Hello Demonblaster,

Just needed to say I'm very sorry about the thread.

Db, hope your doing ok..thinking of you..

Im so pleased your friend will take you to the hospital,

care for you

Grandy.

Thx

Bit over everything atm tbh

DB,

im concerned for you..

Do you want to talk?

Here for you SL xo in silence or in chat ❤❤

Hi wonderful DB and all,

I’m glad you have had lots of visits and support the past few days as it sounds like you needed some TLC.

Super sized soul hug from me coming right up...

You sound so very down. It seems like the black dog has a very firm hold on you right now. It must be hard.

Thanks for asking, I have had a hectic day today. I had work then had a psych appointment plus ran a few errands. Psych has left some homework for me so I’ll see how that goes and mentioned some therapies that he would like to explore with me (not now but later) including ACT and Schema therapy, which to me sounds like pain and hard work. My head hurts just thinking about it. Lol.

Anyway, I’m thinking of you and sending much love your way.

Pepper xoxo

Hello DB,

i know your not doing to good, 😢😢

just wanted to give you some..❤️🤗❤️🤗❤️🤗 X 10.

Thinking of you....I will make a wish on the stars tonight for your sadness and pain to leave you and for your happies to come back.

We are all here DB, but our spirits and love are with you. Take care of you.

(L&C)..

Grandy..

Thanks girls xx

Soul hugs ❤️❤️

Pepper xoxo

Hello DB,

Hope =🌈🦋❤️🌟..

Care =🤗🤗🤗🤗..

Love =❤️❤️❤️❤️..

Hope =🌈🦋❤️🌟..

Faith=💫💫💫💫..

I am giving all of mine to you..now you have lots...Please take mine and add them to yours..together they are stronger.. With the 🤗🤗🤗🤗 soul hugs I'm sending you. I hope you can get strong enough to get the beast down, and your happies up.

Love and Care..for you.

Grandy.

Hola DB.

Strap your guns on and own your name!! Came in to say thanks and read some of your posts.

Sunshine to you. You've helped some many people in here.

Emotion and physical pain are really the tests of strength for our next life.

Look how often you've come on here and turned someone's sad into a positive.

You are a very strong person and your thoughts are kind and clear. So I hope you can feel better soon and embrace those wonderful parts of you!!!

🙌🍒🌺🌈🌞💪💆🙅

Hello Dearest Demonblaster,

You have been so quiet, I'm really concerned about you so much.

I have hold of your hand not letting it go ever.

Im going to throw a few things back at honey,

Hope.....You have it, and mine, use them DB, no matter what or how your feeling grab hold and don't let go.

Believe......Believe in yourself, believe in your strength, believe you can get the beast back down,believe you can put beast to sleep.

Tough Talk... Now this is yours...yell at beast, scream at beast, No he won't get you this time.

Want... Want to kick beast down, do it with every bit of strength you got..want for a peaceful life.

I don't know DB, you are scaring me, you have always answered your post sent by others. This is not like you, Talk to me.....What are your fears?. what are you feeling? Only if you want to.

Please know my care goes deep for you. I want to help you, but I can't unless you want me to. ...

Love and care always ..❤️❤️🦋🦋💫💫

Grandy

Hello DB,

Just letting you I'm thinking of you..

Good night lovely lady. Sleep well and peaceful dreams. ⭐️🌛🌙💫

Im not letting you go.❤️

Love and care always..soul Hugs as well🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗

Grandy.

Good morning Lovely DB,

Im just making a visit to you here to say Good Morning and to really say I hope you are doing ok.

You still haven't answered any of these posts to you, I'm thinking you are really really caught by the beast or your neck,back is giving you a heap of torment and pain or your in hospital with your neck/back pain.

I'm with you in spirit, my heart aches not knowing what's happening to you, to know if you are ok. Its hard when I know someone I love and care for, never see them, don't know where they live are hurting really bad and I can't go physically down to visit and be there for you, to hold your hand, lend you my shoulder or to just give a hug to show you how much you mean to me. ❤️🌟.

I want to say so much but words are failing me, and I'm sorry about that.

Just know that I care, I'm always here for you, I'm not going anywhere and I'm holding you tightly by the hand and my arms are gently around you trying to comfort you.

Look after yourself my sweet lady, be kind to you, my thoughts are with you always. Take time and heal, missing you heaps.

