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Topic: Surviving: Being in a better place

  1. demonblaster
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    16 October 2017 in reply to startingnew
    Thankyou sweetheart ditto xxx
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    18 October 2017 in reply to demonblaster
    Rock Starwolf thinking & worried bout you xx
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    18 October 2017 in reply to demonblaster

    Hi DB,

    I just wanted to say hi and offer some moral support. I know it’s been up and down for you lately.

    Sending gentle comfort,

    Pepper xoxo

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    19 October 2017 in reply to Peppermintbach
    You're such a sweety thanks darlin, to you too, yeah ok now and back on line, brother got it sorted. Yay.

    Hope you're doing ok too xx

    Hey Rock, hope you're ok xx
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    19 October 2017

    Hello mys special lady

    How are you going? Did you find out what was wrong with the comp?

    how are you handling your pain atm?

    I've missed seeing you around so im glad your back on board ❤❤

    Sending lots of hugs xoxoxo

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    20 October 2017 in reply to startingnew

    mmm special lady, yip loven it :)

    Thx askin chooks, little slight off centre but giving durries up other bits love to talk about maybe later. Good mostly.
    Pain everything better atm PHEWwww jaysus friggen whacks ya

    Had probs loggin in before but here
    Hope you're doin ok hun, I see steel in you, it's comes and goes aye. I kinda go where the mood takes me, guess that's down to our thinking, our attitudes.

    In getting emotional control I think the first one we need to learn's how to handle stress, needs an out, strong energy if we can direct it to our benefit. All emotions

    Mwah girl, whopping awesome hugs, :) (Y)

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    21 October 2017 in reply to demonblaster

    Good to know you're back on track and -by the sound of it- feeling rather good. Great to see you holding it together.

    Health sliding downhill but expected so I'm OK with it, just not much oomph to do anything. Which explains my reduced interactions around the forums. Still checking on how people are doing though...

    Have a terrific weekend.

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    21 October 2017 in reply to Peppermintbach

    To demonblaster

    just wanted to say a big thank u.

    U were the only one that connected to me.

    then after reading more threads, discovered u were in a bad way urseelf.

    its really nice to know ur not on ur own. That helps heaps.

    there is more help than u think, I just found a professor, as a last resort. Wow she was incredible and yes there is more help out there.

    l do hope u are ok.

    let me know if u can that u are ok.

    chrissy

     

    chrissy

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    21 October 2017 in reply to Starwolf
    You too have a terrific w/e Star (Rock) Good you're ok with your health, I'm not though with your health sliding, don't like it at all lady Rock

    Yeah got through the last biggy cycle with not too tragic downs, hackable at least. Thx :)

    Look after yourself Rock, I am concerned about you xx
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    21 October 2017 in reply to demonblaster

    hey DB

    sorry its taken me abit to get back here.

    im glad your doing ok and you have your pain under control for now

    big hugs to you too special lady

    xoxoxox

    hey star, im sorry to hear your health is declining. im here for you too. some soul hugs to you too xoxox

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    22 October 2017 in reply to startingnew

    Thanks you ladies.

    Hey GB, it is a joy to read there were no tragic downs...well done you !

    Please do not be concerned about my health...Never expected to make it this far. I guess battle fatigue comes with the old soul territory. I'm OK, no matter what. At peace.

    Have a good Sunday.

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    22 October 2017 in reply to Starwolf

    Oh star your such a warrior ❤❤

    Hey DB ❤❤

    Hi chrissy and welcome to BB im glad your finding being here helpful. Im sure youll make many friends here too :-)

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    22 October 2017 in reply to Starwolf
    Hey Starts no probs, whenever you wanna jump in good with me, no pressure sweet xx

    RockStar, You're in my thoughts often darl, I care deeply and appreciate you soo much. Wish I could do something to help you.
    Glad you said you're at peace, but arghhhh, nooooooooooo. Tears welling up.

    How bad are you?

    Love
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    22 October 2017 in reply to chrissy1

    ahhh dear Chrissy so sorry darl didn't see this, I do usually have a little look back and wondered why Star mentioned you, kaching, no penny dropping sound here lol

    Thanks so much hun, yeah apart from in BP (Bipolar) which I thiink I'm slowly starting to really get by the shorts, (that was quite restrained for me, nothing lady like here lol) which are heavy as & taken me to horrific mental places beyond I"m good otherwise, usually pretty happy & up.

    Very nice of you saying :)

    Sounds fantastic that you got onto a professor, yeah there is more help out there aye for sure.

    I feel a change happening in my life, it's big, think it's going to be really big but ok, life changing. Think I'm moving into another phase of my life. We'll see what happens.
    Little lows here and there but change and giving up durries can have that effect.

