Salutations to my fellow unacquainted friends. I understand we all live in some sort of state of despair and we all attempt to help eachother, here I am today, beseeching you to assist my emptiness, my pain and suffering.
I have Asian parents, parents who lived their life in a whole different learning environment, differing from the Australian curriculum. I for one, being commendable for their endurance, but the worst part is their lack of emotions they possess - making them less understandable of their children; me. They expect great fruition eversince they sent me to a private school, however, I understood their principles and decided to follow their steps. It didn't work out well, as I wasn't born a prodigy, no talents, nothing whatsoever. As a normal human being, I tried my hardest to earn the scores to their satisfaction, real hard, the effort was at its max. But the final realisation- the scores didn't reflect well on my parents, so I tried harder and harder until I was drained of motivation. I'm getting satisfactory levels, and I'm sure you are all squabbling about, "Some people are a lot worse than you," but that's not the point, because for a fact, I know their parents don't even care - being almost carefree, whilst I am always under dictation of my parents. They never really saw how much effort I put in, so now I stop attending school as I can no longer muster enough energy to go. It's a shame my school really looks at us as we are pawns for the bigger game, they informed my parents that I school concede my education as no certification of illness was found, yet, to them "depression" is not an illness. I had a talk with my mum, saying the pressure was immense and all the misdeeds you have done has caused my well being to deteriorate, and I thought they understood but they did not.
On the other hand, my sister had a sufficient amount of talents, scoring an ATAR of 92 - for them it was trash. And now they are wagering me to get a better score. Studying hard is one thing but doing that whilst being depressed is going to be difficult.
Going to school is a life long commitment and it's prevalent for people to lose their motivation, but I chose to stand my ground, I believe suicide is not the answer but that belief is slowly drifting away into the abyss. You people are now the foundation of my core, the people whom I can relate to. It is an honour to meet brave people who can voice their worries. Now, I feel a chunk of burden has been lifted off my back.