the beautiful trooper you are...tell beasty no more...you don’t own me...Choof off...

    Deebi....honey..maybe write out a monthly or fortnightly budget with the amount for bills...then an amount for shopping and if anything left over..pop it into a jar...I used to just use my Visa card for everything and kept over spending..now I pay my bills and take what ever is left out of the bank..it’s a lot harder to spend cash..then it is swipe your card...just a thought bbff...

    Here always for you..I don’t much do weekends here..but do sometimes...depends how I’m feeling..

    A lot of love to you Mrs bbff...with lots of caring hugs..💚🦄👼🧸🤗🧸🤗🧸🤗....

    Love and hugs Paws and everyone..

    👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩Grandy..

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