Love and Care

Grandy.

Thankyou girls mean it, for care & support sorry havent been in much but am listening

Starts "here for you in silence or in chat" Sweet thing & youre in a rough place honey so hope youre coming better. You've got steel ive seen it

Peps beautiful soul hugs thankyou darlin feeling them. Let ne know how ACT? & Schema goes dont know about either hope you're ok too hun xx

YK what beautiful things you said thankyou so much that all went deep. Really nice of you

Ohh Grandy what beautiful warmth & love in your posts thankyou for not letting go hun loved the reverse psychology throwing mine back at me ☺ thankyou for holding on. Love you

Good day yesterday re neck seeing him again 6 mths keeping eye on it. If pain returns there's an op they can do. Yikes no thanks not neck

Had lot of fun with friends that took me so good of them huge day. Looked after me.

Just for change gunna sleep more pfffttt need to get head in right zone not in BP atm, so called whooptee normal

Im kinda ok Grandy & will be thankyou & all for sticking by me

Honestly I just dont know atm. Need to find my way. Reasons

Thankyou good people xx

Hello Dear Demonblaster,

Just want to thank you so much for letting us know you are kinda ok.

That means a lot to me. Thank you.

I will never let go.. I'm happy for you that the pain has eased a lot for you.

I hope you find your way through your "reasons" let's try and get rid of the kinda and make you ok..

You still sound down? Get well honey, I'm always holding on to you both hand and spirit..

Love and Care always.

Grandy.

Hi wonderful DB and all,

I’m glad you felt the soul hugs (I learnt how to give them from the best lol).

Please don’t apologise for not being around as much as you would like. We get that you have problems and other life “things” to deal with so it’s completely understandable. Just visit when and if you feel up to it. No issues there :)

Your friends sound wonderful and I think it’s great that they’re looking out for you. You so deserved a day (many days, in fact) of peace and fun and I’m glad you were granted that yesterday.

Hopefully, the neck problems subside and it doesn’t worsen. The neck pain must be horrendous...

Take your time to find your way. Go gently and be extra kind to yourself.

I haven’t started ACT or Schema therapy yet but my psych said he would like to explore them with me at some point. I’ll keep you posted...

More Soul hugs and much love,

Pepper xoxo

My beautiful lovelies here so grateful for yous thankyou so much

Lol yeah learnt from the best Peps ☺ yeah thx like to know how that goes for you & what theyre about good luck hun xx

Grandy sorry I do know how it is being in limbo just occasionally withdraw but coming back I think slowly yay

Going uni hosp bought lot of memories before going too, seems silly to say cause nearly 3 yrs (soon) but more aware im not going to see him again this life, friggen hurts. I guess ya block it although you know at the same time. Sounds convoluted but how it is. Theres so much to take in & learn with grieving. Sucks but through worst. BP's downs on top nearly took me at times.

Anyway going better now than usual BP lows so its working slowly how im tackling beasty still wicked though but can only get stronger from it cause not staying this way. Just gotta find that fire again, its comin

Sincere thanks beautifuls xx

You included always Rock (Starwolf) god i miss you. Plz be ok good lady good friend. So much love for you xx🤗🤗🤗💖💖💖

Hi lovely DB,

Yes, I learnt from the Soul Hug Master :) I’m just one of your many students...

It must have been very difficult being at the hospital. So many bittersweet memories tied to the place. I don’t think you’ll ever truly stop missing your beloved; you 2 had something truly special. Your heart must hurt so much sometimes...

It’s good to hear that you seem to be taking good care of yourself. That inner fire is still there...just needs some fanning, which I’m sure will happen when the timing is right. In the mean time, go gently...

Love,

Pepper xoxo

Hello special DB,

No need to apologise, my anxiety gets the better of me sometimes...I'm sorry if I annoyed you, it's just that I love and care for you and I can't stop the anxiety about not knowing.

I hope you can bring your happies up you have fire lovely lady, and so much of it..I believe in you.

The fire hides like the beast, remember fire is a destroyer of just about anything , the beast as well.

Take good care of yourself, plenty of sleep, good healthy foods and you time.

Thank you again for your help, you as well Pepper.

(L&C) always.

