thanks v much for replying.
yes he has the highs as you described and in these times it feels like he actually likes me and himself.. life in general. This can be from week to week up and down and also larger cycles like literally a completely different, calm, confident person and a sad, stresses, angry, selfish guy.
He has made comments and possible "wishes" that I now wonder is he in control of.. Or when in a mania is he too delusional. Does this happen with you?
I guess all peeps are on different levels but I now struggle to know the truth of what or how he feels (about me or otherwise) .. As for instance a text message can be obscene and insinuate the expiry of our relationship and another will say he loves me... 😩😲
the paranoia has hurt me the most and has to do with him not trusting me and thinking I'll abandon him. But it also extends to believing others are trying to go against him... So I don't take it personal but it's kinda frustrating.
Do you experience this?
I have spoken to him - on many occasions about his language and anger, changing his mind last minute and neglecting my feelings. But he doesn't stop and blames me.
Yet on the flip side he is very caring, kind and good fun when his mood is right.
Atm I'm not close to him as he's said and I agree he needs space and time to deal with his own life.. But he hasn't however told me that includes looking inside and outside to sort out his MH.
I don't want to push him but fear him going it alone... And he literally won't respond or accept me saying I will support him. Pride?
He has mentioned in the past of being not strong enough as he had no support. But he hates me pushing and pressuring him to seek help, acknowledge his behaviour etc.
I mean, this forum for eg. Looks like an awesome start.. But now I'm on here aaah I feel I've sold him out!!
Have you experience with AOD? As he also went sober for 3 months and has turned back to drinking and pot which he has no control to stop and I can see it does not affect him in a good way.
Why is he doing this 😔
I also heard being misdiagnosed (with depression) can be really bad for your MH.. For ex if you have BP. Any experience?
do you find it difficult to talk to people you are close to about real life stuff?
Sometimes my guy just literally says "I can't talk now". That's how somber his mood is. 😔
Ok my tutor!!
Thanks for helping me.
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