hey DB, it seems my posts are coming up pretty slow, i wrote one yesterday and its only just coming up now so its a page back and a conversation behind which is a little frustrating at the moment.

"I can forgive kind of but NEVER forget so forgive as in move on" this statement youve made is one i often think of myself. we are similar in this way. i will never forget what has happened to me BUT forgiveness of that is a huge achievement but it also gives ourselves that inner peace. you can forgive without forgetting xoxo

sending soul hugs and positive vibes xoxoxo

Hi DB, SN and everyone else,

Thank you for answering my Question, The reason I'll let you know later, I can't forget so I lied to him when I said I forgave him, because I can't forgive him.

DB, I'm sorry but I'm keeping away from other thread for a while, I have been carefully reading Ghost posts, but was triggered with last one.. sorry hun my emotions are not letting up today. I knew her story from her other thread, I should have stayed away. Won't this pain ever go?

Startingnew,....Hi I hope you are doing good with a little light coming through, will catch up with you when I can get me together again.

Kind thoughts.

Grandy.

Hi beautiful DB and all,

You said:

I feel here I have purpose...

GG’s response:

You have purpose here DB, you help so many people, you like people and enjoy their company, on and off the forums, your a blessing to a lot of people...

Food for thought there? ;)

Anyway, I think you have committed to the forums fairly consistently and with much heart and dedication for at least some months now (maybe longer, I’m not sure when you joined). Surely, that counts as “sticking at” something, right? Just my thoughts...

Anyway, you sound a little lost or maybe feel as though you’re drifting. I know your late soulmate meant so much to you. Maybe in some ways, he was your reason and ally in an often difficult world.

Of course you miss him (probably always will) and felt/feel more uncertain without him these days. Less sure of your place in the world maybe. I’m not saying that’s necessarily the case but just expressing my thoughts.

As for the whole purpose and setting goals topic, I found it enlightening to read your comments. I suppose I’m the opposite to you in this respect. I’m always searching for a reason, for a goal, for a purpose...for something.

Yesterday, I watched something where a public figure commented on how she has always looked to the future with goals and dreams to keep going because, for her, the here and now has often been so painful that she needs to look ahead/look forward in order to feel she can keep going. That really hit a nerve...I’m similar to her in this respect.

Sorry, for my Little aside....I wanted to say hi and send my love and care more than anything.

Soul hugs and much love ❤️

Hey DB,

I just wrote something...I may have selected post and I may have selected cancel. I’m too tired to recall. Lol.

anyway, I’ll check again later before I try re-writing it again.

Soul hugs,

Pepper xoxo

Hi lovely DB and all,

I am holding your hand and wishing you the very best with your upcoming hospital procedure/operation. Sending healing and caring thoughts your way.

Your love’s passing must have really shaken you when it was so unexpected. Yes, you never forget or stop loving those you truly, deeply loved. The memory and feelings continue to live in your heart.

Love,

Pepper xoxo

Hi DB and all,

Yes, so many sad memories associated with that hospital. As you said, that’s probably the hardest part.

Aw thank you, DB. Holding your hand all the way...I can’t physically be there with you but you have my full emotional support.

Um, I take it that something happened, considering your latest post? Is everything okay?

Soul hugs,

Pepper xoxo

Oh lovely DB,

Soul hugs 🤗 to hopefully lift your spirit a little...

Pepper xoxo

hey DB

sitting here, holding your other hand while you get through this

sending loads of hugs as i know something else thats bothering you and probably running through your mind as well in regards to the other thread. ive only just logged back on after a few days and trying to catch up

what your going through is serious and your more than allowed to be scared out of your mind but you dont have to do it alone. you have all of us here and your family offline as well as i know they love you jsut as much as we do here xoxox

your still allowed to be nervous and things DB, dont deny yourself of that. your more than that but it doesnt mean you can be scared and brave at the same time.

"the thing about being brave is it doesnt come with the absence of fear and hurt. bravery is the ability to look fear and hurt int he face and say 'move aside you are in the way' "

Hi DB, Wings and all;

Thanks DB and you’re such a caring person to ask :)

I suppose I have been doing a fair amount of thinking and reflecting. Feel as though I’m a paradoxical mix of being thoroughly lost and focused at the same time. Strange, I know. Lol. I haven’t quite managed to gather my thoughts yet...

NYE was good. I love NYE as it’s typically one of my favourite days in the year.

Thanks again for asking :)

Soul hugs,

Pepper xoxo

Hello DB, Peps, Starts

.. ((soul hugs)).

I'm holding your hand now..DB..

Have a safe trip home tomorrow, I hope your time with family and friends is something you can look back on with joy in your heart...

Care DB....No words are coming, tired mind..but if ok with you.....will just sit quietly with you and just look at the stars and wonder how amazing and never ending the universe really is.

Kindness.

Grandy..

Hi caring, loyal DB and all;

You know, we are all so lucky to have you here as our friend. Thank you...

I would like to second GG’s well wishes for a safe trip home tomorrow.

I recall you saying that you’re an extrovert so it must be particularly difficult to go without company. Hopefully, you’ll find ways to make the most of your own company too.

You’re so kind to offer such beautiful thoughts and care to me, and others, despite all that you’re going through. I’m very grateful.

With you in spirit and sending loving thoughts.

Pepper xoxo

Hi DB,

Just a little heads up, Sad Monkey has left something in Boquet Of Pearls...there for us.. A few posts back..just thought you would like to know & thank...

kindness ( L&C).)

Graandy.

safe travels home DB, will be sitting with you and keeping you company xoxo

Hi wonderful DB,

Thank you...likewise, we are also very fortunate for your friendship.

I am glad you’re embracing yourself and your wonderful traits :)

Get home safely please...

I will be thinking of you over the weekend.

Catch up after the weekend ❤️

Pepper xoxo

Hello Dear DB,

Have a safe trip home and an enjoyable one.

I will have to lassoo some of my stars then bag them up and post to you..the stars out here are amazing..

Yes DB, fires coming back, trying a new approach.. Let you know later, seems to be working for today but I have to keep working at it..

Good Night sweet DB, sleep well, travel safe..

(L&C). Always.

GG.

Long time no see lovely DB;

Hope your world's rockin'! Apologies for being a Grinch and laying low during Xmas/New Year. It had to be that way I'm afraid. No reflection on you ok..

I see you've been spreadin' the lurve sweet girl. What a legend!

See you on the threads with bells on..

Sez xo (tinkle, tinkle..)

Hello DB,

I'm just coming to visit you to say hello and let you know I'm thinking of you quite often.

I hope your trip home was a pleasant one, and you have some fond memories of your holiday.

I also hope you are in good health, mind, soul and body, (not to much pain in your neck,back). Hate that your in pain.

Missing you lovely lady so much, No need to respond, just take care of you and be kind to you,

kindness only,

Grandy.

Thx lovelies

Bit quiet atm ☺ happens occasionally

Good cya Sez (chooky) missed you but knew you needed space was reading before you went xx

Starts you're a gem. You doin any better am reading am behind you xx

Grandy no pain atm had v.bad while ago not sure what they're goin to do thx xx

Peps friend taking me hosp soon glad bringing on lot of sads thought of going there. Not particularly happy lately dont know whats goin on but feeling pretty hows ya father

Sleeping lot at least have been walking.

Pfttt

Thanks girls

Rock missing you so much. Crying x😭💖🤗