Hello Pink Feather,
How upsetting that must have been, especially when you had such anticipation of things panning out well during your trip.
I'm glad to hear the medication is going well. I have been taking something for my anxiety for a number of years now - I too voiced my concerns initially that I felt like taking medication was a cop-out and a failure on my part to cope with life's ups and downs. But I was told that so many people have similar needs and it's not a weakness at all to take medicines - it's simply the way some of us are wired, to excessively worry. So many people take medication for a range of things - headaches, high blood pressure, etc. and mine is for my anxiety which, while not a physical condition per se, is just as important for me to to nip in the bud and keep under control because, in turn, it can take a massive toll on me physically.
Sorry for my rambling... hope it helps :)
Best wishes, and big hugs.