I'm thinking to get hope back Starts, is first to believe and want to get through, want as in determined to.
You can & will Starts, you've got strength kicking in and out, it's practice aye. In the couple of mths or so I've known you I've seen the goods rise, you'll get there, just keep at it and good you're listening to people here, everyone has experience of some sort, we all wanna reach a common goal, to be free of pain, I truly believe that if we really put our minds to it we can find & use the tools.
That's right there'll be days, just gotta not let the flow continue, cut it off after the thoughts if they're just downers, work on the stuff that needs work.
(( good soul touching hugs )) for whoever needs em. Hugs release goods too, so does smiling.