Grandy

Ägain thankyou my lovelies, this is your soul master talking :D, well soul hug master loven it Peps
Yeah it's all bought it to the surface but was so glad friend went in with me and took me the darling
Just needing some fanning that's right, it's still there and coming back hun
How are you going?

Grandy ya gorgeous thing, thankyou, you never annoy me hun, never! love you.
Yeah liking the fire destroys everything beasty included, & yes it's coming back, big glows now
What beautiful things you said to Starts thankyou so much hun loved it.
As pathetic as this will sound you make me feel secure when you say honey and put your wings around me, we're good for eachother. Love & appreciate you lady :)

You're amazing thankyou for your support & friendship everyone that's been here, means a lot xx

Hi Soul Hug Master (DB) and all,

I’m glad your inner flame is still alive and burning bright :) Keep fanning...

Also, it’s beautiful how GG has been comforting you with her protective angel wings.

It’s our privilege and blessing to be your friend. Really...

Thanks for asking. You always keep an eye out for us even when you’re struggling so much yourself, which speaks volumes about your caring and kind nature. I’ve been having a very rough week. I’m currently sober but as soon as I log out, I’m getting a drink...

GG: you’re most welcome. The honour is ours :)

Soul hugs to all,

Pepper xoxo

Hello , Demonblaster,

You just made my day when I read big glows now..🔥🔥🔥

That means I get to see your beautiful rainbow smiley avatar popping up around the forums, I love it.

Awe DB, honey I'm pleased I can help you feel good a little, you do it to me, It's a strange feeling I get when I don't spot you running around the forums, it's hard to explain, but it like a part of me is missing as well after all I make you my mentor ages ago,

I was diagnosed by my Pysch last visit before Christmas, My emotional development is suppressed, stopped developing at a very young age, thats a major contributor of my fears, anxiety and decision making, because they are (Child like). Treatable but will take quite some time..Didn't want to say anything because I didn't want to believe it, I think this is a stupid dumb thing to happen. but it does make sense of my fears,anxiety,and decisions.

Keep that fire going strong, I will always be here you whether your up or down or in the middle so will Pepper, Starts and others, you are one very special lady, who stole my heart.

Kindness always for you DB, 🌟💫❤️💫⭐️

(L&C).

Grandy.

Haha Soul hug Master sending good wishes for a much better week sweet, I'd love a kahlua & milk 🍷 or with coke if not a JD & cola in a can so it has to be virtual im broke as 😭 but we can still have a laugh 🤣😄 & chat 🍰 oops thats my cake

Thx sweety for being such a honey ☺🤗🤗🤗

Haha Soul hug Master sending good wishes for a much better week sweet, I'd love a kahlua & milk 🍷 or with coke if not a JD & cola in a can so it has to be virtual im broke as 😭 but we can still have a laugh 🤣😄 & chat 🍰 oops thats my cake

Thx sweety for being such a honey ☺🤗🤗🤗

You dear lady Grandy thankyou so much too for your beautiful comments & honey 🤗 yes we work well for eachother ☺ you move me xx lovely things you say they go deep

I think its good to know reasons Grandy, jeez not your fault you had so much to deal with our minds really do try to protect us dont they. Treatable's excellent news. You have an army behind you darlin cause you're such an easy lady to like/love so you will get through I know it. You've got spunk

Love that jewellery its pwetty & same im not letting go of you either my lady

Big love Grandy 🌹. 🎁 anything you want in this gift & heres the bow 🎀

Dont forget when you look at stars xx

hi DB &Pepper,

i just found a bottle of Tia Mara, some munchies,

ill be joining you both tonight.

grandy

Oh god ...Tia Maria ...cousin of Kahlua, lets boooogie girls...come on Starts you too & YW...yeah babies time to burn off some uhhh hymmmnnn ...damn have to be a lady

Hi Lovely ladies,👀👋👋

I managed without knowing it downed 😜near third bottle my Tia Maria..lol 🍷🍷...gonna big headaches tomorrow...oh had plenty of peanuts, chippies 🎂🍰🍿to go with it,,good sleep tonight I think..🌝🌝 hoping you both had a good night..🌜🌜

nitey nites,

Grandy

Hi GG and all,

Sending you some weekend well wishes :)

I hope you had a good night yesterday. Thanks for keeping me company...

Pepper xoxo

Hey DB and all,

You too...thanks for the company last night.

grateful for your friendship :)

pepper xoxo