Dear bbff 👩❤️👩 and readers 👋
Ahh Grandy the bliss bubble I had a couple of nights ago with mania adding it's Gold burst well and truly.
We're gutted! I knew we'd lose good $ going defacto but OMG 😲😭 $ 200 each on top having a loan from them paying back another $100 so $300 down. I said I can see why they have the tissues close by so people can use them to wipe the tears. Said in humour. Was in great spirits till then. Seriously a massive blow.
I so much want as Mr Deebi too to live together as we are now but what a blow geez!
There's been some very good ups and downs lately. This one takes the cake. I was so looking forward to being a bit better off but poor Mr 😍 wow he was losing now it's mighty.
I'll handle (yrs of practice being broke) and he will too We're laughing and ok but not.
Few things going through my mind. So after my major hard blubber which I held at centrelink I did some self talk. Basically looking at positives and options including taking some advice I offer to turn the pain and energy into productive thought and ways to improve the situation that's mighty damned glum.
Other people cope so we will too., are we there yet. So frustrating waiting.
For how many yrs a constant flow of bloody high pain physical health. Daily several times wicked groin pain. The smaller ones are bad enough and a recurring side injuries flared up again which settles in a few days. Feels like somethings ripping on certain movements. Same with the arm recurring. It clicks and frig it hurts. Other pains have eased and a mild back out sigh.
At least mh tho still hard but to a lesser degree. Several times yesterday sudden mood drops wow didn't seem to be ptsd's and did get out of them but where on earth did they come from.
We'll look back on this but I tell ya it's a mighty blow but then I think of poor v.good friend and my late love and people they didn't want to die, at least we still have eachother, beautiful love. A beautiful place tho the shines dulled and good friends.
We had a lovely day with Mr's besty and his bro who he lived with but that too is deeply saddening me with his cancer and something else medically bad. Chemo won't cure but ... tbh I'm not expecting to hear a good prognosis. Sux badly!
I can't as planned now repay large debt as quick as I planned through some heavy gambling.
Yip peachy atm but ok. Gotta roll with the punches aye.
Thanks listening peeps
Love you big time Mrs bbff 👩❤️👩🗯💜🤗 are we there yet 😢