    Thanks again darl very sweet xx

    All best to you hun, feel free to come and chat anytime and on your thread too :)

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    22 October 2017 in reply to demonblaster

    Hugs DB.

    Having lots of dramas today and the pain is starting to kick in again after yesterday. I dont want to go back on the strong stuff but i might have to

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    22 October 2017 in reply to startingnew

    Oh Noo doesn't sound good Starts I'll jump into your thread in a sec and get caught up ((( xxxx )))

    Rock I know you're ok with this. Sorry honey, I'm notttttt. :( other reply aboves

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    22 October 2017 in reply to demonblaster
    I'm usually ok with change, but feeling so emotional atm but that's ok, a good cry let's out emotion. Release.

    It's big change going on and very teary bout you Rock too but that's ok, that comes with caring about people.

    Feel like with part of this change going on that I'm leaving my late darling behind, hurts but think I have to go with the flow. Whole damned deal hurts. My biggest fear is losing people I love/like/care about. Seen a lot of death nursing.
    Dad was first when I was 18 yrs was living & working away from home in another city

    Gotta go through ups and downs aye, can't work through and work it out without the hard times I guess. Doesn't make it any easier.

    Wanna talk more bout stuff but too open here so that'll do

    Ta
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    22 October 2017 in reply to demonblaster

    Hey db ill be ok. Part of this life. Gotta ride the ups and downs and just do what i can.

    Your talking about a big change. Do you want to talk about what that change is?

    Idont do death well either so can empathsise with you. Grief is a never ending process. They say it comes in stages but you will never stop missing them wondering about and thats ok. Its hard to move on without them but i know we have angels here anong us living even thoigh6we can't see them. It will be ok.

    Iworry about star too, she tough though shes proved that and she also know when she needs more help and support. But i worry too.

    Im not as good as star or the connection you have with her but im happy to be here and helping you where i can. Ill always be with you in spirit though

    Soul hugs xoxoxo

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    22 October 2017 in reply to startingnew

    Thankyou sweetheart, it's hurting re: Rock (Star) cause it sounds not good what she's going through and she's alone. I can't do anything for her. She's such a beautiful person and been so good to me here & to so many others and speaks with such clarity and wisdom never judgement and just so damned well. Think the world of her. OUCH

    Yeah I do wanna talk here but lot of ears. I think maybe might be leaving my old life soon, lot of friends/love around but kinda been existing the past 3 ish yrs, dunno but feel in my head things are changing, starting to move on I think. With family atm always enjoy it here.
    More but won't say much here atm, but mixing emotions too. Feelings for someone or need dunno which or both.

    Thanks darling you're a real sweety, I care about you too you know aye :) (((( xxxx )))) Best hugs.

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    23 October 2017 in reply to demonblaster

    Hi DB

    You have slipped through the rails. Ive just noticed how you have bipolar, tear up easily and want to withdraw at times. All symptoms I've gone through. Plus bounce back up with positivity.

    So thought I'd list a few thread pertaining to those symptoms, wriyten immediately after the events. Use google

    Topic: depression- the timing of motivation- beyondblue

    Topic: fortress of survival- beyondblue

    Topic: when emotions take over logic- beyondblue

    Maybe they'll help maybe not. I hope you are ok

    Tony WK

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    23 October 2017 in reply to white knight
    Hey there White, thanks very much I'll have a squiz sometime.

    Yeah I seem to be sleeping a lot these days and not in BP recovery but all good mostly thanks
    Big changes going on in my head lately pos in life I think too somewhere along the line, not sure though

    Hope you're ok too
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    23 October 2017 in reply to Starwolf
    RockStar you're never far from my mind.

    How are you?

    It's serious isn't it?
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    23 October 2017 in reply to demonblaster
    Hey special Lady, your most welcome.


    I know, I hate being helpless towards others and since she means lot to you itll be affecting you a lot more. She means a lot to me too esp since shes been with me since the start when I first told my story. Im not much help there except that im hearing you and im with you and with Star in spirit.


    You know here is safe and non-judemental place where you can talk about anything.... we are here to support you but I understand the hesitations you have in regards to talking about somethings too.
    You want to live rather than exist so.... make some changes that allow you to live and not survive. Its easier said than done though but you dont have to leave your 'old' life behind just start living and doing the things you want to do.
    You have feelings for someone? As in like 'crushing' or wanting a relationship or just in a friendship way?
    I like a woman atm but she is way off limits. Shes married so the mind will get over that but deep down I know those feelings exist and might just transfer to someone else.

    this proabably isnt helping you, if im way off track you will say something wont you
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    23 October 2017 in reply to startingnew
    Thx Starts yeah you're on right track. Think there's mutual but bit tricky atm. Time will tell.

    Yeah that's exactly how I feel bout StarWolf, she's been with me here right from the beginning, I always am so pleased to see her posts and always read anything she posts here of course and on other threads. love how she says stuff and what she says. So much wisdom and care.
    Such an inspiration and survivor, she's taught me so much.

    I'm sad and worried about you Star (Rock). Shining Star (( xx ))

    You're a beautiful person Starts thankyou xxx
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    23 October 2017 in reply to demonblaster

    they say time is our friend DB but i fint it works both ways too. lets hope over time the mutual feelings continue to get stronger and not drfit apart.

    yes Star is very much an inspiration, not only to you and me but to many others im sure. the thing with her wisdom and strength is she can use that on herself too. she has taught many members valuable lessons, but shes also had to learn them herself and while im sorry that has happened and she had to learn that way shes a lion. a very strong brave lion.

    how are you going otherwise? pain wise? energy wise? lows/highs rollercoastery whatever you want to talk about that your comfortable with

    hey star, itll be really good to hear from you though i understand the limitations. just know that we care and love you here, for you. not just what you have to offer but for you as a person. soul hugs to you too xoxox

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    23 October 2017 in reply to startingnew
    Great post hun, yeah Star a lion, like that Starts. You spoke really well there

    Thanks darl for asking, yeah pains all settled, seeing Pain specialist in Nov, ouch doesn't bulk bill, ya get frig all back. See him about my neck and back. Both a big mess, both breaking down, bulging discs but atm all pain's good thanks sweet. God unbelievable how strong it is phooo glad to be free atm of it all.

    Sleeping a lot lately but had about 5 mths of continuous rough health, most could handle but not the neck and back so maybe that dunno.

    Moods good thx, giving up durries, few tears here and there but overall good darl, stoked got through last long BP without too much downs, gave myself a firm talking to and said NAH not having it. Mental pain, stuck with it and worked. Might be a turning point. Hoping so.

    Mwah lovely people, thankyou for time, listening and caring

    Rock ((( xx ))) many thoughts, major care

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    23 October 2017 in reply to demonblaster

    Hi DB,

    It certainly is a very emotional time for you. It sounds like a lot of transitions are underway for you; I think they’re generally never racking and can shake your very core.

    I’m glad the downs haven’t been getting to you too much and that you’re managing them. I also hope this is a turning point for you :)

    Gentle hugs xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

    Starwolf- I have seen your scattered comments about your health but never really directly commented as I wasn’t sure if you wanted to talk about it at length. Speaking of which, there’s no need to reply to me if you’re reading this- conserve your strength and energy for yourself. Your health is more important.

    I will say this though, even though you and I have barely “talked”, I have seen your posts around the place and admire your wisdom and humility. I do feel sad about your news and am wishing you peace and comfort. Thinking of you and sending kind thoughts.

    Pepper xoxoxoxoxo

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    23 October 2017 in reply to Peppermintbach

    Peps... what you said to StarWolf. When people talk from the soul, I see this a lot here.
    Very happy to know you xx (You ok with affection? )

    RockStar

    It's knocked the stuffing out aye, going by bits you've said.
    This is serious? I think so but hope not, you're at peace, you WIN. Inspirational

    You're genuinely appreciated and respected here on so many levels lovey

    You know you can open up here

    Hope you're not struggling

    ((( holding hands too )))

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    24 October 2017 in reply to demonblaster

    hey DB

    i came on here and thought i think i know what to say and ive been sitting here for the past 10 minutes trying to remember what it was i was going to say. and for the life of me i cant rememeber... geez alright ill jsut write as i go along.

    Im really glad your pain is settled down, thats a bonus for you. Sometimes we have to do whats best even if it breaks the bank. Lets hope they have a good plan for you when you do go to see them will you keep us updated, id be interested to know how your getting on with it.


    Im glad you 'standing' up to your mental health. Bit fiesty there arent you, thats the inner determination coming out. We all need some of that. Good on you for giving up smoking, nasty habit that is but you dont need me to tell you that so ill congratulate you on your efforts. Not as easy feat giving those up or any long term habit so good on you.


    I care very much for you db. Sending soul hugs xoxox


    just about to go answer yours and peps posts on my thread too. Ive figured it out, the answer to your question

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    24 October 2017 in reply to demonblaster

    Hi DB,

    Thanks, as always, for the heartfelt messages. You write from the heart and I can feel it through the screen....thank you.

    As for affection? I’ve gotten better at it and am happy to give and receive hugs on the forums.

    Giving you one of your famous “soul hugs” (if that’s okay)

    Pepper xoxo

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